Beautiful Journey

IN LOVE...

2011-11-23T13:03:00.003+08:00

I THINK I'M IN LOVE WITH MY NEW LAYOUT...NICE HUH? CERIA....

owwhhh actually now tgh take break jap... gile fenin tgk2 nombor pada screen... currently im doing my FINALE experiments for my study... hope everything run smoothly & NO MORE EXPERIMENT please.... mak capek.... also i've already sent my 1st draft to sv and now she's ready tu hunting me!!!! walaupon kelam kabut nk kejar requirement die tapi i'm soooooooo happy that my sv yg cr i!!!! meaning she's ready to really concentrate on my work... so tugak i skrg kene betul2 siapkan segala -mala permintaanyyer... now nk buat ppt slide for my overall study and abstract in order to submit my thesis submission form...

sikit lagi darling yzma... kene berusaha sgt sgt gigih.... semoga Allah permudahkan segala urusan ku, & berikan kesihatan pada diriku, keluarga & SV supaya segala yg kami rancang mendapat keberkatanMu, ya Allah...

till then..mmuuaahhh

p/s: zalifah really glad u read my blog!!!!

Life

2011-11-22T09:44:00.002+08:00

at the age 3-series nih life is so unpredictable..in the morning u happy-happy...and petang tetibe u blh moody xtentu pasal... heheh itu lar i skrg nih.. itu blm penyakit-penyakit yg dtg melanda... at age 31 i've already started to eat Lipitor...yeah baby...drug to reduce cholestrol... my cholestrol is damn high... before this Dr just ask me to control food...tp after 6 months check up, die reduce ciput jer..0.05% gitu..heheheh itu pon thanks to Monavie drink supplement yg i amik...

i memang xsuke control mkn..bg i makanan tuh nikmat.. so nape patut control.. but know thinking of my beloved hubby and heroes i start to take note all this matter... tp xdelar control sgt just reduce sket nasi, take more sayur BUT please xboleh tinggalkan KFC..especially the kulit part..hehehe mayb i just control the frequency of eating KFC.. mayb once a month or once in 3 months...

owh ok had to stop now..suddenly no mood to blog..tgk tuh..td berkobar now xde mood.. hheheh very unpredictable...hehehehe

till then...ciow!

1st draft

2011-10-24T08:15:00.003+08:00

uish tup tap tup tap dah end of october.. skejap btul rasenyer tahun nie.. and saya pon dah start masuk kerja balik... currently tgh memulun writing... ikut kan nafsu yg jahat ini malas & down nyer rase nk buat writing..tp memikirkan semangat nk habiskan cecepat ..tulis jer lar... hopefully by end of next month can submit 1st draft.. and obviously akan byk gilos correction sebab my sv very particular bab writing nih... apape pon doakan kami yg sedang buat PhD yek...

till then..muah! muah!

Ada Ape Dengan Tutor?

2011-08-18T09:13:00.003+08:00

Actually dah lame memendamkan hal ini & kekadang ade meluahkan rase pd hubby, member or laman sosial.. bukan tidak bersyukur dengan rezeki Allah berikan..tetapi kekadang cara layanan di tempat ini menyebabkan timbulnye tidak puas hati ditempat kerja. Kekadang cube juge untuk berfikiran positif namun hati ini meronta ronta untuk menjerit ketidak puas hatian..

Ada ape dengan tutor? ape beza tutor dengan lecturer lain yg juge belum habis belajarnyer... meminta basic facilities untuk diletakkan dalam bilik bagaikan meminta sedekah ditepi jalanan yg belum tentu dapat ke tidak.. itu belum minta advance facility seperti bilik baru. Yeee mmg saya belum habis belajar.. So wats with it?

yang saya ni pon 1...kenape mesti teruskan hidup di dunia yg keep on comparing the 'TUTOR' status.. this world is soooooooo not me... reading, writing, duk diam2 dlm bilik memikirkan masalah yg perlu diselesaikan.. saya seorang yg ceria, semangat untuk membuat kerja, suke berinteraksi dgn org lain, sgt suke mengajar... end up kerja duduk dlm bilik sesorang & syiok sendiri doing research... mmg rase nk menangis.. selalu wondering what if I kerja di tempat lain.. should I be better person than I am now..

adakah saya seorang yg tidak bersyukur?? saya sendiri tidak tahu.. bukan semorang dapat peluang utk dpt cuti belajar dgn bergaji penuh...juge bukan semorang dapat tempat kerja yg stabil..ade yg kerja hanye di office yg kecil shj... tp klu hati senang ape salahnyerkan..drpd kerja di tempat yg stabil tp ssenantiasa hati yeg resah...pon xgune juge... ade master tp rase mcm sgt hina duduk di sini.. terase so in LOW level mcm org xde SPM... ooo awak tutor? tutor xleh dpt printer... ooo awak tutor? tutor boleh dial limited extension shj... awak belum habis belajar? ooo kene duduk blok sini jer sebab blok sane utk org yg ade PHD.... hello habis yg lecturer bertahun2 xhabis belajar boleh lar plak kan duk sane.. WTH..

Marah mmg sangat marah.. juge timbul perasaan benci untuk kerja disini.. tapi yang pasti saya tidak akan putus asa untuk habiskan study saya.. saya da xkesah dah.. lu xnk gua, gua blh cr kerja tempat lain.. tp gua akan habiskan phd gua.. main style double standard dgn insan bergelar 'TUTOR' yek.... dengan year of service xdikire.. gov loan facilities xdpt.. Astaghfirullahalazim..

ya Allah berikan aku kekuatan dalam meneruskan pemblajaran aku ini.. jangan ko jadikan aku seorang hamba yg tidak bersyukur di atas rezeki yg Kau berikan. Ya Allah permudahkan segala urusan ku untuk menyiapkan PHD...sesungguhnyer aku insan yg lemah, yg mudah marah, yg rendah pendiriannyer.. Kau lindungilar aku sekeluarga drpd anasir2 jahat yg boleh menggugat keimananku pada Mu ya Allah...ya Allah jangan Kau biarkan aku berputus asa dalam meneruskan pembelajaran ini...Berilar aku semangat ya Allah...

selamat berpuasa & selamat masuk kerja!!

2011-08-16T06:58:00.002+08:00

Alhamdulillah sudah masuk 16 hari kite berpuasa.. skejap je kan... next week Monday saya officially masuk kerja setelah 4thn cuti belajar... debo jugak..buan ape takut xleh nk cope up study dgn kerja... tp insyaAllah dgn pertolongan Allah segala urusan boleh diselesaikan...cepat ke lambat ke mesti disiapkan...

tp dlm debo debo tuh kekobar gaks nk masuk kerja.. siap beli baju baru, handbag baru, seluar baru..maklumlar baju opis yg lelame xmuat..sebab b4 cuti belajar blm ade anak lg..skrg dah 2, so size badan agak berlainan..hhehehe

pasal belajar plak skrg stage final experiment..hope everything goes well..lepas complete experiment ni blhlar concentrate writing plak...

oklar not in a mood tulis pepanjang..ini pon sesambil run experiment..

till then...muah! muah!

Current Stage

2011-07-20T01:28:00.005+08:00

Rizq Hadif 2thn...Rayyan 3thn...Phd 4 thn...

WOW cepatnyer mase berlalu.....

Macam macam Rasa

2011-05-10T13:18:00.002+08:00

sekarang ni saya mempunyai perlbagai rasa...rasa gembira melihat anak2 membesar dengan seihat...rasa risau mengenangkan kolestrol & sugar level sgt tinggi, rasa sedih & rendah diri mengenangkan nk kene start write thesis tp xterror nk tulis in english walaopun bahasa melayu.. okkei stop kat sini dulu tentang rasa... dr sekolah rendah lg saya memang mempunyai masalah tentang membuat karangan.. ini mmg kelemahan dalam diri.. mmg dr dulu cuba perbaiki kelemahan namun diri masih terasa rendah bile ade nyer bab tulis menulis ini..tidak kire bahasa melayu atau bahasa inggeris saya mmg kurang mahir dalam menulis.. ape yg cube disampaikan dalam penulisan tentunyer tidak sampai akan maksudnya. ingat lg mase sekolah menengah, siap cikgu bagi few of example for beginning of the essay..sebabnyer ayat2 saya mmg xbest & langsung tiada berbunga bunga...

dulu mase master , most of the ayat SV saya btulkan.. kini utk PHD mule untuk menulis..saya sgt sedih & down...tp alang2 menyeluk pekasam...kite kasi habis ini PHD!!!!!! mari menulis!!!

owhh anyway sambung about rasa..skrg nie saya rase nk makan dessert manis2!!!!! saya rasa tidak pedulik dgn kadar gula yg tinggi!!!! NK JUGAK MAKAN MANIS2!!!!

Till then..muah! muah!

Cinta Cholestrol...

2011-04-21T10:28:00.002+08:00

Pernah dgr Xanthelasma?
Taken from encik Wikipedia "Xanthelasma is a sharply demarcated yellowish collection of cholestrol underneath the skin usually on or around eyelids".

From other reference " Xanthelasma may occur in connection to hypercholestrolaemia (high cholestrol/serum lipid level). Patient with hypercholestrolaemia are at a higher risk of gettin stroke and heart attack."

And wondering why me sibuk sibuk explain about Xanthelasma???
yesss baby.. I do have Xanthelasma on my right eyelid. :( in fact there is sign to appear another one on my other eyelid.. Punyelar I sibuk2 nak kuruskan badan yet my cholestrol level god damn high.. yesterday went for cholestrol check up. And as expected the cholestrol level is higher then normal value. The optimum value is 5.7 yet mine is 7.6.. And the is also test for LDL (bad cholestrol) and HDL (good cholestrol).. and guest what?? my HDL is lower then it supposed to be BUT the WORST scenario my LDL is far far higher from the optimum value. For normal value the LDL must be <2.6. But mine is 5.8!!!! horror kan...

DR suggest me to change my family planning method. Currently me using depo injection (once in 3 months)..this kind of injection effect hormone where my calcium level become low (the reason I keep on having spasm in my low abdomen) and most probably the cholestrol level become higher due to the same reason. Also need to change my eating behavior (iyer saye sgt suke akan lemak2 daging dan juge telur masin..) and last but not least need more exercise!!

need to loose at least 3 kgs within this 3 months.. boleh ke? hmm terpakse kan... before this i dont really believe in food diet.. buat now have to... have to start new eating lifestyle.. no more oily food, no more seafood.. tsk tsk soooo sedih..

so for today i start with fasting. Ate oat for sahur (sooo xsedap)... I believe with fasting we can control our diet easily BUT dgn syarat jgn berbuke secara melampau...

Doakan semoga saya sekeluarga sihat sejahtera..

Till then.. muah! muah!

Camwhoring Myself

2011-03-09T10:48:00.003+08:00

da lame teringin nk tulis kat blog nih tp ade jer pelbagai alasan yg menghalang... nway kesan drpd ke-fobia-an saya mencecah 3-series nih.. saya byk juga mengubah penampilan... selain drpd ops korset yg masih dilakukan skrg ini..saya mula berjinak2 dgn make up..mostly everyday ke office saya pki make up.. bukan ape just nk bg nampak kulit muke tu sentiase ceria & sekate warna nyer.. :)rase lebih confident if i put on make up. nway pasal corset walaupon saya xcontrol mkn sgt tp saya telah nampak sedikit perubahannyer..sooo happy okkei... the flabby on the side of my tummy sudah tiada!!!skrg the challenge is to get rid the flabby on the lower front of tummy.. agak sukar sekiranyer xdiet kan..mayb can try tp xnk mendadak diet.. i hate diet! i've mention previously that before this i makan de bella lecithin..and it really works in reducing our appetite. langsung xselera mkn okkei..but i'm not going to continue consume the product since its kind of expensive. Therefore skrg ini saya telah terasa akan kesannyer which is selera mkn saya kian bertambah...skejap je da terase lapar..agak takut jugak lar.. tp cube sendiri utk kontrol jgn mkn byk sgt...sekarang pon da start joging with heroes..not every morning lar tp klu kami anak beranak bgn awal blh lar main2 kat dpn padang...talking about heroes mesti wajib letak gambar diorg..

Till then.. muah! muah

1st Update for Year 2011

2011-01-27T10:31:00.006+08:00

Alhamdulillah... syukur telah masuk tahun baru dengan hati yang gembira.. Semalam genap Rizq Hadif berumur 1 tahun 2 bulan 22 hari sudah pon pandai berjalan.. *clap clap happy Terima kasih ya Allah di atas nikmatMu.. I am so happy and proud of my baby... Since Hadif is a pre-term baby, I always worried about his development. mcm2 cerita I dgr pasal pre-term baby..tapi Alhamdulillah so far perkembangan Hadif sgt memuaskan.. Even though his not as advance as rayyan but his doing really well... so dah boleh jalan, next mission ajar cakap plak... now every morning me suruh my maid bukak vocabulary cd utk Hadif tgk.. so klu die rajin die akan ngadap..but mostly end up nangis sbb kene tgl sesorang depan tv..heheheh

tapi dalam mendidik anak-anak nih kite kene byk bersabar kan.. rayyan & hadif have kind of different character.. rayyan is more on education activity.. he really love to watch the vocab CD, love to read book & now his new hobby is doing puzzle!! However hadif is more on activity lasak.. Just imagine, hadif sgt berkobar utk berjalan hanya keraana he wants to kick ball!! oowwwhhh akak masih teringat during his pregnancy akak sgt meng-adore ittew malaysia football player yg kembar zaquan & saper ntah name sorang lg... mungkinkah rizq hadif bakal menjadi pemain bola sepak profesional 1 hari nanti??? hadif really likes to kick ball.. he also likes to panjat2.. agak active my 2nd heroes nie compare to his abang.. apperpon me still love both of my heroes and also the bapak hero.. :)

Hadif tunjuk skill main ball

Nway Rayyan da start his playgroup session... it start Nov 2010.. Alhamdulillah rayyan react positively. he follow instruction and kind of having fun in class.. tapi actually i xbrp suke sgt the activity in the class. keep on repeating the same thing.. plus now ade cikgu baru yg replace yg soooo not experience.. but since its near to our house and rayyan actually still small to go to kindy then we decide to stay at this playgroup..mean while i'm still hoping for ALIM kids group for rayyan to join them..currently the class is full...rayyan is in the waiting list..kat Kajang nie mmg xbyk playgroup utk children age 2-4 years,... maybe I should open one centre kan.. tgklar habis study nih boleh gak diconsiderkan.. :)

Rayyan at his playgroup

Ok enough story about my heroes..now I want to gossip bout myself plak... sejak2 masuk 3-series nie kan..saya seakan akan freaking out uols!!!! takut gemuk, takut muke berkedut, takut gigi buruk, takut baju x cun... so dengan itu telah pelbagai perkara saya lakukan.. antaranya ialah mission memakai corset selama 3 bulan!!! yeah ini adalah semangat yg berkobar2!!! saya rase akibat ceaser, semasa pantang xblh pakai bengkung menyebabkan perut saya menjadi buncit dan menggeleber semacam...ditambahkan pula dgn kegemukan yg teramat skrg menyebabkan kebuncitan saya telah melebih paras yg merbahaya hingga org ingat saya sedang pregnant lg!!! sgt stress okkei berkeadaan begini... mula2 saya berkobar nk sit up.. UNFORTUNATELY bile sit up byk2 kali, bhgn scar ceaser saya itu menjadi cramp!!! so takut lar plak nk buat sit up byk2 kali...Hari ini adalah hari ke-3 saya memakai corset..ada 87 hari to go! Doakan semoga saya berjaya pakai everyday for 3 months & nk tgk keberkesanannyer.. U CAN DO IT YZMA!

Next mission is to go for exercise.. memandangkan kelas di *a*i GYM itu mlm shj available, saya terpaksa menamatkan hasrat untuk join.. So saya akan menggantikan dengan join pocho-pocho kelas once a week shj... yang lain tuh saya akan berjogging di luar rumah shj... Semangat utk bgn pg pergi berjogging bukan senang okkei..memerlukan semangat yg kental utk bgn tdo pepagi & bersiap utk jogging..*sigh tp demi menjaga ke-cun-an diri hingga tua akak tetap akan lakukan..chewah!!

utk kecantikan muka pula, saya telah membeli pelbagai serum & moisterizer utk ditempekkan di muka ini... especially the eye part.. takut pula wrinkle2 yg akan mula keluar ittew.. so i decide to put on eye serum dgn harapan to reduce or make th wrinkle keluar slowly... so damn slowly..heheh sebelum nie saya just buat simple step sblm tdo..td skrg tidak lg.. mcm2 cream akan ditempekkan dimuke sblm tdo..

disamping itu juga, pagi2 saya everyday minum fruit juice utk kecantikan kulit & pelawsan sistem badan.. juga saya makan jamu mak dara utk kecergasan..tp actually saya lbh suka kepada ma'jun (ape ntah nama brand die) coz kesan lg mantop & cergas.. plus memaintainkan nafsu batin gittew :p skrg juga saya sdg amalkan product Lecithin from da Bella.. Produk ini telah dibeli oleh mama.. tp produk ni agak mahal & saya just decide nk habiskan 1 cycle ini sajo... & nanti kite lihat kesannya.. TUNGGU... and also saya ade minum produk kesihatan called INTRA.. i think this product is quite good.. plus the price is affordable..pastinye saya akan teruskan peminuman.. :)

owwhh saya sgt berharap dengan usaha saya ini saya akan menjadi lebih positive, well maintain dr segi kesihatan, kecunan & keaktifan diri..

mama with two heroes ..do i look soo 3-series mama?? Yes? No?

Till then..muah! muah!

My Love Dont Cost A Thing

2010-12-22T10:05:00.002+08:00

Heard the song this morning by J LO... teringat semalam hubby ckp die minta maaf if what his gain not enough to pleasure me & the kids.. I was soo touched... seriously i xpenah merungut (okkeilar kekadang ade jugak mintak2 barang..hehehe) dengan segala rezeki yg ade.. I believe in Allah..and i believe wateva we get from Him is the best for all of us.. so far kami xpenah kehabisan makanan..kami tidak merempat ..tempat tinggal kami sempurna..Alhamdulillah rezeki senantiasa ade... kesihatan yg baik utk kami & anak anak...anak anak membesar dgn sempurna.. keluarga & kawan senantiasa menggembirakan kami.. so ape lg yg saye mahu...? this is the happiness i always wanted..U, ME & the KIDS...

So Faizal dearie...

No matter how much u gain it doesnt really matter... u know i will alwiz be there with u.. we shall go thru everything together no matter how hard it is.. I Love U so much dear... and REMEBER: my Love dont Cost a Thing!!!

Till then..muah! muah!

azam 2011

2010-12-03T17:49:00.004+08:00

lame sungguh xmenulis sekarang nie....seriously mmg xde mood btul nk tulis blog..xtau nk tulis ape...cite pasal vacation part II pon tak tertulis.. kenape yek?

lately nie perasaan begitu berkecamuk..mungkin di hujung2 belajar nie buatkan kite jd stress terlebih...pastuh bende kecik pon nk create jd besar...adoi..

nway its already December..hanye lg beberapa hari kite akan masuk tahun baru 2011.. so wats my new resolution.?? last year azam saya adalah untuk lebih rajin memasak di rumah..Alhamdulillah saya masih melaksanakan azam itu... so untuk tahun 2011 azam saya untuk lebih rajin belajar & siapkan PhD and submit my thesis at least at the end of 2011...

Juga saya berazam untuk menjadi ibu yg lebih baik dari sebelum ini..cube spent more time with my heroes..Lebih banyakkk bersabar melayan kerenah anak2.. anak2 ini adalah amanah Allah kepada kite..oleh itu kite kenelar jaga amanah Allah ini sebaik baik yg mungkin..

Ya Allah semoga ko permudahkan urusanku dalam mendidik anak2ku & juga urusan pembelajaranku...

Till then..muah! muah!

Rizq Hadif One Year Old

2010-11-06T23:33:00.003+08:00

5 November 2010 genap Rizq hadif my second child turn to 1!! Macam xpercaya kejadian bleeding during pregnant Hadif selepas makan Mc Donald & terus dikejarkan di hospital sudah setahun berlalu..Walaupun Hadif dilahirkan pre-term 35th weeks Alhamdulillah saya sgt bersyukur pada Ilahi kerana Hadif membesar dgn sempurna dari segi kesihatan & juga fizikal.. Kini Rizq Hadif sudah berumur setahun.

Buat Rizq Hadif Tersayang....

Mama doakan semoga Hadif membesar menjadi anak yang soleh..

Taat pada Allah, taat pada Rasul, taat pada papa & mama,

Semoga Rizq Hadif membesar dgn sempurna akal fikiran, fizikal & diberikan kesihatan yg sempurna,

Rajin beramal, berilmu, berakhlak mulia & bertanggungjawab...

Papa, mama & abang Rayyan syayang Hadif sangat sangat!!!

Till then..muah! muah!

Rome, Padova & CLEF2010

2010-10-12T11:17:00.002+08:00

Banyak bende nk tulis tapi xtau nk start dr mane...hmm sudah agak lame xmenulis... ini disebabkan terlalu banyak bende yg serabut dlm kepale otak ini.. Alhamdulillah everything getting better...Kenape serabut?? disebabkan risau xtentu pasal pasal our Europe trip last September..Alhamdulillah everything went well...best tapi penat...

We start the journey on 16th September at 3am to Rome by Qatar Airline..transit kat Doha airport.. I loike Qatar Airline.. even me bring along both heroes, boleh dikatekan the flight is confortable..of course lar budak2 meragam..tp xseteruk mane..still boleh handle.. the bassinet, the food We reach Rome at 1.30pm local time...It was nice shiny day...then directly go to our Bibi & Romeo Bed & Breakfast... The room is quite small for 5 of us but still ok.. Sampai bilik semuer kepenatan & treus tidur..

Next day baru ler start berjalan ke Vatican City (its just a walk distance from our place)..Then afternoon we went to Rome mosque (used to be a church) for friday pray... our cleaner (Abdul)at b&b was a bangladeshi & muslim..so he guide us to the mosque..sementara tunggu hubby semayang kitorang p melantak nasi kat pasar2 luar masjid tuh..Later we met a chinese muallaf lady (Khadeja) at the mosque who volunteered to be our tourist guide.. Abdul & Khadeja showed us how to go to Trevi Fountain & Spanish Step.. really enjoy it!

The next day we went to designer outlet..unfortunately it was raining that day.. For those yg pernah pergi outlet almaklumlar its just deretan kedai & tiada beratap..so bile hujan tuh terpaksa lar kami berlindung di food court sampai me myself xde mood nk bershopping.. :( manage to buy innerwear & a pair of shoes shj...

The next day is our flight to Venice. Then from Venice we take a cab to Padova. Padova ni tempat conference CLEF 2010 yg saya nk pergi... the conference held at Universitas Studii Paduani.. I really love staying at Padova.. The accomodation, surrounding, kedai shopping nyer smuer best2!!! Apartment yg kami rent sgt selesa & byk kemudahan...plus the owner sgt baik hati.. the owner lend me her bike so its easier for me to go to the conference.. it was so joyful riding a bike at very nice place.. saye rase saye the only person in Padova who wear hijab during cycling.. org local pon pelik tgk me bawak bicycle kat area diorg..heheheh it was such a good experience & memory...

About the conference..Alhamdulillah dapat banyak ilmu baru..especially on extraction features..okies..before the conference was held, the organizer had given us sample of dataset...so we download the dataset & apply it using our method and then evaluate based on their criteria... so during the conference there are lots of discussion on which method the best & still how to improve for better performance.. since the dataset is a compilation of images and textual information based on HTML script. Most of the applicant used textual feature for retrieve & classify..ade juga yg combine both textual and visual.. but for those yg use only visual feature result in poor performance... why?? thats the question i need to prove that using visual also can produce better performance using different method & solution.

What I like the most about this conference, they already have guideline in evaluation of every run system submitted.. Therefore its easier for me to compare the result of my run system with others without developing or running their system..Isn't that great?? tp yg xbest kalau result kite poor than them...but thats wat we call research kan!! klu lg teruk mesti cr jalan to improve the result kan!!! owwwhhh i'm so sexcited to complete my run system & compare with them!!!!

hopefully can get better result & submit for CLEF next year.. dgr2 cite nak buat kat Greek plak.. SV disayangi, boleh saya pergi lagi?? hehehehhe

Meanwhile I need to practice present for my proceeding paper conference tomorrow...yer saya sgt gile conference..hehehe Journal satu pon tadak lagi!!! aduih!!!! ini just small conference held in U*M...dibiaya sepenuhnyer oleh diri sendiri.. pergi ni pon nk cr potential examiner.. hopefully dapatlar new knowledge and good networking... Actually I do believe with networking... lg bagus your networking lagi mudah untuk u buat kerja & mengembangkan ilmu anda...chewah!

So oklar..ade mase lain nanti saya sambung lg cerite tentang Europe trip saye yang Paris & London..but seriously, saya sgt jatuh hati pada Italy.. InsyaAllah ade rezeki lebih I will definitely come again..boleh x berangan nk pergi dgn hubby jer mcm honeymoon.. heroes tinggal dgn nenek yek!!! hehehehe

Gambar?? sile refer pada Facebook saya yek..

Till then..muah! muah!

where have i been?

2010-08-13T23:12:00.002+08:00

i'm here.. i'm still here.. infact i am staying still without doing nothing.. i mean in my research study.. yeap..no progress..

so hello hello world.... lame jugak dah xupdate.. actually sooo many story to tell tp soooo not in a mood to write.. after i wrote my last entry i had my phd candidature defend..Dengan penuh semangat saya menyiapkan quarter of my research...habiskan running all the features, then analyze the features & come out with features set..Alhamdulillah everything goes well...biaselar ade komen itu sket, sini sket..tp overall everything is ok & yg plg penting the research is accepted for my phd...

so wats next?? i'm supposed to develop my technique to train the features set for each modality..unfortunately till now NON ADO progress.. itular saya.. skejap bole jd student yg sgt berjaya dan esok blh bertukar menjadi student yg pemalas..

PLUS sgt sgt banyak bende terjadi.. owwhh skrg saya official umur 30 thn.. dan bulan ini adalah bulan pertama saya period after 9 months giving birth of Hadif.. last month mmg saya sgt stress.. 1st sebab saya ingat saya pregnant sebab langsung xde tanda2 untuk saya dtg period.. so as usual panic xtentu pasal, so asyik nak marah2 je..so dengan senang hati saya salahkan hormon saya menyebabkan saya menjadi sangat pemalas untuk belajar.. tp dgn tibe2 1st august, brown spot keluar & continously keluar mcm period..Alhamdulillah.. saya lega...

then baru nk start belajar balik both my heroes di attack hand mouth foot disease.. 1st week Hadif kene then Rayyan on the following week.. aduih.. sgt bisa ok virus nih..habis mulut my heroes dipenuhi ulcer.. sian sgt diorg.. so after sebulan malas buat kerja, ditambah lg 2 minggu untuk menjaga heroes yg sakit...

sekarang smangat utk belajar dtg kembali (actually more on rase guilty yg terlalu menebal menyebabkan nk kene belajar balik).. tp xpe..janji xputus asa kan.. bagi saya waktu belajar jgn dipaksa2.. klu terase nk speed up u speed & concentrate btul2..klu u rase malas, layankan aje.. sbb paksa2 diri pon rase merana..apa gunanya... hehehe (sile jgn ikut style saya belajar :p)

tup tap dah Ramadhan..1st day puasa..2nd day puasa tp petang tu klua sket2 brown spot..*sigh 3rd day xpose...then esok 4th day nk pose & hopefully brown spot xkuar lg.. tensionnyer bile period sket2 nie...xberbaloi sungguh rasanya..

dengan ini saya ambil kesempatan untuk memohon maaf bg pihak saya, faizal, rayyan & hadif sekiranya kami sengaja atau tidak sengaja melakukan kesilapan..Semoga ramadhan kali ini kite diberkati Allah dan melakukan amalan ibadah lebih baik drpd tahun yg sebelumnya..

Till then..muah! muah!

Bersenam di 'Kaki Gym'

2010-06-21T14:06:00.003+08:00

(Gambar Hiasan)

Last week I really had great time!! mengapa?? kerana saya telah pergi trial aerobic class ... Saya lately nih mmg gian sgt nk beraerobic...xtau nape...mungkin dah terase badan terlalu flabby... what happend to my cycling activity?? I feltlike not really enjoying myself when cycling alone.. so i decide to cycle only with hubby and heroes terchenta... thats mean I only reserved weekend morning for the cycling activity.. so week days i plan to join 'Kaki Gym' fitness centre to fullfill my senaman activity...

So last week I go for Yoga & Belly dance.. mase memule buat Yoga, mak demam urat uols... juz imagine 2 thn xbuat exercise, terus start dengan stretching canggih of yoga..xterkejut urat2 dalaman nih!! siap kat below abdomen ( tmpt c-sect) cramp!!! takut jugak..tp pikir2 balik its been 7 months since my c-sect opt..xkan xbaik lg kot..so i blasah jer teruskan..

next 2 days pergi plak belly dance class... mmg syiok habis..mcm ala2 joget lambak..semuer depa campur..cha-cha, mambo, ramba..ape ntah lg nape depa panggil...tp mmg seronok..terkenang-kenang zaman pegi clubbing dulu..ooppsss...

badan pon feel energetic..happy to have very sporting crowds & mostly yg join pompuan that me confortable to join with...cant wait to signing up this end of the month!! tp nk kene tunggu pay day.. this renovation thingy really make my pocket empty.. :(

oowwwhh saya still terlupa mau amik gmbar rumah saya yg baru cat.. Yesterday Fab28 dtg lepak rumah I..and cakap the dark color paint look very nice yet not really matching with the upper part..aiyok!! hentam saja lar..hehehe

on weekend altho hubby xde (p amik gambar Japan GT at S*IC), me had been accompanied with my in laws family on saturday and my beloved family & Fab28 on SUnday.. Actually me juz plan lepak2 with Fabulous yesterday sambil masak sup tulang & ayam goreng berempah...tetibe my father called nk buat Tenpanyaki kat my house..then me also invite my sister to join us..so tetibe semalam mcm ala2 mini kenduri di rumah i.. we really had nice chit-chating..plus petang tuh singgah pasar malam beli apam balik hijau yg sgt sedappp ittew..sedap ke Fabulous?? :p

pg td me tetibe sgt penat & penyakit malas datang menyerang..so i decide buat lg run coding instead of doing reading..time2 malas nih klu buat reading nih buang masa jer.. hehehe at least klu run data set boleh gak akak tulis blog nih...

Till then..Muah! muah!

membebel

2010-06-15T13:52:00.002+08:00

post ini dibuat sementara menunggu dataset tgh run.. so far ade around 2000 medical images dr pelbagai jenis.. kekadang rase mcm confident jer dgn ape yg buat tp kekadang rase mcm ntah ape2 & buang masa jer..hehehe..hentam saja lar labu..klu xbuat experiment cemane nk tau result nyer..yer x?

nway skarang nk cerite pasal ape yg saya rase skrg ini.. skrg yg rase gemuk! terase double chin smakin menebal didagu...makan x control, exercise da lame stop!!! addooii... last friday ade usha fitness centre "Kaki GYM"...near by to my house..boleh naik beskal jer..tp most aerobic class die buat malam plak.. haih.. tanye hubby actually die mcm berat nk kasi join tp disebabkan saye mmg terlalu meminati aerobic sejak anak dara lg so die pon kasi...plus the fee not really expensive.. i pon bkn ler nk g every day.. thinking of joining yoga, introsteps & belly dance,...hmmm tgkler cemane..nk go for trial class dulu..

2ndly sekarang saya rase sedih..ade gud fren saya mcm nk jauhkan diri drpd saye.. ke perasaan saye jer nih? but normally at least once a week kami akan call & gossip. now its been 2 weeks since my last call that she promised me to call back..wat shall i do? i think she had problem but malu to share it with me..but WHY? itu persoalan yang senantiasa berada difikiran saya hingga kini.. oowwhhh i miss gossiping with her.. :(

3rdly saya sgt happy & debo jugak..my opismate nk viva this monday & her external will b my SV.. saya doakan everything goes smoothly and she will pass succesfully.. kemudian saya terpikir, bile lar agaknyer giliran saya..kene buat cepat2 nih..tp actually saya xstart writing lg..bile lar mau start writing nih..semangat! semangat!

4thly skrg saya tgh rindu anak2 saya... woohhooo mcm xcaye saya sudah ade anak 2.. Alhamdulillah comel, sihat & sempurna.. ape lar agaknyer diorg tgh buat kat umah nenek die.. rayyan mesti tgh boring sbb arinih aleea xde...mesti die ngamuk2 & jerit ya Allah! ya Allah! ya Allah!! yess itular ungkapan rayyan bile die tgh jerit ngamuk2...sooo cute! Hadif plak mesti tgh cemek nk tdo..owhh anyway pg td maid i baru jer menjahanamkan blender utk bubur hadif...sakit hati saya.. ptg ni kene beli baru ..kang esok xterblend plak bubur anak mama...

5thly saya sgt xsbr rumah saya habis cat...chantek ker rumah i nanti...wait n see yek... warna rumah melambangkan keperibadian owner rumah..tp klu cat rumah warna mcm 'kap lam ya nga'....malu wooo....hopefully sesuwei ler color rumah kami dgn jiwa kami....

6thly belakang saya sgt sakit & lenguh..mayb due to byk sgt minum air sejuk...since beranak hadif i mmg fav minum air sejuk!!! sgt xbagus ok! plus i rase gigi i buruk sgt skrg nie..saya rase nk g scaling skrg jugak!! tp tgklar esok lusa nk p PK kat upm nk scaling

oklar saya rase sampai skrg update utk ape yg saye rase skrg sebab sekarang saya sgt LAPAR!!!! mau pegi makan dulu..

Till Then!! Muah! Muah!

i'm lucky

2010-06-09T16:41:00.004+08:00

with no particular reason

i'm happy now..

i have wonderful husband and two little precious that always make me smile..

give me strength when i'm feeling down

i have lovely parents and siblings that always cheer me up..

i have very supportive supervisor that always encourage me to become a good student and researcher...

always inspire me, advise and support me on how to be a successful lecturer in the future.

i have beautiful friends that always support me, always be there when i'm feeling down.

ALHAMDULILLAH

i'm lucky

Lazy Week

2010-05-19T11:09:00.006+08:00

Last friday berjaya to meet my SV..Alhamdulillah ape yg dirancangkan berjalan dengan lancar.. My work, my preliminary idea, my idea of using imageClef as dataset, my earlier experiment using shape-based to classify the modality of the image make my SV quite impressed. Die ckp " ermm nampak research u towards ke-PhD-an " Alhamdulillah i'm so happy..yet still LOTS & LOTS & LOTS of work to do..ini baru the beginning yea...

Next step will be testing color-based and texture-based features plak.. look for the accurate features to combine in order to develop the annotation system. tgh pk2 nk gune semantic ke x nih..nk buat relevance feedback method x?? ermm tgk kemampuan dulu..hehehe Actually this is one of the task that request by imageCLEF2010. Differentiate 8 modalities of medical images. Its a big challenge especially when u deal with CT scan, MRI and x-ray images when they all only have subtle different from each other.. so any idea guys?? jgn segan2 share dgn i yek... :D

Sepatutnya this week saya berkobar-kobar untuk buat kerja selepas berjumpa dgn SV. tp xtau nape mood mcm mandom plak this week..Especially bile both of my heroes kurang sihat sket.. kene cough & flu..Hadif plak temperature up & down.. So from saturday till yesteday i juz focus on my kids. Last nite hubby letak turpedo dekat buntut Hadif.. Alhamdulillah pg nie Hadif dah xdemam.. so i anta my kids umah my mum..tetibe rase mcm guilty plak.. Hadif baru baik terus anta sane..salah ke yek?? tapi klu xanta heroes kat uma mama i really cant concentrate on my work.. xpelar siang nie i declaire choti utk i dr research work & jage anak2.. kejap lagi nak qada' tdo yg dah brp mlm xdpt rehat..sesambil bukak2 jurnal yg terbengkalai nih... & jugak nk try coding dlm buku yg sgt berguna tp baru tau yg i ade buku tuh tersimpan chantek jer dlm almari.. (erkk ini mcm nk buat research work jer..hantam sajalar labu...)

tapi mmg serious xde mood.. hopefully this bad/evil mood will go away.. mungkin sbb lately nih krg rehat utk diri sendiri buat i moody utk belajar..(alasan yg best kan...>:-) )

nway nk cerite last tuesday we all (hubby, me, rayyan, hadif & bibik!) went to Aquaria.. saje2 nk ajar Hadif berjalan naik kereta.. All the way i pegang Hadif..die mmg xmau duk carseat.. Merengek2 jugak lar dlm car sbb die nk tdo tp die nk kite bounce2 die..but since we all in the car the area to bounce is so limited.. so marrah lar pakcik hadif nih.. tp bile dah sampai carpark klcc baru lar Hadif cool nak menetek & terus tdo.. Adoi..terpaksa mak keluar dr kereta, dukung hadif yg tgh tdo with my unhook nursing bra okkei..hehehe nasib baik dicover by kepala hadif..kalau x nampak inbalanced plak my boobies..heheheh

anyone notice the inbalanced? xkan?? heheh

inside the Aquaria's tunnel

with my beloved heroes

Rayyan
Rizq Hadif

Alhamdulillah the tour for that day went smoothly..Biaselar Hadif merengek sket2.. 2nd time Hadif tdo dlm gendongan bibik plak..(thats the main reason I bring my bibik along..untuk jadi tmpt tdo hadif..heheh) Rayyan plak so amazed looking @ differnt kinds of fish..tp kejap je lar amazed nyer pastuh die main lari2...

pastuh we went to Kinakuniya klcc to buy books for the kids..I xtau lar yg perasan sesorang ker tp I think my heroes love books! Hadif pon same.. Bile die nampak rak buku tuh die sexcited semacam.. Now klu I ade free time i will read books for them & diorg berdua mulut ngangan tgk mama die tergedik2 berceriter...heheheh

Apape pon I am so happy for my both heroes..Semoga anak2 mama menjadi anak yg soleh, yang berguna di dunia & akhirat.. Ameen..

Till then.. muah! muah!

p/s: maaf gambar kureng memuaskan..juz amik from fb photo album shj..

Hadif 6 bulan...

2010-05-05T16:13:00.003+08:00

Alhamdulillah hari ini genap my 2nd hero 6 bulan...i'm sooo happy Hadif grow up as normal baby (since he is a pre-term baby, i'm quite worried about side effect of it)...segala effect pre-term Hadif, macam mate senantiasa berair, testis besar sket( angin pasang) semua tue dah kembali normal.. Bagi I baby 6 months dah a bit stable..not too worry especially di malam hari..

Hadif pon same mcm Rayyan dulu...jenis nk relax jer..menyiarap ker berguling ke smuer die xmain.. tp yg spesel nye Hadif ni die xmau diletakkan dibawah.. Senantiasa nk didukung.. pastu sgt anti naik keta..adoi..part ni yg letih sket..hehehe so at the mean time kitorg juz pegi tempat dekat2 jer..susah sket nk g jenjalan jauh2...

OK now nk story pasal study life I plak..

Actually me a bit down..Almost 2 months xjumpa SV. Bukan I yg xnk jupe tp die yg duk ngelat nk jupe..Adakah SV sudah xsuke pada saye? Nauzubillah..tp mostly student under her supervised having the same problem..Infact people at the faculty (staff ) also difficult to see her.. Currently she's taking sebatical leave..so she take her own sweet time to come to the office. And guess what? she's normally available @ faculty around 5pm onwards.. For those RA and single & available student bolehlar pegikan..as for me, nk fetch anak, nak masak lagi..soo wrong timing lar to meet her..

Honestly on this 6th sem I baru really really tau nk buat ape for my PhD work..yeahh I know I mmg lembap gile..tp I malas nk pikir2 negative (and yes my twice giving birth of Rayyan & Hadif are the main reason of this kelembapan & I swear I never regret!)..i'm quite happy with my work..feels like i'm in the right track..well juz go on with wat I'm doing now but sadly cannot really discuss this matter directly with my sv..Die suruh email jer everything..cane?? xkan nk email coding kot..*sigh pastuh sibuk suruh tulis jurnal...nk tulis jurnal amende..? result pon baru dpt ciput... student lain yg dah ujung2 tuh boleh lar tulis, me stakat proceeding boleh lar..esok2 bile da compile smuer baru lar best nk buat jurnal..ape pendapat u all?? sesuai ke kite nk tulis jurnal bile kat just on the early stage of our research ( only have pre-liminary result)??

Xpe2 ni I mmg tgh run coding...after I get my result I will really hunt for her.. Ya Allah ko permudahkan lar urusan hambamu ini dgn svku...

but seriously I feel down and sad for this..BUT i'm so happy this coming Monday im going for movie marathon with hubby!! da lame x tgk wayang u all!! so sexcited!!

Till then!! muah! muah!

Hubby at age 30

2010-04-14T14:13:00.009+08:00

Actually this is belated birthday entry for hubby..but its not too late for me to wish him Happy Birthday Syayang!!! yang ke..ehem..ehem..30!!!! yeay... dah masuk 3 series dah!!!...phheewww sudah tua kah?? No lar syayang..di mate I u senantiasa mude dan hemsem selalu...hik hik

Nway 1st we celebrate hubby's bday @ lil luqman's house...thanks to khal & nana for the best party venue ever!! so convenience... can bring lil hadif & his buai along..yeay!!!

rayyan can play with luqman,

me can gossiping with nana &

not to forget the Kayu Manis dishes yang SGT SGT sedap!!!

Konon nk surprise hubby with the cake, but it seems like hubby already know about the plan the nite before (and yess thanks to kahl for 'bocoring 'the secret to the other party :p) Altho the crowds not really ramai, me, faizal, kahl, nana & the kiddos we really had fun!! really enjoy the food, cake is sooooooo yummylicious and photo session..

The next day, my FIL plak invite us to Po'Sen restaurant... At first we all quite malas to go coz we already had our dinner plus lil Hadif a bit cranky...then later my BIL call that FIL already bought a cake for hubby...Quite surprisingly since they never celebrate hubby's bday before..sungguh besar yek penangan 30 tahun nih..hehehe

so me, hubby and just rayyan (hadif da selamat tdo mase nih) went to the restaurant.. we had small family gathering, hubby again cutting his 30th birthday celebration cake and had fun chit-chating...

There goes hubby twice birthday celebration at the age of 30... Syayang, I doakan semoga Allah memberikan segala yang terbaik untuk u..kesihatan yg sempurna, kesejahteraan hidup, dimurahkan rezeki, keperibadian yang mulia danmenjadi seorang suami & ayah yang bertanggungjawab & penyayang. I LOVE U SO MUCH SYAYANG!!!!

Till then..muah! muah!

PCM 26031020 - Bicycle Ride

2010-03-29T16:14:00.002+08:00

Went for 1st family cycling activity held @ Putrajaya last friday.. Starting point at POJ (palace of justice)..however we missed the convoy & just cycling around kerajaan complex building...
i really had great fun plus we have our neighbours accompany us ride together... rayyan was so excited at the beginning but then after around 45 minutes cycling he started to cry.. I think he had backache plus sleepy since the ride start at 9.30pm....poor rayyan he cried aloud untill he vomit in the middle of Putrajaya road..

Since rayyan already weak, we straight away go back home (of course lar kitorang balik naik car yea..bukan kayuh sampai rumah.. :p)

xpe2 next time boleh buat lg this activity.. xsabar tunggu mr hadif besar so that boleh bwk die jugak!!!

Till then..muah! muah!

Psycho Lady

2010-03-22T22:12:00.002+08:00

Last week till the weekend I was so stress... Xtau kenape hormone dlm bdn ni up & down.. It start when I dream of getting pregnant again!! then after that I was like so paranoid & become soo moody & cranky.. bukan I xmau pregnant lg..but not now... wait till my heroes besar sket & i've settle my study then baru I'm ready for the next version...

so bile dah moody I jd mcm psycho...konon I mcm pregnant lg.. asyik nak marah2 jer.. yg jd mangsa sape lg...my beloved hubby lar... sian sgt die.. I mmg sedar I asyik marah die tapi I xblh nk control...pastuh dgn I buat perangai xmau masak, xmau gossip2 dgn die lg...asyik buat hal sendiri jer.. naseb baik hubby sabar dgn kerenah I...mase tuh Tuhan jer tau betape serabut nye kepala I...dgn konon I pikir I preggie lar, dgn heroes yg nk dijaga, dgn pikir study lg...AADDOOIII mmg STRESS gile!!!! ditambah pula on the weekend both of my precious not feeling well...make me so worried & stressful...

Then on Sunday evening, hubby ajak shower together (walaopon me tgh psycho still ade a bit of romantic feeling inside.. :) ) I cried aloud & say how sorry I am for being such a psycho lady... bile dah luahkan semua baru I rase lega sgt sgt dlm hati & kepala..& today I had my 2nd jep to avoid pregnancy & scan Dr kate everything is in normal condition..which is no baby inside yet..again I felt so relieve...So today I had my normal life again...gossip2 dgn hubby, cook dinner for him & also enjoy my study life...

Moral of the story: Dont be mad to your hubby.. Jgn asyik cari salah hubby je nanti perasaan itu akan memakan diri sendiri...luahkan rase yg terbuku dlm hati dgn cara yg lembut..sebab kekadang hubby sendiri xtau & xpaham ape masalah yg kite hadapi... terima si dia sedia ade seperti mana die terime kite... nobody perfect kan!

Syayang if u read this, I want u to know that i'm really proud to have u as my husband & also father to my precious heroes... Love u sooo much!!!

Till then..muah! muah!

Quick One

2010-03-18T09:43:00.002+08:00

currently i'm having problem in bf lil hadif.. he refused to have my right br*east... arggghhh tensen makk... so u guys can imagine how the size different for my both br*east... plus i think he more confortable feed in bottle compare to having bf... so there's no more term of "super br*east" as I always used when bf rayyan... different child different character kan...

lil hadif also a bit cranky.. he will never allow us to put him lay down on the bed... bak kate my maid " die mau di gendong ajja..." then how lor?? am i supposed to follow his need or i have to be more creative to teach lil hadif to be independent & juz ignore his high tone pitch of crying...

xpe sabarkan.. these are all challenges in raising childs.. ingat! anak ini adalah amanah Allah kepada kite... so kene didik & jaga mereka dgn sebetul-betulnye...

semoga Allah permudahkan urusan saya & hubby dlm mendidik & menjaga anak2...

Till then..muah! muah!

Buku Amalan Hidup dengan Ayat-Ayat Al Quran & Minyak Zafaron

2010-03-09T17:05:00.004+08:00

WoW!! Panjang sungguh tajuk entry kali nih... actually I came across to write this entry due to something weird (for me lar) at this cyber world..

Pagi td I lepaq umah my parents.. pastuh I ternampak buku amalan hidup dengan ayat-ayat al quran ( xsilap lar tajuk die nih..) Buku ni sgt bagus...Terdapat byk tips penggunaan ayat al-quran dalam kehidupan seharian kite.. Dalam point 34, ade juga tertulis untuk menambahkan susu ibu... I pon excited sgt!

yang tertulis dalam buku itu adalah menulis ayat surah Yasin di sepiring pinngan menggunakan minyak zafaron, kemudian cuci pinggan itu dengan secawan air & air itu dilalukan pada gelas & diminum air itu oleh ibu yang sedang menyusukan anak.. InsyaAllah susu ibu akan bertambah..

Tapi apa itu minyak zafaron?? I pon terus surf internet untuk mengetahui apa itu minyak zafaron..so ape lahi..google lar kan...

Tak byk blog yg menceritakan minyak zafaron ini diperbuat drpd ape..cuma yang saya tahu, minyak ini kebanyakan dai Turki & Mesir.. minyak ni SGT mahal ok.. ade yg jual minyak ni sebesar bekas minyak attar tuh RM7k++...gile mahal!! ala2 designer handbag gittew...bile saya duk surf apebende nyer minyak zafaron nie, ade 1 blog nih betul2 mengejutkan saya, ( yang I mention I xpercaya bende ni ade di dunia cyber)...

Blog ini menjual minyak pengasih!!..siap ade kategori yang putih & hitam...agaknyer yg putih yg baik punyer..yang hitam yang jahat punyer kot..Wallahua'lam (Allah Maha Mengetahui)...scary betul bile bace blog nih...u all cari sendiri lar yek kalau nk bace..xmau lar mention di sini.. siap mention blog ini bukan untuk alim ulamak & saintis milenium!!! ape yang dimaksudkan itu?? ya Allah berilar petunjuk kepada penulis blog itu supaya kembali ke jalan yang benar...

nway lately nih my production a bit low.. tuh yang I beriyer cr ape itu minyak zafaron, kot2 blh ikut ape yg ditulis dlm buku tuh..tp bile dah tgh harga minyak zafaron tuh xpelar.. mungkin I juz bace surah yasin & tiupkan pada segelas air & minum air tuh niat kerana Allah.. InsyaAllah Allah akan makbulkan permintaanku untuk perbanyakkan stok ebm saya...

Till then..Muah! muah!

bile abang & adik sleep same-same

2010-02-22T20:42:00.003+08:00

(quality gambar yang kureng due to gune hp cikai jer..hik hik)

nway Hadif dah start naik Bumbo!!!

Till then..muah! muah!!

HORMONE JAHAT....

2010-02-19T14:41:00.002+08:00

I hate this hormone!! I ingat lagi last time i kene hormone nih mase I kene denggi... mase tuh Rayyan 3 bulan... I thought bcoz of the ubat..but now I know...agaknye bile my baby reach 3 months I kene attact with this hormone jahat!!!

I benci hormone nih..I rase mcm nk lempang2 semorang..rase rimas, rase resah, rase nk marah...semuer ade!!!! mayb stress pasal blaja pon ade kot..baru habis run testing...result agak tidak memberangsangkan!!! stress!!! tp pikir2 balik name pon research!!!! kalau da tau result yg keluar mmg akan power, bukan ler research namanyer!!!! yer tak????

tp apepon I blame this hormone jahat...buat I lembek, restless, demotivate, tired....semuer2 yg xbest lar!!!!!!

BENCILAR!!!!

Dear Hormone Jahat,

PLEASE GO AWAY & DONT COME AGAIN... i'm begging you... :(

Cuti Raya Cina

2010-02-17T14:17:00.007+08:00

Whooohooo...4 hari I amik cuti from study..org lain yg beraya kite plak sakan bercuti...hehehe nie semua disebabkan my BIG family buat FAMILY DAY kat kampung last monday (15/2/2010)..

ini lar keburukan kalau buat PhD kat Mesia nih..every kenduri kene attend.. sat g kang depa ckp boikot family plak... hehehe nway I really had a GREAT time!! The event start as early 8am..tp mcm biasa we all sampai lambat coz nk tunggu hero2 i bgn tdo & prepare them... so we all sampai kampung around 9am...( we missed take photo with the whole family..tsk..tsk..)

for those yg wondering..my kampung dekat ajer... 20 minutes from my hse since hiway L*EKAS dah bukak..best kan? ;D

Actually event start the nite before, where all the youngsters will sleep dekat tents yang disediakan...pastuh got Qiamulalil before they had Subuh prayer... (tapi I dgr kul 3 pg depa smuer cabut tdo dlm rumah coz dengar bunyik lembu meng-MOOOOO....hehehe )

us..baru sampai kampung

take photo with small family...aleea & arie tgh main game

aleea tgh sakan berlari..

so di pagi hari adalah event sukaneka... dr toddler sampailar ke pasangan suami isteri...semua ade event nyer!! and as usual me & hubby CHAMPION utk group pasangan suami isteri... every year I mmg target nk menang... hati ini berkobar2 untuk menang walaopun hadiahnyer skadar tong sampah dr I*KEA... Janji Menang!!! heheheh

my Do Re Mi sibling tgh buat show..hehehe

my beloved father exhausted sampi tertdo kat bwh pokok... :p

muke abg Rayyan kepenatan bersama Bobop & Ummie

then later we had our lunch, solat zuhur berjemaah... lepas tuh start lar semuer melepet kepenatan..

pada malam hari adalah acara yang ditunggu2kan... Iaitu acara pakaian beragam for kids & penyampaian hadiah..since Rayyan & Hadif still small so diorg ni di category utk masuk event ni jer... tahun depan mayb Rayyan dah blh masuk sukaneka kot... So as a mother mestilar kite berkobar-kobar nk anak kite comel kan... so i asked my beloved sis to buy animal costume for my heroes... so wat will they be??? TAAADDDDAAAAA

my precious

YESSSS a PENGUIN... my heroes has become two CUTEST little penguins in the world!!! tapi Rayyan a bit moody that nite..since die penat & tak cukup tdo..biaselar kan dah ramai2 kat kampung tuh..mane nyer nk tdo...

so ramai lg by niece & nephew yg masuk... ade yg jd bee, leopard, Batman, Ultraman....James bond pon ada!!!! MMG BEST sangat...

aleea rock star

akeef lil panda

adam de batman

aira lucy liu

qistina tinkerbell

ain snow white

anas de bee

amir leopard

amirul hafiz our youngest participant as James Bond with his "sport car"

dani the platipus...

hopefully next year still ade event nie!!! kene pk ape plak my heroes nk jadi...any idea??

Till then... muah! muah!

my heroes...

2010-02-11T17:39:00.003+08:00

Rayyan is now 17months.. Hadif plak 3 months..Wow..mcm xpercaya jer.. in age 30 this year I have 2 little heroes!! not bad huh! so skrg ni I tgh sibuk2 menambahkan vocab untuk encik rayyan kite nih... baru I tau bile kite ade anak age2 mcm rayyan ni baru kite rase fun sgt! tgk gelagat die, pelat die bercakap, bile die memanggil2 nama kite...waduhh...rase mcm nk menangis pon ade kekadang..betapa besar nikmat Allah kasi pada kite..terima kasih ya Allah....

Rayyan pon skrg cepat dapat bile kite ajar..so skrg nie me xblh ckp bad words depan die..sebutan die pon agak clear.. owwhh i am so proud of him...pastuh favourite die bace buku okkei... rayyan mmg suke sgt dgn buku... so from now on we just buy books for him & his so exciting & meronta2 utk kami bacakan buku utk die... harap2 sampai besar lar Rayyan suke bace buku...

Hadif plak dah pandai cakap2 & senyum.. kalau i duk telek2 muke Hadif nih, hemsem jugak die nie...hehehe tapi anak mama sorang nie a bit cemek sket... manja sgt2.. die ade instinct yg SGT kuat when he knows i'm around.. kalau I anta my heroes rumah mama, sharp pukul 5 ptg die mesti start menangis & meragam coz nk nenen...so i have to make sure that i have to reach my mom's sharp 5 o'clock.. pastuh kalau die tdo pon & I just jenguk die dlm buai terus die bukak mate & nangis mintak angkat... terror btul die deria bau die..atau i ker yg achem??? heheheh

owhh nway i just submit my study extension letter... met big boss dulu before hantar.. hopefully lepas lar my 1 year extension nih... doakan yek!!

Till then..muah! muah!

Hadif 2 bulan

2010-01-27T15:19:00.008+08:00

Hadif dah 2 bulan & nak masuk 3 bulan... woosshh best nyer!! Actually me xsabar nk tunggu my little hero ni 6 months...baru rase confident sket nk bwk g jenjalan..As for now me & family byk spent time kat rumah jer..or just g rumah sedare mare..itu pon bagai nk rak pujuk lil Hadif ni utk tdo since die nih tdo buai... (Tun if u read this, sponsor lar mak beli cradle mcm Icha! :p)

Tapi Alhamdulillah things getting much more better.. I become more steady, on schedule and trying very hard to become a good wife, mummy & PhD student... Anyway nowadays my schedule a bit tight..as among of my resolutions are to cook everyday, finish up my system & testing data (atleast within this year) so i really need to schedule my time.. pagi bgn siapkan anak2..ready to send them to my mom's..hantar dgn maid skali yer.. tu around 10am lar..then go back open lappy start to do my work...tp biasalar research kejap laju kejap perlahan.. recently i'm kind of stuck tp xpe..pelan2 kayuh kan...then around 5pm, solat asar, pump ebm jap then go pick up my heroes..

pastuh since Rayyan dah quite stable berjalan, me & hubby bwk die pusing2 taman jap..sian plak mamat tu asyik terperuk jer kat rumah kan... syiok jgk layan Rayyan main taman.. ade jer project genius die...cute sgt!! so around 7pm I pon kelam kabut nk start masak..so far Alhamdulillah hubby ckp my skill of cooking improved..meaning sodap lar tuh..heheh then malam I just spend my time with my 3 heroes...

Did i Tell u guys last month we did minor renovation @ our home..so this is it.. i really love it..nampak cantik sket lar bhgn atas rumah I..so since duit dah habis duk chantekkan rumah... so now its time to earn some extra money... how?? now I join MLM business!!! yeh baby..1st time in my life.. its VEMMA....

(it used to be an open balcony)

so its a health product based on mangosteen juice based on USA... SGT sedap & menyihatkan.. and as usual lar..buy product, become a member, try to look for downline to get some bonus.. BUT wats the different between VEMMA with other MLM.. its an autobuilder system...everything is ready... our job is just to promote the website to others...once other people have register at the website, the Vemma system will automatically sent emails to them to encourage those people to join the club..Just as simple as that... no seeing client, no wasting time to look for client, wat u need is just an internet connection to promote the site...

lg pon i buat ni as my part time jer since I mmg interested to consume their product for my own benefit.. so ala2 menyelam sambil minum air lar nie.. I Get Healthy yet Earn Extra Money... okay lar tuh!.. :D feel free to visit my promoting page http://iezmavemma.weebly.com/

Till then..muah! muah!

2010 initial post

2010-01-08T22:23:00.002+08:00

its not too late kan to write the first post of the year... Welcome 2010!!! and this year i'm officially 3 series!! but not yet aaa... hehehe still can berangan to be young again.. well this year starting not really good.. my precious got admitted due to high fever... Alhamdulillah his getting better and active...Its not an easy task being a mom to two little cutest preciouses... sorang sakit kat hospital, the other one plak addicted to breastfeed.. klu lar badan ini boleh dibelah dua, mmg I akan belah utk 1 stay @ hospy, sebelah lg stay @ home to bf hadif.. Namun I bersyukur sgt sgt hubby willing to stay @ hospy to take care of rayyan.. 2 days rayyan admitted @ paed ward.. so pg2 subuh after bf hadif I pon da terpacak teman hubby jaga rayyan.. hadif siang2 hari can ebm thru bottle..so should be no problem...

well now everything getting better and I already can feel the aura of 2010 coming thru all over my mind & body... I start to concentrate on my studies, start doing exercise to make up my body but still doing lite exercise..planning to join cycle with hubby..yippie!!! Now I feel more energetic, happy & healthy... start dengar balik lagu2 that make me feel young... terase mcm nk karaoke plak.. sape nk ikut???

Yesterday went to offive to meet my colleages..Best gak da lame xjupe member & gossip2... plus got some motivation from those who already succeed on their PhD journey...That nite went to nana's hse @ bkt *elutong for small gathering..oklar..best gossip but unfortunately hadif cannot stop crying.. (inilar penangan klu baby dah biase tdo buai).. so terpaksa leave early...xpe2 nanti kite repeat lg yek nana!

Anyway my BB buat hal...baterry kejap je dah kong..so now BBBB - Bye Bye BlackBerry... I dun love u anymore.. back to my NokiaE76 yg burukss ittew..uhuk uhuk tgh kecek hubby beli sony ericson..dpt ker? hmm xpelar..one of my resolution for this year.. Jgn Membazir!! kene pandai pikir mane satu keperluan mane satu nafsu... so obviously sony ericson ittew adlah nafsu...

so till then...

Muah! Muah!

Finale Post for 2009

2009-12-28T20:46:00.003+08:00

Lame betul x memblog..bukan xde cite nk story tp xde mood nk mengarang ayat... The main reason I write this post pon coz nk jugak tulis before berakhirnya tahun

2009....wooiisshh...cepat betul mase berlalu...so ape yg i accomplished for this year.. hmmm...

kalau dr sudut study i am soooooooooooo far away from my target.. sedey jugak..but it doesnt mean i'm giving up for it.. NEVER!!! akan ku usahakan sehingga berjaya mendapat segulung ijazah PhD! chewah!..mmg stress bile memikirkan bile nk habis belajar nie.. tp pikir2 balik kenapa kene stress.. just go on with ur life & study.. insyaAllah when there is a will there is always a way to accomplish my phd successfully..btul x? btul btul btul.. :D

dr segi kehidupan i think i'm quite successful being a good

human being.. semakin umur meningkat semakin byk bende yg kite pelajari.. menjadi seorang yg lebih matang.. tp kekadang xbest jgk jd org baik nie

..hidup malar jer..cool jer..hehehe tp I really get used to it.. (mcmlar baik sgt kan.. :p) tp yg I tau utk menjadi seorang yg tenang, bahagia zahir & batin kite kene senantiasa ingat pada Allah...jgn sekali2 lupe padaNya.. pastu kite kene bersangka baik dgn semue org, maafkan semue org & juga doakan kebahagiaan org lain.. insyaAllah hidup kite akan menjadi tenang... itu antara tips yg I senantiasa amalkan...

dr segi kehidupan berkeluarga, Alhamdulillah sgt2 kami dikurniakan seorg lg cahaya mata yg sgt2 chomel.. Rizq Hadif nama diberi... walaupon kehadiran Hadif adalah "accidentally"..ooppsss hehehe kami sgt2 gumbira dgn kehadirannya.. I sendiri sampai skrg xpercaya I ade 2 heroes skrg nie..huhuh rase mcm mude jer lg.. so utk tahun 2009, ahli keluarga kami ade 4, hubby, myself, rayyan & ha

dif...so I rase utk tahun ni menjaga anak2 I dgn sebaik2 mungkin adalah tugas yg plg besar skali i laksanakan...uisshh ade 2 heroes skrg ni ...EXTREMELY tired I tell u... sorg diam sorg nangis, baru nk relax, sorg nk susu, br nk pejam mate Hadif nangis nk bangun...sampai migrain kepala akak.... tp apapepon I LOVE my kids so so much!! Hadif pon dah semakin menembam...walaopun mase lahir kecik dr rayyan...now he's going to catch up his weight very fast... sebulan hari tuh naik 1.2kg!!! pastuh yg plg best skali la ni ramai ckp I kurus you... hehehe ckp lar I perasan, tp mmg I pon terase badan I susut...I xdiet tp xdan nk mkn byk2...nk mkn jer ade on call anak panggil..hehehehe hubby pon Alhamdulillah byk sgt2 membantu..love u syayang!!!

tp skrg I mcm rase sunyi dr kawan2...oleh kerana kesibukan menjaga anak, berpantang, study, I rase mcm lonely plak... I ni jenis berkawan, suke bergossip..so bile da lame x gather2 nie rase rindu sgt sgt kat member... so kenkawan yg dikasihi, klu ade gossip session jgn lupe jemput I okkei.. tp tgk time jgk..mlm susah sket..almaklumlar kan... ade anak kecik ni susah nk kuar mlm...

so I think smpi sini dulu coretan I utk tahun 2009 ini... Azam i untuk 2010 adalah memperbaiki SEGALA kelemahan I buat pada 2009... Especially on my study..Really really really need to speed up... plus nk apply for extension jugak..doakan saya yek!!!! pastu nk jaga suami & anak2 dgn sebaik mungkin... pastu lg nk chantekkan rumah yg semakin cantek nih...heheh I loike my house skrg.. ala2 hotel okkei.. (ini adalah ayat perasan sendiri so juz ignore klu u feel annoying :p) pastu nk build up my huha huha energetic expression balik.. I rase skrg i smakin serious & poyo..so sick of it..hehehe

Till then..Muah! muah!

Heroes of My Life

2009-11-24T11:41:00.004+08:00

Ya Allah aku memanjatkan kesyukuran yang tidak terhingga kerana menganugerahkan diriku seorang suami yang penyayang & bertanggungjawab serta 2 orang anak yang comel & sempurna..

Aku memanjatkan doa kepadaMu ya Allah, semoga Kau senantiasa memberkati dan memberikan kebahagiaan, kesejahteraan, dan kesihatan yang sempurna kepada kami sekeluarga.

Semoga putera-puteraku membesar dengan sempurna menjadi anak yang soleh, taat kepadaMu ya Allah, kepada rasul & juga kepada papa & mama..

Semoga Rayyan & Hadif menjadi insan yang berguna di dunia & di akhirat..

Till then..muah!muah!

Muhamad Rizq Hadif bin Mohd Faizal

2009-11-11T13:19:00.004+08:00

Muhamad Rizq Hadif bin Mohd Faizal

I am proudly introduced my second precious, Muhamad Rizq Hadif bin Mohd Faizal. Bersyukur ke hadrat Ilahi kerana dengan limpah kurniaNya saya sekeluarga mendapat seorang lagi cahaya mata lelaki seberat 2.55kg dan sepanjang 49cm. Hadif selamat dilahirkan pada 5 November 2009 jam 5ptg.

Actually masa ni Hadif baru berumur 35 minggu dlm perut mamanya.. Tp disebabkan saya mengalami bleeding untuk ketiga kalinya Dr decide untuk membuat emergency ceaserian section pada petang itu juga.. Alhamdulillah saya sgt sgt bersyukur that Hadif selamat dilahirkan dengan sihat sempurna without to stay dalam incubator..Alhamdulillah sgt sgt...

Oklar xblh cerita panjang-panjang lagi...Nak susukan Hadif nk bg bam-bam mcm abg Rayyan! :D

Till then..muah! muah!

All About Rayyan

2009-10-30T11:47:00.003+08:00

This whole week langsung xbukak research... ish ish ish.. malas, penat, kelam kabut - semuer ade... ( tp still ade mase plak nk mem-blog kan :p) ni pon precious tgh tdo..boleh lar relax kejap... nway did I tell u guys 1st word rayyan boleh ckp..."APU" meaning LAMPU...hehehhe rayyan sgt suke pada lampu..especially lampu yg mengerlip ngerlip... so die akan pointing jari die to lampu & ckp "apu"...its funny kan..dlm byk2 benda dlm dunia nie lampu adalah benda pertama yg rayyan kenal..

pastuh die pon da pandai sebut "appoopp" meaning poopop...& yg best nyer die akan ckp bile die btul poopop shj..klu die x poopop die xkan sebut the word..meaning rayyan da alert dgn condition diaper die..hehehe

rayyan pon da pandai sebut "ty" meaning dirty.. klu tgn die kotor die mesti tunjuk kat I and say "ty"....

selain itu, rayyan da pandai sebut papa, atuk, baby (sambil usap2 perut i)...unfortunately die still xnk sebut "mama"..i wonder why....

saya sgt gembira & bersyukur kepada Allah dengan perkembangan rayyan..semoga Rayyan dpt membesar dgn sempurna...

one more thing..rayyan da pandai jalan!!! at age 1 year 1 month old die da pandai jalan..Alhamdulillah..walaopon still mcm robot tp tgh berusaha develop his balancing & walking skill.

21 days left to meet my 2nd precious.. I juz cant wait!!!! Doakan me & baby selamat segalanya yek..

Till then..muah! muah!

Wish List Update & extra entry...

2009-10-25T22:39:00.004+08:00

My latest update of my wishlist.. Alhamdulillah ade yg sudah dapat, ade yg plan nk buat next week, ade yg i rase xpenting buat mase skrg... coz la ni i'm focusing on budgeting for my labor fee and some small project kalau me & baby sihat semuanya lepas i deliver....

1) seriously need a clothes cabinet for precious & 2nd lil precious (skrg akak letak baju kat kotak mother care & rak bawang shj..) (DONE - hubby juz bought TWO wardrobes; one for precious one for 2nd precious!! puas hati mak!!)

2) new baby suits for my coming newborn precious (dengan keadaan skrg nie laki I kasi ke g shopping baju baby...sian anak mama xde baju baru..smuer recycle.. :(( ) (DONE - me & hubby manage to buy a pair of baby kiko suit for 2nd precious to wear when discharge from hospy.. suke! suke!)

3) start to unpack all baju's precious mase kecik2 & kemas chantek2 dlm new cabinet ( skrg semuer berada di dlm bag di atas wardrobe) ( NOT DONE YET - planning doing it next weekend!)

4) Jazz Abandon Oakley sunglass (NOT IMPORTANTE!! currently kind of budgeting lar..mayb some other time..)

5) Tudung Ariani in blue, red, purple and black color (DONE - custom made from my dear friend an-nisaa cheaper plus the quality same as Ariani's!)

6) New baby travel bag that suits for hubby ( yang skrg punye dah koyak sket...hubby kate tak hemsem bwk g jenjalan) (NOT YET - hubby xminta suruh beli pon..diam kan jer lar..hik hik)

7) new pair of Crocs ( yg skrg punye dah 2 thn saya pakai..) (NOT IMPORTANTE!)

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ni kisah lain plak... hal pembantu rumahku... owwhhh i rase i memang kurang bernasib baik lg dalam mendapat pembantu rumah yg betul-betul sesuwei dgn keluarga kami... previous entry baru i story yg i bersyukur sgt dpt new maid walaopun she's illegal... namun panas xberpanjang hingga ke petang.. maid ni mmg elok kerja plus rayyan pon selesa dengan die..tapi kesihatan dirinya x mengizinkan maid nih kerja lbh lama lg...

bibik A ( bkn nama sebenar) actually mmg da sakit sblm kami ambil die as maid.. a week before kitorg amik die, rupenye kaki die kene paku... pastuh bile smpi rumah kitorg die mmg jalan perlahan2..( tp since bibik A ni very the large size of person, so kitorg ingat mmg die jalan mcm tue..) tp few days after working @ our hse, tetibe hubby tanye to bibik kaki die sakit ke? i pon pelik mcm mana hubby tau kaki die sakit... rupenye hubby ckp die nampak celet2 darah pada lantai...pastuh baru die ckp kaki die tercucuk paku..then hubby tanye die dah g jupe doctor inject ke? die kate dah... so kitorg pon ignore lar..juz suruh die cuci kaki pakai dettol & pakai selipar dlm rumah...

next 2 weeks tetibe bibik A demam menggigil...bwk g klinik, rupe2nye badan da naik kuman...ade paku still tinggal dlm kaki die!!! juz imagine, kaki bengkak, bernanah didlm..... aduih... doctor buat minor surgery & we spent about rm300 for that..plus all the ubat2 yg high dose supaya cepat baik..tp mengenangkan die jage precious okei kitorg pon xkesah...so few days die xbyk buat kerja juz relax kat bilik die...

2-3 hari lepas tuh mcm okei tp 1 morning tetibe die kejutkan i ckp die sakit buah pinggang plak!!!! ya Allah sabar je lar kan.. i mase tuh malas nk layan juz suruh die relax kat bilik jer.. juz imagine die duk nangis sakit dr pukul 9pg smpi la 5ptg.. tp yg i pelik nasi lemak yg i belikan utk die habis la plak.. geram jer.. pastuh sibuk die nak balik & xmau kerja...reason die sebab die kate die dah byk menyusahkan kami sekeluarga... kitorg pon pk2 balik mmg payah lar nk simpan org mcm nie.. kaki yg sakit pon xhbs baik lg da sakit lain plak...so mlm tu jugak hubby hantar die balik....precious yg sdg lasak

so now tinggal me & precious di rumah, dengan i yg sarat ini, condition pon stabil xstabil..hehehe, precious yg sedang lasak, really makes me worry... so start balik my mum dtg tgk i & rayyan kat rumah....tp kesian my mum berulang alik kejap rumah i, kejap rumah my sis ( yg sedang berpantang), belum urusan lain-lain lg...

so skrg ni i am DESPERATELY looking for a maid... semoga Allah permudhkan urusandiriku, suamiku & keluargaku

Till then..muah! muah!

tick..tock..tick..tock..

2009-10-14T10:50:00.005+08:00

Kali nie betul-betul rasa masa itu begitu mencemburui saya... chewahh... hehehe mane taknyer.. bile ditimbang, dihitung, dikire....tinggal lbh krg 1 bulan lg saya akan melahirkan my 2nd precious... (owhh forgot to tell u guys.. my gynea adviced me to deliver on week 37++... she said that 36th week is too soon however 38th weeks onwards is quite late to deliver & the risk to bleed again is higher). So dgn itu tarikh kemungkinan saya akan bersalin is between 16th - 20th November 2009.. Ade x antara tarikh2 ini menarik perhatian anda??? jika ade sile suggest kepada saya yek!

Wishlist from previous entry pon 1 xsempat nk beli... so memandangkan hari semakin hampir, badan semakin xlarat, jalan byk sket kluar brown spot, saya rasa sudah masanyer untuk saya berehat betul2 dan melepet2.....

Tapi ini tidak bermakna saya akan stop doing my research... Alhamdulillah this time pregnancy saya lebih bersemangat utk belajar compare to previous one.. Mungkin juga disebabkan saya sudah berada di tahun ketiga membuatkan saya agak stress & teruskan belajar walaopun kadang2 saya hanya mengambil masa 2 jam/ sehari untuk belajar... saya juga akan dengar cakap mak saya.. " xpe dik, biar lambat habis PhD tapi JANJI habiskan.." yeah..saya memang berazam akan habiskan study saya ini..tp bile tuh hanya masa dapat menentukan.. :) saya yakin dengan berkat doa suami terchenta, papa mama yang tersayang, keluarga dikasihi, kawan-kawan yang senantiasa setia bersama dicampur dgn usaha dan sifat TIDAK berputus asa insyaAllah saya akan berjaya mendapat PhD saya..

saya juga bersyukur sgt coz skrg da ade maid..even tho it juz for temporary..duk tunggu yg nk dtg dr M*da* xkunjung2 tiba... pakai dulular ape yg ade... and Alhamdulillah my precious pon nak kat die.. so now my daily routine, wait for precious to wake up ( but mostly precious yg kene bgnkan mama nyer..hehehe), mandikan precious, then my mum will fetch precious & bibik in the morning and take them to lepak @ my mum' s house till evening.. so me will stay @ home alone rest, study or wateva i wanna do... byk masa i boleh berbaring2 & rehat..actually it really work tau.. no more brown spot! so mmg nampak sgt i kene rest & melepet dirumah shj... klu berjalan sket g open hse mesti ade kuar sket2 brown spot...

so normally bile tgh baring or duduk2 tuh i pon bacelar journal or paper yg relate to my study. My aim now is to come out with complete algorithm of my method, which is I already have the scratch one.. And also I come out with 2 methods actually & xtau mane 1 yg bagus..so i decide to develop both method & compare each other & also compare with existing one..

I also have make a collections of codings that related to both of my method, & tinggal untuk diambil ciput sane, ciput sini utk mengcompletekan my program.. HOWEVER I know this is not an easy task tho... xpe..pelan-pelan kayuh.. mayb i will start serious coding after confinement... and also a million thanks to my PhD buddy that really help me in dataset, reference of useful knowledge & also example of coding... VERY much appreciated!!!

oklar..nak cari bahan untuk membaca.. ermm lupe nk ckp, yg xbest skrgnyer I xblh nk print out any paper to read sebab xleh nak naik atas.. mintak hubby bwk turun printer asyik terlupe jer...aduih...seb baik skrg ade VAIO yg agak ringan untuk diangkut kesane ke mari..so baring2 blh aa bace sambil tertido..hehehehe

p/s: gambar diatas tidak kene mengene dengan content of the story...saje je nak letak.. precious is ssoooo cute with his "ngences" ( bahasa jawa utk air liur meleleeh kuar hehehe)

Till then..Muah! Muah!

My Wish Lists (as for now)

2009-10-08T17:50:00.005+08:00

1) seriously need a clothes cabinet for precious & 2nd lil precious (skrg akak letak baju kat kotak mother care & rak bawang shj..)

2) new baby suits for my coming newborn precious (dengan keadaan skrg nie laki I kasi ke g shopping baju baby...sian anak mama xde baju baru..smuer recycle.. :(( )

3) start to unpack all baju's precious mase kecik2 & kemas chantek2 dlm new cabinet ( skrg semuer berada di dlm bag di atas wardrobe)

4) Jazz Abandon Oakley sunglass

5) Tudung Ariani in blue, red, purple and black color

6) New baby travel bag that suits for hubby ( yang skrg punye dah koyak sket...hubby kate tak hemsem bwk g jenjalan)

7) new pair of Crocs ( yg skrg punye dah 2 thn saya pakai..)

p/s: akan diupdate dr mase ke semasa...

Till then..muah! muah!

That how the story goes..

2009-09-30T10:31:00.002+08:00

sape penah dgr lagu "pelamin anganku musnah"? as for this year I akan dendangkan lagu "raya anganku musnah"...hwwaaa...... kenapa?? kerana saya ingat nk beraya sakan tahun ini since raya last year I was in my confinement period & precious was still a lil cute baby...

so this year bile nk hujung2 puasa tuh I pon start lar my raya shopping hunting.. nk cari baju precious, since his already 1 year old..thought of changing his style to 2 piece baju instead of wearing romper jer..( biar nampak mcm abang -abang sket)..pastu nk cr kasut since kasut Lacoste precious tuh dah x muat.. kaki anak i tembam di atas... sgt sukar utk mencari kasut utk die..huhuhu

pastuh i was planning to celebrate precious birthday party a.k.a open house... i've prepared party kits before puase lg...semangat x??? siap ade theme.. Thomas & friends.. i search everywhere to have the party kits ( plate, cups, banner, table cloth, balloons, etc..) & i was so darn happy when i can get the kits with cheaper price @ Alamanda...

punyelar sakan shopping, i was in a mall 3 days in a row... memule pavillion setengah hari, the next day berbuke @ SUnway pyramid jalan2 the whole nite, next day tuh ingat nk rehat tp get phone call from my dad ajak shopping for precious toys!!! xkan nk tolakkan... so pegi lg jalan...phuih mmg sgt penat tp still i ENJOY!!

then next day, after berbuke when i was relaxing enjoying my kuih pelita, i felt like something flowing out from my v*gi**... i thought i was juz terkencing sket at my panties..then when to toilet to clean up myself...but suprisingly it was blood flowing out... i was so panic!!...call hubby to take some stuff & prepare to go to hospy...

mcm2 i pikir mase tuh.. hubby pon panic... kat hospy terus pegi labour room... nurse tanye dah nk deliver ke..i kate belum lg.. baru 28th weeks..die tanye ade sakit ke? i ckp x.. then diorg prepare i pki bj hospy , pasang ctg to check baby heart rate & wait for gynea to visit me..Alhamdulillah baby is doing fine..mase tu i felt so relieve... when gynea came, die tgk ultrasound everthing looks fine....the baby, my plasenta at good condition & pangkal rahim pon ok xde apaper... so gynea say mayb i was just to tired for shopping raya..tp still have to stay @ hospy 1 nite & get 2 dose of jap to matured kan baby punye lung in case if i kene pre-mature baby delivery..

then after get back from hospy saya jalankan kehidupan seharian mcm biasa... since doctor said everything ok i take it for granted...yess saya mmg sgt degil... my mum kate jgn jalan2...i ckp xpe jalan sket2 jer... guess where i pegi after 2-3 day i kluar dr hospy??? i pegi lg Pavillion utk berbuke puase & sambung shopping.. PLUS the next day i went to IKEA to look for my new balang kuih & some other stuff utk cantikkan rumah konon...

pastuh taddaaa..... after a week raya ( obviously 1st till 6th day raya i sakan berjalan beraye pegi rumah2 sedare kan) I nk bgn solat subuh, sit on my toilet bowl, plup plup plup frsh blood berketul-ketul keluar..... Not Again.... kali nie mmg serious byk & i panic gile2... i called hubby die pon panic jugak sbb byk sgt darah kuar...

so i called my mum to came by my house jage precious and me & hubby rushing to hospy....kali nih mmg menyesal gile sbb xdgr ckp my mum...i ingat dah nk kene deliver dah since darah kuar byk...siap salam mama & papa minta maaf dulu...

sampai2 hospy nurse check CTG baby okies...Alhamdulillah syukur pada Allah... then wait for gynea to check me... then gynea scan betul kat bwh perut i, ade sedikit ekor plasenta dekat dengan pangkal rahim... so gynea declaire as placenta previa stage 1...so kene bermalam lg 1 mlm di wad... addehhh...

my gynea told me starting from now she has to treat me as placenta previa patient which mean i have to do check up twice a week... to check baby & placenta condition....she really hopes & ask me to really have rest & jgn lasak2 during this time.. this is to avoid for premature delivery...saya pon berdoa semoga me & baby can hold at least till 36th weeks then baru blh deliver... and yes this time pon mayb c-sect lg...saya sgt berase bersalah terhadap my 2nd precious... so lepas ni saya tidak boleh ke mane2 & dengan erti kata lain: no open house, no post raya shopping, no sex (erk!), xblh naik tangga & no driving.... ... hanya boleh rest, rest & rest...

and so my bday party planning for precious is cancel... my mum ask to wait for 2nd precious selamat lahir baru blh buat bday party for rayyan... akak pasrah...

so there's go my raya this year...2 kali masuk ward akibat kedegilan diri sendiri...

Till then...Muah! muah!

Selamat Hari Jadi yg Pertama buat Muhamad Rayyan Mohd Faizal

2009-09-11T23:14:00.003+08:00

Salam Sayang buat anak mama yang dikasihi,

Muhamad Rayyan...

Bila mama tau yang mama mengandungkan Rayyan, mama rasakan bagaikan mimpi indah yang hadir dlm diri mama..

Alhamdulillah Allah telah makbulkan doa mama & papa selama ini..

Walaubagaimanapon mama masih risau dan gusar jika perkara lama yang tidak enak berulang semula...

Ketika dalam kandungan lagi, mama jaga Rayyan dengan penuh kasih sayang dan hati hati...

Dlm hati mama tidak putus putus mendoakan semoga rayyan menjadi seoraang yg sempurna segalanya & selamat dilahirkan...

Alhamdulillah syukur dengan nikmat Allah berikan pada mama & papa..

Tanggal 11 September 2008 tepat jam 12.32 tgh mlm, Rayyan selamat dilahirkan...

Rayyan disambut dengan penuh kegembiraan...

Sedikit pon rasa sakit mama tidak rasa..hanya air mata kegembiraan melihat anak mama sihat sempurna dilahirkan dengan selamat...

Rayyan telah beri sinar hidup yang baru buat mama & papa...

Hari ini genap Rayyan berumur setahun...

Cepat betul anak mama membesar...

Mama mohon maaf sekiranya selama ini mama tidak menjaga Rayyan dengan betul..

Mama berjanji untuk memperbetulkan segala kelemahan mama dan menjaga anak anak mama dengan baik...

InsyaAllah kalau dipanjangkan umur mama...

Mama nk Rayyan tahu yang mama sayang Rayyan sgt sgt..

Mama sgt bertuah & bersyukur dapat melahirkan Rayyan..

Mama doakan yang terbaik untuk Rayyan...

Rayyan jadilah seorang anak yg soleh, berakhlak mulia, rajin beramal, rajin berilmu dan bertanggungjawab...

Jangan sesekali lupakan Allah, taat kepada Allah, taat kepada rasul, taat kepada mama & papa...

Rayyan jadilar seorang abang yang bertanggungjawab melidungi adik-adik rayyan..

Mama yakin Rayyan adalah seorang anak yang baik & mendengar kata...

Akhir sekali mama ucapkan Selamat Hari Jadi yang pertama buat anak mama yang tersayang...

Demi Allah kasih sayang mama & papa terhadap Rayyan tidak akan pudar hingga akhir hayat...

Salam sayang dari Mama Rayyan...

Takwim Islam 1430

2009-09-01T16:40:00.002+08:00

11 RAMaDHAN 1430

hari ini genap Muhamad Rayyan Mohd Faizal berumur setahun mengikut takwim Islam 1430 hijrah

Rojakss...

2009-08-22T13:44:00.006+08:00

I've been asked by a friend to update my blog.. okkei dear.. but it juz a simple one yek..heheh since now i'm quite bz with my research, try to write some publication, i prefer to upload pix on my fb rather than thinking sentence to write in my blog.. yeah baby..thatz the MAIN reason why lately i'm bit lazy to update it...

Alhamdulillah my life getting better now..even though there was some upside down, extremely tired to do house chores, handle precious yg semakin active ittew.... but i manage to continue my study bit by bit... i try to fully utilized my time to study when my mum around to look after precious.

Talking bout precious...Precious is a wonderful boy... In his 11 months old, manage to lunging forward, crawling and standing at one shot!! He also had 4 cute lil' teeths... he'll clap his hand when listen to the song esp Thomas & friends song! He knows to wave good bye, and yess he likes to make yoga action!!

funny rayyan!! :D

Last week we went for a studio shoot with our closed family friend.. It was such a good time seeing & looking our little angles acting & posing on the camera.. I've uploaded the pixs on my fb... however these two pixs were my fav shots among all...

our family pix

my precious....

As for my pregnancy matter, Alhamdulillah everything goes well & we're going to have another BOYYY!!!!! yeeaahhaa... my collection of heroes...

Thats all for now... before i jot off...I would like to wish all my muslim reader Selamat Menyambut Ramadhan al Mubarak...

Alhamdulillah kite masih berpeluang untuk menyambutnya sekali lagi pada tahun ini & semoga amal ibadah kite akan lebih baik daripada tahun yg lepas... Mohon maaf dari saya, hubby & precious sekiranya ada salah & silap samada disengajakan atau tidak...

Till then..Muah! muah!

When Rayyan Starts Playing

2009-08-05T15:18:00.002+08:00

Rayyan now is 10 months old!! time really flies.. I am so proud to look at my precious healthily growing up. Alhamdulillah. And now Rayyan starts to learn play with his friend. Even tho precious is quite manja with us (papa &mama), still not crawling, he is actually brutal when it come to play with his friends.. hehehe Last2 weeks we went to stay over nite at hubby bff house ( u know who u are :p) They such a lovely family and also had a precious little boy name Luqman which 4 months younger than Rayyan...These pixs is taken during they playing at Luqman's playmat.

Just look at the sequence of pixs below.. Lets the pixs tell out the story.....hehehe Enjoy!!

Just started playing happily... However rayyan likes to grab every toy that luqman wants to play...

After get bored grabbing the toy, rayyan start to grab luqman's head!!! I think rayyan is jealous with luqman nice thick hair...hehehe

the fight getting rough... look at luqman's face..he started to cry..poor luqman..

and the punishment for rayyan..he is separated from the playmat..hehehe no more toys for rayyan..

I think rayyan is trying to appologize for what have his done to luqman..and luqman accepted the apology....

ooowwhhh kids..such an adorable character they have.... rayyan mama loves u so so much... be a good boy ye syayang...

Till then..muah! muah!

Happy 29th Birthday To Me!!!

2009-07-28T09:13:00.003+08:00

Hari ini secara rasminya umur saya meningkat ke angka 29

Terima kasih mama kerana bersusah payah melahirkan adik

Terima kasih kepada papa kerana x jemu jemu melayan anak papa yang seorang ni

tetapi saya sgt sgt berterima kasih dan juga bersyukur kepada Allah dia atas segala limpah nikmat dan rahmat yang diberikan kepada saya

Di usia 29 ini saya berasa sgt sgt bertuah kerana diberikan kesihatan yg sempurna, suami yg sgt penyayang, anak yg comel, juga bakal anak yg akan dilahirkan (insyaAllah), keluarga yang senantiase berada di sisi, kawan2 yang setia tak kire waktu susah atau senang....

ya Allah terima kasih di atas segala nikmatMu

Till then..muah! muah!

5 Months Pregnant

2009-07-14T11:59:00.002+08:00

oowwhh saya seriously sgt terkejut bile melihat countdown di atas yg saya sudah 19weeks pregnant!! Sungguh cepat mase berlalu...But this time pregnancy I admit that i dun really have much time to cherish all the moment with the baby inside.. maafkan mama yek syayang.. it juz so many things that need to be done.. housework, precious, research..with NO maid... it's quite challenging & off course exhausting...but Alhamdulillah hubby helped so much & now i'm quite organised but still no time to cook..By the evening i'm already flat & extremely exhausted...

Lately nih sgt bz.. Handling my sis in law wedding, then went to Pekan Pahang for the other side ceremony... This week baru blh settle down and start focus with my research.. Alhamdulillah my paper accepted to a conference this coming October.. Bukan untuk bermegah tp sekadar untuk meyakinkan diri bahawa research saya ni ade potential dan boleh diteruskan lg..Alhamdulillah... So skrg ni semangat sket nk buat kerja...

Unfortunately today i'm not feeling really well...My body very weak due to so many times have to wake up to feed precious.. Precious tgh2 malam tetibe muntah sebab batuk..so after that die mcm hungry & keep on request for bf... Pastuh boleh plak at 2am in d morning i sakit perut & diarrhea plaks... pastuh precious bgn nangis2 nk milk... oowwwhh mlm yg sungguh memenatkan...still today i have to go to medical faculty for an appoinment with a friend...

I think i seriously need a maid.. For my situation rite now, i dun think i'm strong enough to manage both family and carrier simultaneously... i'm weak, easily tired, naik tangge pon mengah2 gile, my csect scar starting to stretch & sometimes it's hurt bile dukung precious..

Till then..muah! muah!

Pain Relieve....

2009-06-29T18:05:00.003+08:00

Alhamdulillah after 1 week beraser sgt down, penat, letih berfikir dan risau xtentu pasal hari ini saye berase lebih positif & motivate... Previous post i've mentioned my maid buat hal.. so hubby mmg dah tawar hati dgn maid & conform nk hantar pulang.. but as for me, saye mcm teragak-agak.... saye mcm rase eh bolehke aku buat kerja rumah, jage anak, pastu nk belajar lagi dgn preggie lagi..aarrgghhh... yg i paling frust sebab i baru jer nk start gear laju for my research dah i stranded x blh belajar... perasaan negative bercampur baur... For a week i duk ngadap precious..die tdo i pon tdo skali sbb kepenatan... pastuh try call nursery nk try anta precious kat sane..Unfortunately nursery yg kitorg suke tuh dah xterime baby lg..slot dah penud..aduhhh ....mmg serious down & stress...

Pastuh Alhamdulillah terima kasih sgt sgt diucapkan pada my family, my dear friends yg SGT SGT bg support kat i.. Last few days i sempat jgk jupe kawan, chat YM with my closest friends, lepak borak with my family... Byk betul pandangan & nasihat diorg berikan.. pastuh i pon dah mcm terror sket bahagi mase jage rayyan kemas rumah, basuh baju & menggosok... so now i feel so relieve.. PLUS my MIL volunteer to take care of precious..walaopon terpakse hantar precious jauh sket, tp janji i senang hati untuk pergi belajar and boleh amik precious mlm after maghrib.. yeay!! :D

So yesterday me & MIL g M*ANJAKU beli brg2 keperluan precious... so harini i start hantar precious g rumah MIL & skrg he still there.. xtaular mcm mane die..nangis ke x...hehehe i try not to really think of him..tp 2day i still x start study... i qada' tdo dulu & nk kumpulkan energy balik so that 2morrow will be better start for me..insyaAllah...

Tujuan utame saye tulis entry ni coz nk ucapkan TERIMA KASIH BYK BYK kepada kawan-kawan, family member yg senantiase melayan kerenah saye yg entah ape-ape nih & juge memberi pandangan & nasihat yg xkan saye lupekan... Saya sgt sayang kamu semua...

Mungkin segale yg terjadi ade kelebihannyer..menjadikan kite lebih matang untuk berfikir dan bersedia menghadapi segala masalah dengan tenang...

Till then..Muah! Muah!

maid..maid..maid...

2009-06-23T15:59:00.002+08:00

start the week dengan bende xbest.. masuk 4 bulan nih mabuk plaks..bangun pagi kepale mesti sakit... pastuh saye mesti jugak muntah untuk mengeluarkan pahit-pahit kat anak tekak nih...xbest langsung....apepon i still manage to do my work..Alhamdulillah...

satu hal lagi my maid buat hal... tue yang xbest jd orang besar nie kan..mcm2 bende nak pikir... ikutkan hati nk ajer penampor maid nih..tp haih...sabar... sabar separuh daripada iman.. boleh plak nk pijak kepale kite... diorg ni xpandai nk bersyukur ke yek... gaji dapat, tempat tdo selesa, siap boleh tgk tv... kekadang mmg kesiankan diorg... tp bile kite bg muke die buat hal plak tuh yg bengang jer...

ntahlar...stress memikirkan hal nie..dgn kite terkonteng2 nk jage baby, nk settle hal rumah.. study?? erkk stop skejap...xleh masuk pon..tgh pening2 nih... tp by next week kene jugak gerak sbb nk kene hantar progress report...aduih..

tue belum hal2 kecik yang boleh mengecikkan hati ini... almaklum lar tgh preggie nie hati bagaikan crystal... fragile gile..sket2 pon boleh tangkap nangis..

cepatlar semua masalah nie berlalu...xlarat den nk memikir lg...

Till then..muah! muah!

Saturday Nite Dine @ The Daily Grind

2009-06-15T21:34:00.003+08:00

Last weekend we all adik beradik had a nice dinner at The Daily Grind restaurant located at LG floor Bangsar Village..

Since Iwan dah nk masuk asrama so we thought of having 'makan-makan besar' together.. Y we choose to eat at The Daily Grind restaurant?? Ini semuer gare2 kami menonton host Maria Tengku Sabri dalam rancangan "Jalan jalan Cari makan"

bagi precious kenyang dulu baru mama sng nk mkn...

Rayyan tgh choose menu nk makan ape..hehehe

As for starter we ordered nachos for the appetizer.. And I ordered mesh potato untuk pakcik rayyan kite nih...

nachos

mesh potato

As for main dish we all ordered different kind of menu..so senang sket nk rase-merasekan.. Those are the menus that we ordered.. Unfortunately saye sudah terlupe lar name2 menu ini....kite layan gambar je lar..hehehe

BBQ ribs

Lamb Shark

Avocado Homemade Burger

Corn Salad for my Bro In Law yg sdg berdiet..

Mushroom Rib Eye

Salmon

Overall the place is nice to dine.. The place is cozy yet quite ambience...

Later that nite we went to my aunt hse makan durian!!! sedap banget!!

Durian sedappppp

me, precious, lyn & adil...

me & precious with love..

Till then..muah! muah!

meng- ANTIOXIDANT-kan diri

2009-06-10T15:57:00.004+08:00

Kemalasan dan ketidak productive-an ketika study menyebabkan saya terase mcm badan saya ini penuh dgn toxin.. mungkin hanye psychology tapi mungkin juga care pemakanan saya.. Since saya skrg preggie agak sukar untuk meng-work outkan diri so I dont blame exercise.. saya hanye ber-exercise dgn care menolak rayyan dgn stroller berajlan2 keliling rumah..

tapi saya sgt salahkan care pemakanan saya yang amat2 tidak sihat..xtau kenape 2nd pregnancy nih saya x mendapat byk kesedaran... lot eating jajan (tit-bits), mkn nasi yg byk, susu sgt kurang, no cereal at all, no fresh fruit juice, juz a little of fruits ( itu pon makan mangga & durian..berkhasiat ke?? :P ) So yesterday selepas kepeningan menghadap Ma*tlab (sambil psycho byk toxin dlm badan) saya pon bersiap terus pergi ke G*iant...

So di G*iant saye grabbed lots of orange, apple, tomato and carrot---> ini adalah ingredient for my fresh fruit juice yg diminum every morning!) , Kiwi fruit---> untuk dimakan after main meal, Mix salad + thousand island--> makanan sampingan ( saye sgt lucky sebab skrg saye mmg tgh kemaruk mkn mix salad dgn thousand island...rase mcm sedap gile!!! ) , Kismis & Almond --> makanan kunyah2 saya untuk menggantikan jajan/tit bits saye...

Tetapi saya tetap juga membeli large bar of Cadbury chocolate..hehehe yang ini mmg sudah tidak boleh dipisahkan lagi dgn jiwa rage saye... Infact saye akan rase xbermaya jika xdpt 1 bite of choc dlm sehari ( hehehe SUNGGUH psycho kan.. :p )

Demikianlar care saye meng-antioxidant-kan diri saya...Today i feel so fresh, sudah beberape kali memerut untuk membuang toxin2 yg berkarat dlm badanku ini, terase ringan badan dan yang PALING penting belajar sgt best!!! senang jer menghadap programming yg berbelit belit ittew... walaopon x terror tp at least bergerak lar sket... compared to yesterday, langsung xboleh tgk coding..rase mcm mate kene cucuk dgn garfu..hehehehe

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Till then...Muah! Muah!

Formula Milk - EDITED

2009-06-06T19:11:00.007+08:00

Similac Step 1 Baby Formula (0 to 12 months)

Last 2 weeks me started gave precious formula milk.. Alhamdulillah he can adapt with this new kind of milk very well....Eventhough me felt so guilty and so sad to give him formula.. :( Why?? Main reason is me have to start thinking of my second precious that growing healthily in my tummy... My gynea adviced me to fully stop bf at least 2 months before delivery.. its bcoz to give chance for my body to build up new colestrum for my 2nd baby.. For starting me started giving precious formula milk only day time..plus he already start eating solid food.. so he only take bottle only twice in day time.. 2ndly me hardly to express milk during pregnancy..The production turn to half!! it really make me stress and cant really concentrate on study coz keep on thinking number of stocks left for precious... so thats among the reason y me decided to give formula milk to precious...

At nite, me still bf precious.. He refused to have bottle if i'm around.. it keep me thinking how i'm gonna stop bf precious?? PLUS how can we teach baby not to wake up at nite? Is precious still hungry eventhough I fed him before he get to sleep??

p/s: I've called HDC (Halal Industry Development Corporation) enquire regarding the halal status of Similac Formula Milk. Alhamdulillah it is stated halal by our expertise from HDC and also IFANCA (Halal-food certification organization in North America).

Till then..muah! muah!

Alangkah....

2009-04-30T19:43:00.007+08:00

Alangkah bestnyer kalau saye dapat menjadi surirumah sepenuh mase... dapat bersama rayyan senantiasa, melihat die membesar, bermain, melihat matenyer terkebil-kebil nak tdo, sentiasa berada di sisinya bile die menangis, boleh belajar ABC bersame-same....

Disamping itu juga boleh memasak untuk suami tercinta...menyambut ketika si die pulang dari tempat kerja..menggosok baju kerjanye dgn cantik2.. la ni bibik gue gosok cincai2 jer.. :(

Boleh bangun pagi dengan senang hati, menyiram bunge2 di luar rumah, pergi pasar dengan rayyan beli lauk pauk untuk dimasak hari nie...

hmm bestnyer!!!

Alangkah...

(p/s: post ini adalah di saat saya tengah berangan setelah berpening kepale me'lari'kan program Matlab..hehehe )

Me & Precious in KOSMO!

2009-04-30T19:43:00.005+08:00

Siang belajar, malam keluarga

Oleh NOOR HASLIZA NUSI hasliza.nusi@kosmo.com.my

Berkahwin, mempunyai anak dan belajar menjadi trend wanita masa kini. Bagaimanakah mereka membahagikan masa dan komitmen sebagai isteri, ibu dan seorang pelajar?

"BELAJAR membuatkan diri saya terasa muda." Begitulah luahan seorang ibu, Hizmawati Madzin yang memutuskan untuk menyambung pelajaran walaupun sudah berkeluarga.

Melanjutkan pengajian di peringkat Ph.D atau Doktor Falsafah dalam bidang sains pengkomputeran di Universiti Putra Malaysia (UPM), wanita berusia 29 tahun itu memberitahu, dia mengambil keputusan meneruskan pelajaran untuk meningkat profesionalisme diri.

Akuinya, ketika memulakan pengajian sebelum menimang cahaya mata, perjalanan hidupnya tidak langsung terganggu.

Bagaimanapun, dengan kehadiran seorang bayi lelaki bernama Muhamad Rayyan Mohd. Faizal, jadual hidupnya berubah dengan agak drastik.

Hizmawati mengakui agak stres dalam tempoh tiga bulan pertama menimang cahaya mata. Dugaannya semakin berat apabila ketika itu adalah tarikh akhir penghantaran beberapa bahan rujukan dan penerbitan.

"Tidak dinafikan, jadual pengurusan harian keluarga benar-benar berubah selepas saya dikurniakan cahaya mata, berbanding sebelum mempunyai anak.

HIZMA perlu membahagikan masa dengan sebaik-baiknya agar pelajaran dan kehidupan berkeluarga seimbang.

"Saya masih ingat lagi pada awal sesi pembelajaran, pulang sahaja dari kelas, saya sering menangis mengenangkan bebanan kerja yang harus dilakukan, apatah lagi kerja rumah yang harus dipikul.

"Saya mendirikan rumah tangga pada bulan Julai 2005 dan dikurniakan cahaya mata tiga tahun kemudian. Waktu itu, saya terpaksa mencari penyelesaian menguruskan masa untuk suami, anak dan juga pelajaran," katanya yang sebelum itu merupakan seorang tutor di UPM.

Sehubungan itu, wanita yang mesra dengan panggilan Hizma memperuntukkan masa siangnya di kelas manakala waktu malamnya pula akan diluangkan untuk suami dan anaknya. Malah, berbeza dengan pelajar lain yang bebas menelaah pada bila-bila masa, waktu ulang kaji wanita itu adalah di antara pukul 7 pagi hingga 9 pagi.

"Waktu itu biasanya Rayyan belum bangun dan saya mengambil peluang itu untuk menelaah pelajaran pada awal pagi," kata Hizma yang akan menghantar Rayyan untuk dijaga oleh ibu, di Kajang pada siang hari.

Kini usia Rayyan menginjak lapan bulan. Jadual harian Hizma kembali teratur selepas beliau sudah dapat membahagikan masa antara pembelajaran dan keluarga.

Lantas tanggapan bahawa wanita berkeluarga tidak mempunyai peluang menghabiskan pelajaran, ditepis oleh ibu muda tersebut. "Itu sebenarnya psikologi semata-mata," katanya.

Lebih menarik lagi, Hizma bersyukur kerana walaupun dibebani tugasan yang banyak, dia masih berkesempatan memberi anaknya susu badan.

"Saya puas hati melihat Rayyan membesar dengan sihat dan saya dapat belajar dengan tenang.

"Menjadi ibu dan pada masa yang sama bergelar pelajar bukanlah satu perkara mudah, tetapi sokongan padu keluarga dan suami memberikan saya semangat untuk mencapai kejayaan cemerlang," jelasnya lega dengan apa yang dilakukannya kini.

Sementara itu, Siti Shafurah Abas, 27, turut menjelaskan bahawa hasratnya menyambung pelajaran dalam Ijazah Lanjutan Nutrisi Klinikal di Universiti Kebangsaan Malaysia (UKM) adalah untuk mengubah kehidupan diri dan keluarga.

Dia memutuskan untuk berhenti kerja sebagai pegawai perundingan pemakanan di salah sebuah hospital kerajaan semata-mata ingin memenuhi impiannya itu.

"Siapa tidak ingin melihat keluarganya hidup senang dengan pendapatan yang tinggi, dapat membahagiakan suami dan anak-anak.

"Bagi saya, sampai bila kita hendak hidup sebegini sekiranya tiada perubahan dalam hidup. Kita seharusnya mempunyai perubahan dalam diri dan kerjaya agar suatu hari nanti kita dapat mencapai apa yang diingini.

"Belajar sememangnya memberi motivasi kepada diri saya. Tidak ada masalah bagi seseorang isteri yang bergelar ibu melanjutkan pelajaran. Mereka akan menjadi contoh kepada anak-anaknya suatu hari nanti," ujar ibu kepada dua orang cahaya mata iaitu Sheikh Aqil Hakimi Sheikh Ahmad Haiqal, 2, dan Siti Sofea Hana Sheikh Ahmad Haiqal, 8 bulan.

Sebagai seorang pelajar, ibu dan isteri, seseorang itu seharusnya bersikap tegas dalam hal melibatkan pengurusan masa.

"Disiplin diri adalah tonggak seseorang itu berjaya memperoleh sesuatu yang diimpikannya.

"Saya terpaksa bahagikan dua masa untuk belajar dan keluarga. Pada waktu pagi, saya menghabiskan masa di universiti, manakala pada waktu petang dan malam pula saya meluangkan masa bersama anak-anak dan suami," katanya sambil menjelaskan waktu menelaah bahan-bahan bacaan bermula dari pukul 12 tengah malam hingga 3 pagi.

Courtesy of KOSMO! 8 May 2009

Till then..Muah! Muah!

Alhamdulillah rezeki Allah

2009-04-30T19:43:00.002+08:00

Just want to share my good news with all my dear friends..I am currently 8th weeks pregnant... Terima kasih ya Allah di atas rezeki yang Kau berikan... Semoga Allah kurniakan kami anak yg sihat, sempurna akal fikirannya, sempurna fizikalnya, , yang soleh, rajin beramal, berilmu, yang comel, yang bijaksana...Amin..

A Quick One

2009-04-27T09:02:00.002+08:00

Actually i've noticed this very long time..tapi malas nak pikir..however, lately it really bother me.. I have this kind weird habit..I dunno whether this thing can call habit or phsycho feeling or wateva...MOST of the time, apabila saya mempunyai sifat RAJIN dalam badan saya, pasti saya akan sakit perut dan memerut di toilet at least ONCE! pelik x? Minggu ni sahaja saya start untuk study dr subuh sampai siang... So dr start saya menghadap laptop or buku PASTInyer aura sakit perut saya akan datang dan xlame tuh mesti kene ke toilet...

kalau sekali tuh oklar..kekadang sampai berkali-kali..then i start wondering...adakah badan saya menghasilkan SATU HORMONE yg pelik apabila saya rajin?? hormone yg menyebabkan saya kene memerut sehingga beberape kali???

adakah anda mengalami seperti ape yg saya alami? Jika ade, sila kongsi bersama saya..

Till then..Muah! Muah! Muah!

Mattel Warehouse Sale

2009-03-31T14:35:00.006+08:00

Last Thursday (26th March 2009) to be exactly, went to Mattel warehse sale at Atria, Damansara Jaya..It was my 1st attempt to this warehse sale.. Got the news from http://www.shoppingnsales.com/ and the comments from previous warehsesale were tremendously!!! It really attract me to join the 'war'.. Otherwise me already got experienced in warehse sale 'war' during the C*rocs sale @ Amcorp mall last year...

The nite before the warehse sale me cant sleep..just so excited & cant wait to go to the warehse sale.. Do some preparation.. Set my Garmin to the location, since me dunno where the hell is Atria Shopping Mall..plus look for the very large plastic bag, so that it easier for me to grab the toys and put it in the plastic bag... Semangat huh!..hehehe

The next morning me didnt wait for precious to wake up..1st time I left him without bathing him 1st..I asked my maid to take care of precious.. Me left the house at 8.45am.. The sale starts on 10am & me target to reach there before that. I arrived at 9.45am & luckily got parking very near to the door & look already many people waiting for the mall's door to be opened!!! Me get so excited plus a bit worry coz takut xdapat toy yg best...Since precious is only 6 months, obviously me aims for Fisher Price lar kan... Which is the MAIN thing that all those peoples want to come to the sale...

Sharp 10am the door opened & the crowds start running!!! kelakar giler!! Even the staff there take photo of us running! heheheh Me pon berlari-lari anak mencari dimana counter for Fisher price Product....

lepas tuh ape lagi..bermule lar peperangan hebat antara me & the crowds to get the best toys for precious...

Wondering ape yg saye dapat grab???

JENG.. JENG... JENG.....

Most of it are Fisher Price products!!! Sgt murah, Sgt puas hati! Alhamdulillah..

Precious take photo with his new toys!

Closed up pix..

The largest box I grabbed!! really LOVE it!!! thanks abg mattel!! hehehe

Elmo yg sgt SGT dikehendaki ramai!! only for RM35!!!

Dun missunderstood yek..The barbie on left side is for my niece, Aleea..

Precious yg xberape nak heran sgt dgn toy die yg byk byk tuh...hehehe

So thats all for this entry..Obviously me CANT wait for next year warehse sale to grab more & more toys for Rayyan.. As for this year no more spending money on toys...

Wondering how much I spentfor all these stuffs??

Biarlah RAHSIA........

hehehe BUT definitely WORTH IT!!!

Till then..MUAH! MUAH! MUAH!

Bile Rayyan...

2009-03-24T11:06:00.016+08:00

1) Bile Rayyan pakai baju lembu..

This pix dah lame amik..mase kitorang g outing jenjalan kat Putrajaya.. but me so suke tgk rayyan wearing this animal costume.. cute!

rayyan happy face!

my lovely little calf!

2) Bile Rayyan bergambar dgn atuk2nyer...

Cucu atuk lar kate kan...hehehehe

with atuk ajim, kajang

with atuk ajis, semenyih

3) Bile Rayyan tdo hotel...

Golek2 kat katil dulu b4 tdo

baju yg rayyan pki ni my sv yg kasi..thanks Dr R!!! :)

4) Bile Rayyan mandi laut..

Me really love this pixs!!! chomel sgt rayyan with his Batman Swimming Trunk!! hehehe perut buncit sampai tersepit gambar batmannyer..hehehe so cute! unfortunately rayyan afraid of ombak.. die geli kot dgn pasir laut yg lembek2 tuh..hehehe

usha line dr jauh dulu.. :p

celup kaki dlm air..memule mcm ok..

lame2 die takut..look at his feet..dah start men-jengket..

dah marah..heheh can anyone spot his Batman symbol?.. :p

anak kesayangan papa tgh tgk ombak..

budak manja ajak balik...sian papa xdpt mandi laut..

5) Bile Rayyan mandi swimming pool plak...

Since die nangis mandi laut, papa rayyan bwk rayyan mandi swimming pool plaks..nangis jugak pakcik nih..sabo jer lar..

tgk muke die yg xpuas hati tuh..hehehe

6) Bile Rayyan kepenatan...

Dah puas nangis sebab xsuke mandi laut & pool, sedap jer tdo dekat pangku papa die...

sian die..exhausted..

cibuk jer mama nih..nk jugak interprem..hehehe

7) Bile Rayyan jupe kawan baru...

Actually ni dedicate entry untuk mama die.. bile long good fren dah lame xjupe..ape lg bergambo ler.. thanks nazim 4 visiting me!!! owh nway rayyan's new fren name Areena.. :)

abe, me, rayyan, nazim, areena, hatta

8) Bile Rayyan main dengan cousinnyer...

As usual me suke untuk kawan2 kan anak kite..hehehe ni rayyan play with his cousin, Dani..( same age different bulan jer) cute kan both of them!!!

dani is 9 months, rayyan 6 months..

uiks dani...what r u trying 2 do??

kepenatan bermain bersama...

9) Bile Rayyan pakai smart2 nk g jenjalan..

This shot taken last nite.. Went to prince court hosp to visit kak dewi's newborn baby..Congrats kak dewi!! nway me saje pakaikan rayyan baju ala2 abang2 dah besar..hehehehe

hemsem x abg rayyan kite nih?? hehehe

Abg rayyan baik duduk diam2 dlm stroller..

hemsem like father like son. :p ye ke??

newborn baby...forgot to ask the name..its a baby gurl...

punye ramai yg visit, sampai xnampak mane mama baby nyer..hehehe

Huish panjang lebar entry this time..puas hati kite!! Hope u guys enjoyce!!!

Till Then..Muah! Muah!

Rayyan start eating solid food

2009-03-12T17:00:00.006+08:00

Alhamdulillah..semalam genap rayyan 6 bulan.. arini rayyan g jep his last dose of pneumococcal vaccine. Next appoinment will be on his bday...Rayyan pon dah pandai menyiarap tegak..mulut pon da start byk ckp..sengih xyah ckplar kan...memanjang sengih...mane lar xgeram tgk... Check up td rayyan's weight is 8.45kg and height 76.5 cm..Alhamdulillah Dr kate rayyan nyer pembesaran sgt bagus...

Semalam jugak me try bg rice porridge to rayyan.. my MIL yg masak..put some carrot, chicken and ikan bilis.. then suapkan rayyan..uwekk memanjang... wonder why..so lunch time td i decide to blend the porridge bg lg halus..plus pangku kan die makan instead duduk kan kat bumbo tuh.. Alhamdulillah die nk mkn..hehehe xsabar nk suapkan esok plak...but still i debo coz rayyan still not poopoop yet.. duk keep on farting tp x poopoop lg..hmmm hopefully his stomach can accept the food.. Gambar gelagat rayyan ketika disuapkan makanan..kecoh 1 rumah bg rayyan mkn..heheh refer to my facebook for more pixs!

rayyan sgt teruja disuapkan dgn bubur!

baru 2-3 suap sudah comot!

beep jugak menjadi pojaan hati rayyan.. ;)

As for myself I think i'm loosing weight..Not much but still can make me feel happy..my sluar bought after confinement pon start to loose.. so longgar sampai dah xconfortable to wear anymore..heheh Study pon ok..not bad...still blur but getting closer.. as my SV said the research is very OK but still the theory still not strong enough..xpe..pelan2 kayuh kan..tinggal setahun lebih jer nih..mampu ker??? mgnggigil bile memikirkannyer... :((

happy faces!

pix taken during outing @ Putrajaya

my precious! Terima kasih ya Allah di atas nikmatMu...

Last weekend Adil, rayyan's cousin dtg rumah ..kitorang as new parents konon2 nk bg depa main sesame..heheh hampeh..mane lar diorg reti main sesamer lg.. stakat rayyan tarik rambut adil boleh lar... heheheh

Adil & Rayyan talking to each other... hehehe ;p

Till Then..Muah! Muah!

.......

2009-03-03T09:38:00.002+08:00

Lame btul dah x memblog... bz yg teramat.. mcm2 bende nk cerite actually tp smpi terlupe.. heheh tp mostly pasal my precious lar kan... now he's already 5 months! Next week going to be 6th!! skejap jer kan..Alhamdulillah everything goes well...

my big bro pon dah balik ke Perth..hmm ntah bile nk g visit die.. teringin jugak tp tgklar cemane...

nway xmau tulis pepanjang coz not really in the mood..juz nk inform to all that saye masih ade di sini sekeluarga sihat Alhamdulillah...

Till then..muah! muah!

Gossiping weekend

2009-02-16T11:34:00.005+08:00

last weekend sgt best.... i can label it as my gossiping weekend... On saturday went to my best x-skoolmate wedding @ seremban...Nanie & zuwairi congratulation!!!! kawen jugak korang kan..Alhamdulillah... Is like a small reunion..meeting old frens..ade yg bwk anak, ade yg still single mingle.. apapepon i was happy to meet them.. sara is waiting for her 1st delivery..good luck beb!! keet's daughter is so so look alike her father...hehehhe hana & bee yee tetap maintain vogue..hehehe and me..proudly introduce my precious to all my frens!!!

@ pelamin

wan ter, pengantin, me, rayyan & sara

bee yee as pengapit, has, mayna, keet, aleea, me & rayyan

The next day was full of gossiping... since hubby went to putra*jaya for biking, me invite a*be to lepak2 @ my home.. tak habis disitu...me invite ladyverde to makan apple pie that i bake..continue gossiping... that evening invite ij*an..my u*pm colleague to come & join us... this is her 1st time met rayyan and lepak to my house...Wow...wat a day!! at 6pm a*be and i*jan balik, me sambung lepak at luar rumah gossip with neighbour plaks..hehehehe kak ani bile nk buat pocho2 nih..heheh

me (alamak mcm da gemuks!), abe & precious

aunty verde, aunty abe & rayyan

my best gossip weekend!!

Till then..muah! muah!

weird energetic brain...

2009-02-14T11:48:00.003+08:00

have u been any situation that suddenly ur brain cant stop thinking even though u try so damn hard to take a nap or resting ur mind??? yeah tell me about it!!! Last nite i'm so extremely exhausted!! went to Alamanda to buy wedding gift for na*nie then trying to confort my precious yg ngamuk to get asleep..So when rayyan already asleep and itd s time for me to lay down to rest my body & mind....suddenly my brain become extremely energetic to think of my research!!! I cant even shut my eyes!!! Lots lots of ideas pouring inside my head..I tried to psycho myself to let the ideas go away & try to sleep.. HAMPEH...

The brain keep on working on how i'm going to start my work of research... Dgn hati yg tidak puas hati I took my notebook and wrote everything that cross my mind.. but heyy..guess what.. i've discovered some significant ideas/points that can insert to my research..so happy for that but still worried if the ideas is not working..but thats wat we call research kan...

The clock shows 2am in the morning & i'm still with my notebook..Rayyan plaks boleh plak wake up every 1 hour nak milk...bertambah2 xblh tdo.. Around 2.30pm i closed my notebook & try to get fall asleep.. STill cant you all!!! the brain keep on thinking & thinking & thinking... Sampai tahap i'm not sure whether i'm thinking or dreaming....weird huh!!!!

I think Around 4am kot i tertido but precious wake me up @ 4.30 untuk milk... huhuhu inilar cabaran untuk breastfeed kan... xpelar...

p/s:Nway rayyan is now 5 months!! weight 8.1kgs.. u can imagine why everyday i keep on complaining about my backache..hehehe tapi rambut still sket ala2 lalang yang tumbuh dipadang bola...

pp/s: I'm not going to wish u all 4 valentine's day BUT i jus want u guys to know that i really loves you..i really miss all my frens..xkire abroad or local..you know who you are.. I Really hope that for next 2-3 years we can meet again, hang out ang have fun like old times.. and I miss karaoke-ing with tun's gang project & best office mate... I really hope to gather with my hubby's cheras clan (sorry guys xdpt join ari tuh), spend time with my best buddies za*lifah, a*be, ve*rde and sesape lg lar..

Till then..muah! muah!

merepek aka kerepek

2009-01-29T20:14:00.004+08:00

me last week keletihan... dengan sibuk pasal study PLUS arrangekan engagement for adik hubby...pergghhh payah lar buat kenduri kat rumah sendiri...penat beb..nway Alhamdulillah everything goes well except for the make up..xberape chantek..semuer ckp mcm opera cine..LOL..jgn mare ina... hehehe gambar? as usual hubby belum transfer lagi ke lappie..nanti later me upload kay...

pasal study, me start to process the 3D image..dapat 1 contoh gambar & gambar itular yg digodek-godek...payah btul nk dapatkan sample data nih..kekadang terpikir jugak, apsal lar susah2kan diri... tp jangan cepat putus asa yer yzma..insyaAllah ade kebaikannyer..sabar & terus berusaha..yeah!!!

nway rite now i'm using imageJ..have u guys heard about it? its an open source system & actually its quite good for those doing image processing..errmm not quite but REALLY good.. The best part it support for medical image!!! hehehe xpayah nak susah2... cari shj plugin bagi method yang diinginkan..panggilkan melalui imageJ & Walla..the system run smoothly...

Alamak my precious sudah bangunlar..got to go...

p/s: me today did my hair cut lg!! rambut dah pendek! baru puas hati!

Till then..Muah! muah!!

i'm so pissed off...

2009-01-22T20:48:00.002+08:00

normally i used to blog only happy happy story kan.. but today i want to blog & tell everybody that i am so pissed off!! why?? firstly i nk bg tau sorrylar for those who read this entry tp xpaham..coz ini adalah hanya luahan ketidak puas hatian saya terhadap my s* (as dr x) and my new r* (mr b).

Last few months i was so happy that i received grant for my research kan..so it easier for me to deal with the expertises. Used the money to work on with data sample..ok finelar.. pastu dr x sibuk2 kate nk cr R* then me said better look for yg terror programming..so i xpayah pening2 kepale dev my own system...

so dr x ni pon hired mr b. Actually i'm not sure whether dr x really want to hired mr b OR DIPAKSA hired by mr b.. Yang i pelik tuh dr x dok ngutuk ckp dgn i mr b ni teruk lar, suke melawan ckp, gaji nk demand level phd lar ( coz die phd student yg br habis), pastuh siap ckp awal2 xnak buat keje yg jupe2 org lar..demand gile babos!!! then wat the he** dr x p hired die??? dr x yg i kenal sgt2 cerewet dlm memilih sesuatu tetapi when it comes to mr b die ikut jer ckp mr b...ape kene mandrem ker dr x nih??? saya SGT TENSI!!!!

pastuh dr x sibuk2 suruh saya bg keyword of my research so that can ask mr b to look for LR..dr x ckp klu blh mr b xnk jumpe2 dgn saye..anything juz thru dr x.. APE HAL PLAK mcm nie kan!!! ko yang kuli ke aku yg kuli.. blm ape2 lg dah byk misunderstanding..FYI saye sudah 1thn lbh membuat LR!! now its time for me to do programming!!! which is dr x langsung X MENTION suruh mr b buat programmimg... YESTERDAY patut kami berjumpe, me, dr x and mr b..AND GUESS WHAT??? HE DIDN"T SHOW UP...kepale o*ak die!!!! dah lar kitorg bayar engko mahal2..suke2 boleh xdtg!!! SAKITNYER HATI!!! saye siap blh tgl2kan my precious kat umah dgn bibik untuk semate2 KONON nk jumpe die... i am so damn pissed off..

mcm ni baik saye jer jd R*!!!! mmg conform saye buat keje... dahlar malas nk tulis lagi..kang terkeluar plak perkataan perkattan yg tidak diingini.. my new resolution!!! nk beli lappie mahal gune duit grant PLUS buat research cepat2 & nk tulis paper byk2 so that boleh present conference yg best2 gune duit grant jugak!! saye xkire!! saye xnk bg muke same itu goblok punye r*... semangat yzma semangat!!!

p/s: utk meningkatkan lg kemarahan saye, dr x ckp mr b anti muslim..aarrrggghhh!!!!!

till then..dazzzzzzzzzz

All ABout RAyyan..

2009-01-18T10:40:00.005+08:00

Rayyan close up! can anyone see his dimple?? cute huh!

rayyan with his new Bumbo baby sitter..

Us..

Rayyan wants to ride papa's new bike

punye sayang kat bike baru..simpan kat dapur..LOL

Rayyan meet aunt Aliya..alamak? awat nangis??

Rayyan outing day!

Rayyan ready to ZZZzzzZzz

Rayyan dining @ shangrila putrajaya..xsedap!!

Nielar penangan kalau ade anak... hehhe
Till then..Muah! muah!

Rayyan's Knit Day..

2009-01-15T10:31:00.004+08:00

My precious learn to knit??..Absolutely NO! Its actually the day Rayyan's wearing knitted kopiah and shoes..Cute kan??? My mom (which Rayyan call her "nanny") loves to knit..So she made few pairs of knitted shoes for Rayyan..Since Rayyan a chubby baby, this shoes really suits him..so xdelar berkesan kaki die kalau wearing socks biasa..

cute kan kaki Rayyan wearing knitted shoes..

And the kopiah is made by rayyan's "bibik" aka my maid.. boleh tahan jugak maid aku nih... Once she saw my mum knitting, she asked for extra benang (ape yek in english..lupe..:P) to knit this kopiah..not bad huh... Anyway xbole kasi die menjahit sgt..nanti kerja lain xbuat..hik hik

Rayyan wearing his 1st kopiah

This pixs was taken this morning..Bawak Rayyan jalan jalan amik angin pagi... Anyway yesterday Rayyan had his 2nd dose of Pneumococal vaccine. Alhamdulillah Rayyan xdemam... Kuat anak mama kan! And now Rayyan's height is 65cm and weight is 7.8kgs!! Semangat & sihat!! Alhamdulillah syukur pada Allah kerana kurniakan faiezma anak yg sihat dan chomel!! Terima kasih ya Allah..

Rayyan the whole set

Till then..Muah! Muah!

me yang perasan!! jgn mare...

2009-01-14T10:25:00.004+08:00

me so happy today!!! why?? i already fit my jeans!!! my fav jeans!!! yahoo!!! last time after confinement walaopon saya terase diri ini kurus but still jeans xmuat coz my butt xmuat..

i'm a bit upset & insist hubby to me a new one.. Naseb baik xbeli lagi.. pagi ni td saje2 nk try since i pki my fav shirt yg i slalu pki dgn jeans nie..skali try2..MUAT lar..xpayah nk squeeze2 pon... suke! suke!

Jeans ini sgt lame ok..i think i bought it when i was 20th..it was 8 years ago!!! kewl huh!!! Actually before pregnant i ade bought 1 jeans nih sebab mase tuh i think i'm a bit kurus...hehehe tp still xmuat jeans tuh coz my tummy still gelebeh due to csec..(those yg csec mayb had same experience with me..tummy mcm t-shirt tight in gelebeh..heheh)

So those pixs below me cam whore wearing the jeans..hehehe

d jeans!! alamak kantoi perut b*nc*t..hehehe

bukti ini adalah jeans lame..skrg levis mane ade tag mcm ini lg...

Till then...Muah! muah!

Rayyan Look-alike Meter

2009-01-12T22:48:00.001+08:00

MyHeritage: Look-alike Meter - Family reunion - Family pictures

Me getting energetic!!

2009-01-12T16:01:00.005+08:00

Since gave birth saya sgt terase badan saye lembek..PLUS saye csec dulu so tukang urut ckp xblh terus pergi aerobic till Rayyan 6 months old.. ooo talking about Rayyan, his now 4 months old!! time does fly kan... saye sgt xsabar tunggu Rayyan 6 bulan so that I can start cook rice porridge for him!!

Oleh kerana saya sgt cepat lembek, saye pon suruh maid saya buatkan fresh juice every morning..Ingredient? 2 oranges, 1 green apple, 1 carrot & 1 tomato... unfortunately tiada ape2 perubahan dalam diri saya BUT i realize that precious skin flawless & jarang ade merah2 or gatal2.. so i decide to continue drinking the juice..Biar anak mama kulit chantek kan...

Last week me went to M*d Valley temankan my bro buy pant.. Then i stop at GNC then asked for multivitamin.. Then she gave me this:

click @ the pix to get more info bout this product

WHich I think it really works for me!! badan not really lembek except for kalau hari my precious moody & nak menetek jer..hehe PLUS my milk production increased!! compare to FEnugreek, I think this is much more better! (ini adalah my own opinion yek..) Alhamdulillah now me dah start buat milk stock for my precious..

Rayyan sekarang dah pandai berlakon.. Kalau die inside car & xmau duduk kat car seat nangis sket punyer menjerit-jerit..so me have to take him out & calm kan die.. alih-alih tgk die tersengeh jer bile atas my lap..sabo jer lar..hehehe Bile die dah ok & jakun melihat kereta lalu lalang baru letakkan balik kat car seat die & tdokan die.. Alhamdulillah me can really manage him now.. Coming wednesday precious nak kene jep lagi..Hopefully die xdemam...

Hubby juz bought himself a bike that really cost a BBOOMM....memule mcm marah jugak sebab mcm membazir..tp pikir2 balik xpelar biar die ber'exercise' sket...makin slim lar laki i...heheh nak tgk bike die? can see from blog listed on my blog list..ini adalah gang2 jiran kami yg gemar berbasikal.. OKlar not bad jugak...

nway lately nih me suke makan & minum bende sejuklar..xtau nape..xelok kan... ice cream xyah ckplar..mmg gile sgt!!! klu blh everyday nk mkn ice cream...cane yek??

Till than..Muah! Muah!

Gambar Lame

2009-01-06T21:54:00.008+08:00

Yesterday hubby reformat computer saye yg mase belajar degree dolu dolu... Then hubby ckp byk gambar-gambar lama dlm pc tuh... I pon tgklar... mostly gambar2 ini diambil mase my age 23-24... gambar kami berbaju serba purple tuh mase engagement my older sis..e*li*...Sungguh syahdu saye melihat ke-slim-an diriku ini..chewah!! ermm malas nk type byk2...enjoy the pixs!!

Family Ajim sebelum ade menantu & cucu

With Gang project Emma & Niza.. Molek-molek belako...

this shot was on Abe's graduation day...mase nie saye belum grad lg...

FAIEZMA ketika hangat berchenta...tak hengat aaa... :p

Till then..Muah! Muah!

Membebel..

2009-01-05T13:30:00.003+08:00

sudah agak lama tidak update...hmm actually byk bende nk story tp blame to hubby x transfer gambar from his D80 to computer..(the camera looks very complicated menyebabkan saya agak freak out to transfer the pix sendiri) Anyway my life now is getting better..Alhamdulillah syukur teramat pada Allah..

My study life getting better, & hopefully can start programming very soon.. SV asked me to try relate my research with ***** mechanics which i think its a brilliant ideas!! BUT ini menunjukkan saya terpaksa study benda baru.. *sigh bende yg lame study pon ade lupa lupa juga... hehehe So skrg hari hari saya kene membace... (ini actually adalah masa membace saya yg saya curi untuk menulis blog..heheh)

My life with Hubby & Rayyan adalah spectacular!!! Alhamdulillah... Rayyan this Sunday going to be 4 months!! kejap je kan.. dah pandai ape? Rayyan dah pandai menyiarap & angkatkan kepalanyer.. SGT addict with his cute lil fingers.. kalau boleh nk masukkan both hand dlm mulut..ish ish anak mama nih..hehehe Rambut ala2 lalang yg tumbuh dipadang bola sepak..very progressive..

My life invidually Alhamdulillah..emotionally sgt stable..financially xbrp stable..heheh still x pandai nak manage the duit..duk keep on spending..padan muke saye.. :p backache still ade & x reduce...anyone ade tips x how to cure backache.. AND today is my 1st day fasting!!! Almaklumlar nak kene ganti pose 24 HARI!! Doakan saya semoga dapat habiskan ganti sebelum Ramadhan mendatang lagi.. excited jugak this coming Ramadhan ..rindu nk semayang terawikh!!

Till then..Muah! Muah!

p/s: Nk congratulate Nana & Kahlil for their newborn child ~ Luqman Kahlil..Semoga menjadi anak yg soleh!!

Aqiqah & Cukur Jambul Rayyan

2008-12-24T10:51:00.010+08:00

Alhamdulillah last weekend (21 Dec 2008) kami telah mengadakan kenduri Aqiqah untuk my precious.. Segalanya berjalan dengan lancar & the food was marvellous..

Rayyan pakai baju putih yg dibelikan oleh nanny nyer mase kat Perth ari tuh.. Kasut Rayyan plak nanny nyer kaitkan sendiri..Thanks Nanny!! Rayyan loves u so much!

Tok Imam sedang mencukur jambul baby Rayyan

Atuk Rayyan pon ambil kesempatan untuk cukur jambul baby Rayyan

Sempena kenduri Aqiqah ini, 2 ekor kambing telah ditumbangkan.. We decide to panggang both kambing..& it sooooooo yummylicious...

Setelah selesai Kenduri, nenek Iya telah menghabiskan cukuran jambul baby Rayyan..& now..ttaaddddaaaaa..baby Rayyan sudah botaks... chomel kan my precious botak????

heheheh

Till then..muah! muah!

Makan-Makan @ my house

2008-12-24T10:32:00.015+08:00

This event just held before i got admitted. Specifically it was 1st day i got fever..Petang tuh dah rase nak demam tp sebab semangat nk celebrate kepulangan adekku yg terchenta akak kuatkan semangat jugak.. hehehe

Me & hubby cooked dinner for whole family to celebrate my bro.. Menu??..sile lihat sendiri dibawah:-

ikan kerapu sweet sour

rosemary roasted chicken

Kepale ikan tenggiri masak asam

sayur buncis goreng

We really had good time & all the food licins habis di makan oleh my family.. As for me happy & proud coz all the food habis di makan..Alhamdulillah terima kasih ya Allah rezeki yg Kau berikan..

papito & mamita sdg menjamu selera

muke budak baru nk start demam.heheh

BroIL beriyer menjamu selera..

Org yg diCelebrate!

Bukti all the foods licinneess...heheheh

Malam itu...jeng jeng jeng my temp terus naik to 40C... mayb due to denggi & kepenatan memasak.. hehehhe

Till then..muah! muah!

denggi fever

2008-12-20T18:58:00.002+08:00

it was a week ago. I was admitted 5 days 4 nite @ KPMC coz of denggi. It was like h*ll staying @ d hosp while my precious was taking care by ma MIL. Poor hubby have to rushed away frm office, home to hospital. Alhamdulillah ma EBM is enough 4 ma precious. But now me having problem to do some stock. Production very low. Agak sedih but need 2 maintain +ve attitude. Ya Allah perbykkan susu aku. Apapepon i'm so greatful that me & family in good condition. So many things want 2 story but darn lazy. Nanti nk story pasal aqiqah rayyan. Till then..muah! Muah!

The Best Gift I Ever Had

2008-12-04T20:23:00.007+08:00

Last few days went to LCCT to fetch my beloved bro & my families. My family went to Perth for vacation & my bro is an undergrad student @ C*rt*n Uni..since d sem break till feb next year, h*zi* dcide to join back 2 msia. Thanks 2 air asia 4 d cheap ticket but toot in service mgmt hehehe

one thing bout h*zi*, he really likes to buy souvenier 4 d entire family! Baikkan adik ku ini.. & guess wat he bought me... Taddaa.. Burberry wallet & pair of polo shirts 4 me & hubby!!.

Baby rayyan plak dpt a pair of Lacoste shoes & Wallabes overall. I am so darn sexcited 2 seceived the gifts. Thanks a lot bro! It really mean so much 2 me.. Sayang banget same kamu! Muah!

Till then..muah! muah!

Tudung Baru Beli

2008-12-02T13:03:00.001+08:00

Memandangkan previous post berkenaan tudung agak mendapat sambutan hangat, saya juge nk tunjuk tudung yg saya baru online. Sile lihat tudung yg saye pakai @ my previous post..sesuai x saye pakai tudung mcm 2? saye beli @ sericahaya. Plz give ur opinion yek! Ok ke X Ok saye pki??

Till then..muah! muah!

Rayyan Good Boy

2008-12-02T13:03:00.000+08:00

Last nite we went to Mid Valley having dinner at Tony Romas. Thanks to LadyVerde , asyik tgk gmbr die makan, i pon teringin makan western.. PLUS i nak buat for experiment for baby rayyan... For everyday routine Rayyan will sleep around 7pm..Meaning mase maghrib tuh mmg sleeping mode die..pastuh 3-4am mate dah bukak bulat besar nk ajak main..Mama & papa die cranky duk melayan anak kami yg sorang nie..

mama & rayyan @ Tony Roma's

me & MIL

So we decided to go for shopping so hoping that rayyan will asleep a bit late.. At 7.30pm kitorang gerak from home to mid valley..mate rayyan dah merah2 mengantuks..hehehe pastuh die tdo sendiri dlm car seat die.. sampai kat mid valley, rayyan dah terjage..still not crying..juz pelik mayb different environment kan... Sampai kat restaurant still die xnangis..juz merengek coz nak milk.

papa bg rayyan milk

BAIK sgt anak mama nih.. Sampai nak balik anak mama still in good mood...Sampai rumah around 10.30pm salin baju & diaper, nursing terus tdo sampai pagi!!! bgn untuk nk milk shj..then terus tdo sampai pukul 8am br bgn!! mission berjaya!!

Mama so happy!!! lain kali boleh pergi jalan lagi.. To Rayyan: mama so so proud of you..you're such a very good boy..Syayang anak mama!!

Bgn tdo dengan satu senyuman indah!!

Till then..muah! muah!

i'm scrued!!

2008-11-30T23:13:00.001+08:00

scrued my blog.. gatal tgn konon nk chantekkan..xtau ape jadi..damn &%#@...hmmmmmmm

Smiley Face

2008-11-27T11:58:00.001+08:00

This is 1st pix of Rayyan's smiley face.. Susah btul nak amik gambar pakcik nih senyum.. At last dapat jugak..hehehe The pix was taken @ nanny's house 26 Nov 2008 around 3pm.. Why so detail? saje..hehehhe

Till then...Muah! muah!

Tudung Ariani Vs Calista Design

2008-11-27T11:19:00.006+08:00

Recently i am so addicted to buy "tudung berfesyen" ala2 ekin gitu..heheh As i noticed there are so many types of tudung with different range of price. So 2day I would like to explain the difference between tudung Ariani ( located at Jackel, Jln TAR) that my sister bought and also tudung by Calista Design that i bought from online. Well basically the design are same.. Please refer at the "cun model"..hehehe

For tudung Ariani:

The awning is from Thai silk but the hard part is only at the front part of awning.. So that the tudung will follow ur head/face shape.. and it really look nice without worrying ur tudung will senget benget.. The rest of tudung is made by cotton.. In material wise, Ariani is more lighter & comfortable to wear.. The price range for this kind of tudung (RM75-RM95)

Tudung by Calista Design

The awning of this tudung is also made by Thai Silk & the hard part is all covered at the awning. It also makes u look good in wearing it. The material for the rest of the tudung is made by silk spandex. It soft and also comfortable to wear. The price for this tudung is RM55!

As for me (a cheapskate person) heheh I prefer to buy Calista Design tudung. As it cheaper & comfortable to wear it with an affordable price.

WARNING: This post is just an opinion of mine. Nothing to do in promoting of any brand of product. As this is my blog & i'm able to write wateva i want.

Till then..muah! muah!

Ngantuks ajer...

2008-11-20T12:24:00.003+08:00

hmm malam td begitu semangat untuk sambung study..Unfortunately 8pm dah tertdo kepenatan.. Lately ni I cepat sgt pena PLUS extremely backache..kenape yek? adekah disebabkan BF? tapi everyday I mkn multivitamin & calcium.. any Tips from BF mummy?? cemane nk bertahan cergas smpi at least kul 10pm..heheheh

pagi ni pulak bgn tdo rase ngantuk sgt sgt..smpi hubby nk g kerja i still @ the bed zZZzZzZz..nasib baik Rayyan dah mandi, nyusu & tdo balik..so blh lar mama take a nap jap..

Esok nak g U*.. Ade roadshow from unit perundangan U*. Nk ask more about how to manage grant money..Hope sgt I can go 2 any abroad conference with the money..but wait! have to work hard & do some contribution in research study..semangat! semangat!

Update for my research: Manage to get expertise of confocal microscopy.. hmm kerja semakin serius..kene bertungkus lumus selepas ini..

Doakan saye yek..

Till then...Muah! muah!

Rayyan 2 months old..

2008-11-13T10:41:00.011+08:00

Rayyan's look @ 2 months old.. (muke budak demam)

Wow... time does fly. rase mcm baru semalam masuk spital nk deliver..heheh dah 2 bulan my precious. Alhamdulillah Rayyan sihat..Now he is 6.29kg weight and 57cm length.

Last Tuesday we went for 2nd dose of injection. Since we also take the pneumococcal vaccine so rayyan kene inject both left & right peha.. (ape "peha" in english yek? lupe..i dok ingat drumstick jer..heheh) Nway poor my precious..that nite rayyan got lil fever..Alhamdulillah die x meragam..just lembek jer & xselera nk minum susu..This is 1st time rayyan got fever & Alhamdulillah mama & papa can handle it very well :)

So below is the pix of Rayyan's peha yg kene inject..sian anak mama..nway sgt tembam kan peha die..gerammnyerr mama tgk!

Alhamdulillah 2day Rayyan da sihat & bgn2 jer terus sengeh kat mama die..CUTE SGT!!! below video i captured few days before...Rayyan dah nk start chit chat dgn mama die..syioknyer!!!

Till then..Muah! Muah! from Rayyan & Yzma...

Papa & Rayyan

2008-11-02T21:54:00.003+08:00

Papa:

Tepuk Amai Amai Belalang Kupu Kupu

Tepuk Rayyan Pandai Papa Upah Susu

Susu Lemak Manis Santan Kelapa Muda

Rayyan Jangan Nangis Papa Buat Kerja

Rayyan:

Papa buat keje ke tdo?? :p

JOm tdo sesame!!!

2008-10-30T16:14:00.002+08:00

me a bit lembek 2day... kene "kerusi merah beruang merah" (try to pronounce it in english) ...hmmm hubby pon same... xtau sebab ape..poor baby rayyan..asalkan bf jer die pon poopoop same.. tp nasib baik die x meragam sakit perut..Alhamdulillah..biarlar mama die jer sakit..

anyway me skrg tgh pikir nk buat goodies ape for kenduri Rayyan this coming december.. 1 of my fren ( thanks to ladyverde) suggest to give cookies yg sgt cute bentuk baju baby.. also fridge magnet gambar rayyan..so mayb start next week me start usha stuff ape nk bg to the guests..

any suggestion??

Till then..muah! muah!

membebel...

2008-10-22T12:40:00.002+08:00

This week will be my last week of pantang..trying really hard to pump BM for my precious..coz next week nk try to hantar precious & maid to my mum's house & i can start bukak buku for my study!! kind of excited PLUS debo coz dah lame xbukak buku & otak pon dah berkarat...heheheh

Anyway last week i received good new from my SV..Our grant of FRGS was accepted for 89K..Alhamdulillah..so after this trying to look for RA for my research..And also looking for expertise to do for my confocal slide..For those readers yg familiar with confocal microscopy do not hesitate to bg tau saye yer..saye sgt memerlukan anda..

Enough with myself..cerite pasal baby Rayyan.. Now he is so chomel & dah pandai ngamuks klu dpt susu lambat..aiyok! thats y i really worried if my BM cukup atau tidak for him.. his weight approaching 5kgs! sgt berat & padu bile mendukungnyer!! and also got rashes kat pipi die..Blame me coz slalu lupe nk wipe after menyusu... :(

Saya mengaku saya sgt malas untuk story pasal hari saya bersalin itu..xpe x?? maafkan saye yer... oklar nk mkn + solat before my precious bgn dr tdo...

Till then..muah! muah!

Rayyan 1 month old...

2008-10-05T13:03:00.005+08:00

Rayyan dah sebulan...skejap jer anak mama membesar kan...weight Rayyan now is 4.87kg & height is 56cm.. Syayang anak mama!

Till then..muah! muah!

Ucapan Selamat Hari Raya

2008-10-05T13:03:00.002+08:00

Salam to all my beloved readers...

Di kesempatan ini, kami sekeluarga Mr Hubby, Yzma & Baby Rayyan wish u all Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir Batin..

Sekiranya sepanjang saye memblogging ini ade terkasar bahasa, ade yg terase hati kami mohon maaf dari ujung rambut hingga ujung kaki...

For those yg waiting for baby rayyan update harap bersabar yek..But if u want to see our latest pix please drop by @ my Facebook kay..

Till then..muah! muah!

deliver..? not yet...

2008-09-09T12:15:00.002+08:00

hi guys.. this entry is purposedly written to update my current status.. me..not yet deliver.. my precious is too manja & still dun want to let go his mummy's tummy.. :) Masih tiada tanda2 sakit untuk bersalin.. but i think i've experienced the early contraction yg people duk talking about.. it feels like "perut mengeras"..

Dr asked to hold till 14th tunggu ade sakit ke x..if not then induce on the 15th.. Doakan yek I boleh deliver before that time..teringin jugak nk experienced cemane rasenyer water broke ke, bleeding ke or contraction nk deliver nih...

For those yg dah experienced, feel free to share ur story with me... Anything i'll surely update u guys!!

Till then..muah! muah!

Induce... may be not..(yet)

2008-08-30T08:35:00.002+08:00

As mentioned previously (mcm ayat thesis jer..hehehe) went to see Dr for baby check up.. Sebelum jumpa berdebo2 lar & berdoa.. As the time comes, Dr periksa the condition of baby's head & told me that precious baru turun 2/5..so ade 3/5 lg untuk baby keluar to see the world.. I mentioned about induce, she said that wait for the baby betul2 ready & masak... Dr ckp " mcm buah durian, tunggu gugur bile masak, xboleh dijolok-jolok" :D

So skrg ni I menanti my precious durian to betul2 masak BUT still hoping precious ready to go out tomorrow..Senantiasa berdoa & berharap..Kuasa Allah bile2 jer boleh terasa nak bersalin kan... Tapi kalau xdapat pon xpe..Janji my precious & me selamat & sihat di proses delivery nanti. Amin..

Anyway out of topic sket. I just found out this blog jual batik terengganu http://batikterengganu.blogdrive.com/.. Memandangkan saya ni mmg gile batik saya hendak berkongsi dgn rakan-rakan smuer..(mane lar tau ade org nak kasi gift kat kite ker kan..heheh) Di ingatkan bahawa ini bukan promosi yg mendapat ape2 bayaran pon..hanya untuk berkongsi minat.. :D

Till then..muah! muah!

Random Thinking

2008-08-29T11:37:00.005+08:00

Yesterday went to The Gardens looking for hubby's denim jacket.. Purposely bought utk dipakai ketika tunggu saya during labour nanti..hehehe (hubby masih sempat pikir nk melaram mase kat spital). While we walking around looking for Levis store, kami melalui Coach boutique & he asked me to go in & look around. Terkezut akak plus excited jugak...Then kitorang pon meng-usha all the bags dalam tue..& finally hubby said to me "kalau after u deliver baby dgn selamat & sihat & everything ok..after confinement i'll get u 1 of this!"

Sungguh gembira dan juga terharu saya mendengarnya..Tetapi di hati kecil ini terasa serba salah pula.. yealar tgk regenye rase mcm membazir..tapi sebenarnya teringin juga nak ade at least 1 designer handbag.. Thanks to ladyverde kerana telah mempengaruhi saya untuk membeli designer handbag.. :P

So skrg saya masih berada dalam dilema patut ke x saya menerima hubby nye offer itu..Offer bukan dtg selalu2... apapepon kite tunggu selepas saya deliver my precious..Which is the most important thing need to be focus right now..

Talking about my precious, i'm going for check up this evening. We've agree to go for induce IF the baby's weight >3.5kg & of course recommendation from Dr... So my dearest friends doakan yg terbaik utk saya & my precious.. Anything i'll definitely update u guys!!

before that wish u all selamat berpuasa di bulan Ramadhan al mubarak.. Semoga puasa kite lebih bermakna tahun ini. (walaupon saya rasa saya xsempat puasa.. :D) Mohon maaf dipinta..

Till then..muah! muah!

Yummylicious TACO Dinner

2008-08-27T11:25:00.007+08:00

Last nite was great.. i asked my dearest buddy to cook dinner for me.. yeah u can call me cruel mom-to-be..hehehe (pakse2 org plak masak utk kite kan)..tapi sebab tgk kat blog die sungguh nampak sedap OK die punye TACO or should i called it TORTICO?? heheheh

Anyway we really had good time..chit-chatting sesambil memakan TACOku...i'm so happy!!

me yang sakan bergosip.. Look at my body..arrgghh scary! hehehe

anyway it not juz 2 of us.. A*e a.k.a orchiddesa pon ade juge.. syiok betul bergosip-gosip sampai xsedar its already late.. me xkesah lar balik lambatkan..tp sian to ladyverde & orchiddesa coz next day nk kerja kan... so around 11.30pm we went back home.. Before that amik gambar dulu..

orchiddesa, me & ladyverde.. BFF!! Love u guys!!

A million of thanks to ladyverde for the lovely TACO dinner..i really enjoy it!! syiok! syiok! After confinement nanti nk try buat sendiri!! soooooo yummylicious!!!

Wondering how TACO @ TORTICO looks like??

ttaaddddaaa....

my precious 1st bite!

hmm tempting x?? nak buat sendiri?? check out the recipe here.

Till then..muah! muah!

Merdeka Baby

2008-08-17T11:48:00.004+08:00

Yesterday went to visit my friend yang i told u guys previously..Alhamdulillah she's really in a good health.. we chat a lot!! T* ko mmg kuatlar..*tabik spring utk ko!!! i'm so happy for u & ur family... pengajaran yang dapat saya pelajari ialah kite as sahabat jgn sekali-kali take for granted apabila kite tahu kawan-kawan kite sihat... at least call or sms tanyer khabar..or mayb u can send gift thru Facebook ke..Menunjukkan kite senantiase mengingati mereka walau dimana kite berada... ini kerana kite sendiri tidak akan tau ape terjadi pada diri kite atau kawan2 kite.....

Anyway this week will be my 36th going to 37th week!!! sekejap jer rasenyer kan... selepas visit T* saya rase lebih bersemangat dan bersedia untuk menghadapi hari-hari untuk deliver... 3 years i've waited for this moment.. so bring it on!!! :D Last check up i asked my Dr whether can i deliver on 31st Aug..xtau nape tapi saya sgt teringin nak dapat Merdeka Baby...hehehe According to my condition, Dr kate insyaAllah boleh.. Dr akan induced saya dan just wait for my precious to kluar see the world... tapi ade juga cons nyer.. which is if the induce failed, obviously i need to go thru csec coz takut the baby heart rate akan semakin menurun tapi my rahim x bukak-bukak.. The pros is now my precious aprrox weight is 3.3kg ang will growing lgkan..so Dr kate ok juge deliver on 38th weeks so that possibility for normal birth sgt sgt cerah..

However hubby told me to wait till the time comes.. meaning no need to hoping for Merdeka Baby.. * sigh tapi xpelar kan.. janji my precious is in sempurna & sihat during delivery.. Amin...

p/s: to Ummi SarahAiman: thanks a lot for the "things"..saya sgt sgt menyukainya!! Fabric & buatan sgt berkualiti.. Sgt sayang utk pakai skrg..heheh tunggu confinement nanti baru nak pakai.. Thanks yek wak.. Syayang awak!!!!

Till then..muah! muah!

Sedih...

2008-08-11T11:38:00.003+08:00

Lame juge x mem-blog..*sigh.. actually byk bende nk tulis tp syndrome kemalasan masih melanda diri.. Report yg patut di-SUBMIT last 2 weeks still hanging gitu ajor... ape masalah aku nih??? tensen gue.. x productive langsung..

nway yesterday saya telah menerima berita yg agak buruk, one of my good friend in u* bleeding teruk after delivering her 2nd baby boy. Alhamdulillah baby nye selamat..tapi kawan saya tue Uterusnya terpaksa dibuang kerana bleeding teruk.. ya Allah menggigil hati kecil ini bile mendengar berita mcm tue.. hari ini die masuk OT for second time. Xtau ape lg Dr nak buat kat die. She's stable but still in critical condition.. Saya harap all the readers yg bace entry ini mendoakan agar kawan saya ini dapat sembuh seperti sediakala.. Semoga die berpeluang untuk kembali hidup bersama keluarganya yang tersayang especially babynya yang baru lahir...

Selalunya kite hanya mendengar berita gembira apabila ada kelahiran baru.. Semalam selepas mendengar berita itu, saya terus sebak..Bagaimana kalau hal ini terjadi kepada saya? Adakah saya akan berkesempatan melihat baby saya, menyusu dan at least memberi satu ciuman kasih sayang padanya? hanya Allah sahaja yang tahu perasaan saya ini...

Till then..Muah! muah!

Birthday & Anniversary Celebration

2008-07-29T11:18:00.006+08:00

Wow!! tomorrow will be our 3rd anniversary... Cepat betul mase berlalu..Rase mcm baru jer postkan our 2nd Anniversary entry.. Skrg tgh write for 3rd anniversary entry plaks.. I nak buat confession kat sini..Mase i celebrate my 2nd anny, i mmg tgh breakdown coz frustrated that all my cousins yg baru kawin semuer tgh preggie.. Tapi Allah Maha Kaya & Maha Adil kan.. tahun ni kami celebrate saya pon tgh preggie 8months..Terima kasih ya Allah di atas anugerah yang Kau berikan..Alhamdulillah..

Nway since we're on budgeting time, we only celeb my bday come anny celeb @ Alam*nda...We went to The Manhattan Fish Market..Actually its one of our fav place to eat..

We ordered seafood platter for two..foohh.. payah jugaklar nk menghabiskannya..hehehhe nway we really had great time..

p/s: Hubby happy 3rd anniversary!!! I love u so so much!! Semoga Allah kurniakan kite kebahagiaan, keberkatan & rahmat senantiasa kepada keluarga kite..

Nway did i promise u guys to put my current shot to compare with previous entry?? So this is me!! mummy wanna be..Do comment okay! enjoyce!

Till then..muah!..muah!..

Sebagai Pedoman...

2008-07-28T17:20:00.003+08:00

Took this phrase from samjap's blog. Semoga menjadi peringatan untuk kite semua...

Bila Allah cepat makbulkan Doamu, Maka DIA Menyayangimu,
Bila DIA Lambat Makbulkan doamu, Maka DIA Ingin Mengujimu,
Bila DIA Tidak Makbulkan Doamu, Maka Dia Merancang Sesuatu Yang lebih Baik Untukmu. Oleh itu, Sentiasalah Bersangka Baik Pada ALLAH Dalam Apa Jua Keadaan Pun...
Kerana Kasih sayang ALLAH Itu Mendahului KemurkaanNya...

Happy 28th Birthday to ME!!!

2008-07-28T16:28:00.005+08:00

yess.. 2day is my 28th birthday... would like to say a bunch of thanks for all my dear friends & family member who still remember my bday & wished me..

well 2day i'm 28 years old and 33rd weeks of pregnancy.. Only few weeks to go for delivering my precious baby.. Thus i would like to take this oppurtunity to ask for forgiveness to all my friends and family.. please pray for me & baby..Hopefully everything will go smooth without any complication..

Just want u to know that I LOVE u guys so so much..

Till then..muah! muah!

Zaman Kekurusanku...

2008-07-24T11:12:00.007+08:00

Remember the last tag game i mentioned i never felt how is like to be kurus?? i guess i'm wrong.. Few days ago saya menyelongkar cabinet to look for some stuff.. then saya ade terjumpa 1 album nie.. bile saya buke album ini saya sgt terkezut melihat "kekurusan" muke saya ini..hehehe

This pix was taken 10 years ago @ uni*e* apartment.. sila lihat muke saye tersgt bershapenyer..tulang klavikal (betul ke nih?) pon nampak dgn clearnyer.. hehe beside me is good friend of mine @ m*zac..

This 2 pixs were taken in 2003.. sile lihat ke-shape-an muke masing2 yek.. oh..terase kekurusannye sekirenye dicompare dgn skrg..hehehe

This last pix saya purposely letak supaya Tun dapat meng-comparekan kekurusannye ketika waktu ini dan sekarang ketika die berambut panjang..hehehe Nway pix ini diambil masa annual dinner company X.. Tun & che sab jd reporternyer, saya hanyalar si tukang penyibuk yg nk ikut jugak..hehehe ingat x mlm ni saya sungguh berdrama dgn faizal & juga faizal telah di drag ke atas stage untuk menari ala2 18SX bersama-sama dgn tutt...... hehehe Malam yang sungguh tidak boleh dilupakan..

p/s: Tun jangan mare..heheheh

ermm nak lihat muka saya yang sekarang untuk di-comparekan bersama-sama gambar ini? TUNGGU.....

Till then..muah! muah!

aleea oo aleea

2008-07-15T07:39:00.013+08:00

after subuh 2day xleh tdo..then i teringat that i really wanted to upload this video for quite a long time..it just for entertaiment.. Well i want to introduce u guys to my one and only cute lovely niece, aleea. she's going to b 3 years this coming September..What so special about her?? her joy, happiness and lovely smile.. Aleea is so so drama queen girl.. she loves to sings and do some drama that she influenced from watching tv..berjoget xyah ckp lar kan..sungguh sakan..sgt sgt perasan orgnyer..sometimes can be a little bit annoying..tp apapepon kami entire family sgt sgt manjakan aleea nih.. yealar kan die jer yg kecik kat family kitorang..(for the mean time lar kan..) Anyway these are some pics i snap from my hp cam.. enjoyce !!

me & aleea

ini belly button aleea..die yg suruh amik gambar nih..heheh

aleea ala2 stacy af6..

these sequence pixs, aleea tgh demo joget die..

Till then..muah! muah!

p/s: sape2 boleh teka aleea tgh nyanyi lagu ape??

randomly hampeh...

2008-07-08T11:09:00.008+08:00

its been quite sometime i x tulis blog.. bukan ape..xde berite hangat & mcm xde mood nk tulis.. xtau nape..mayb my mood swing kot..

Tanggal 28 Jun 2008 nenek hubby meninggal dunia. ini adalah pertama kali i menghadap orang meninggal dunia.. Sedih jugak walaopon i xsempat nk berbaik dgn wan ( hubby panggil nenek die) Wan mmg dah sakit & kene stroke since i married hubby.. Few days sebelum wan meninggal, kami sekeluarga setia menemani wan.. Dari situ i dapat lihat bermacam-macam kerenah manusia yang sihat ni.. Ada yang bersungguh-sungguh menziarah & menjaga wan sakit.. Ada pula yang endah tak endah.. Apape pon ia cukup mengajar dan memberikan saya pengalaman hidup... banyak teladan yang saya pelajari..

kenapa saya sudah lame tidak mem-blog? Ini adalah kerana sekarang ini saya sedang mengalami musim hampeh.. saya sgt berasa the very the low self esteem... kenapa?? kerana saya sgt risau akan study progress saya tapi yg pelik saya tidak bertindak apapepon.. saya hanya mengharapkan miracle dtg utk siapkan kerja2 saya yang tertangguh.. adakah miracle akan terjadi?? tentu jawapannya TIDAK!!! aarrgghh mcm2 benda berada diminda saya di saat ini..

benda yg plg menakutkan saya ketika ini ialah saya rasa saya kene start back reading all my LR to restart my research engine.. saya rasa saya sudah miss & lupa all my main points in doing my proposal.. TIDAK!! saya sgt takut tapi saya sgt tidak membaca ketika ini.. ya Allah berilah hambamu kekuatan untuk memulakan semua research ini...

saya sgt berasa hampeh ketika ini..tapi disamping itu saya kene control mood sedih saya sebab xnk baby dlm perut ini sedih-sedih jugak..

Perkara yg menggembirakan saya saat ini ialah melihat perkembangan baby didalam perut saya ini.. Hari tue doctor buat 3D scan..and ckp hidung baby mcm daddy die..heheheh kelakar sgt bile mendengarnya.. currently baby weight is 1.6kg.. Alhamdulillah doctor kate so far everything in good condition.. Hopefully segalanya selamat and dapat saya normal birth..

Now me & hubby tgh fenin kepala uruskan hal maid.. So far so good & hopefully maid dpt sampai Malaysia pada waktu yg ditetapkan.. Almaklumlar seram jugak bile mendgr cerita-cerita yg kurang enak pasal maid ni..

So till then..muah! muah!

Saya Syayang Hubby

2008-06-25T11:54:00.004+08:00

This entry I dedicate to my beloved hubby.. Syayang just want to tell you that I LOVE U SO SO MUCH.. I xtau mcm mana nk luahkan perasaan ini.. I sgt syahdu semalam walaopon u penat tp still try to entertain me pergi jalan-jalan & makan-makan..I tau bile u balik kerja u sgt lar penatnyer tp u still boleh masak untuk me & baby and malam urut badan i pulak.. Terima kasih sgt sgt kerana tolong i mengemas rumah.. Terima kasih juga I ucapkan kerana u sgt sabar dalam menangani kerenah family I..I xtau macam mana nk balas budi baik u.. I juga nk bg tau that I sgt bersyukur and bertuah dpt suami mcm u.. i am so proud of you..I doakan semoga u diberikan kesihatan yg sempurna, dimurahkan rezeki, ditetapkan iman & dipermudahkan segala urusan u.. Semoga keluarga kite diberkati Allah, diberikan keredhaan dan kebahagiaan hingga akhir hayat.. Semoga kedatangan baby (insyaAllah) akan menambahkan lagi kasih sayang antara kita berdua.. i syayang u sgt sgt...

Till then..muah! muah!

Tagging Game ---Pertama Kali ku....

2008-06-23T10:15:00.003+08:00

i've been tagged by tunfatimah to do this pertama kali ku Game... So enjoyce...

1. Pertama Kali ku naik kapal terbang
Not really sure.. tp rasenyer stansard 5.. pergi Japan..holiday dgn parents..

2. Pertama Kali ku beranak.
Belum pernah..tetapi sedang menunggu sgt yg menggembirakan ini..walaubagaimanapon saya pernah misscarriage sekali pada December 2005..Saya sgt sgt berase sedih ketika itu.. Semoga kehadiran baby this coming September (InsyaAllah) dapat mengubat segala kesedihan saya & hubby..Doakan kami yek!

3. Pertama Kali ku pegi oversea
Singapore kire oversea ke? then saya 1st time g singapore when i was standard 2.. memandangkan papa saya kerja KTM kami g singapore naik keretapi..7-8 jam beb the journey.. tp saya sgt suka pada masa itu kerana ade 2 tourists from Japan bg saya sweet dan ckp saya cute sgt..hehehe Jgn Jeles okay... sampai skrg saya masih berbangga org jepun ckp saya cute walaopun saya tak tau tang mana ke-CUTE-an saya.. :P

4. Pertama Kali ku dok jauh dgn family
same as Tun..mase masuk Mo*ac..eh jap salah lar..before saya dapat Mo*ac saya telah masuk ke private skool MY*M.. that skool sucks! heheh MY*M telah mengajar saya menjadi devil!! dulu masa skolah rendah saya nk ckp org bodoh pon takut.. tapi bile saye skool di MY*M selama 3 bulan SHJ..di ulangi 3 BULAN shj dgn selambanya saya boleh pgl org b**ch! But i'm so glad lepas itu i move on to Mo*ac..Walaupon skool nye x se-grand MY*M tp nilai2 murni yg diterapkan masih ade di hati ini..chewah! Hidup Mo*ac!!!

5. Pertama Kali ku menyedari diri ini gemok
Saya nk tukar tajuk ini kepada Pertama Kali ku menyedari diri ini KURUS..Jawapannya--> NEVER.. hehehe

6. Pertama Kali ku keje
As a clerk @ Maybank jln TAR..mase tue tunggu dr matrix nk masuk degree.. syiok gak..knal ramai member..in fact ade yg member sampai skrg! kerja xseberapa tp time kuar mkn plg masyuk!! G jalan-jalan mkn kat Pertama, Sogo, nasi padang, nasi beryani Insaf.. mmg mewah lar mkn mase tuh walaopon gaji rm600/month jer..hehehe

7. Pertama Kali ku bercinta

saya mengaku saya seorg yg gediks..heheh dari darjah 1 saya dah start suke sorang mamat ni..Nama die Kahlil..kami same2 masuk persembahan menyanyikan lagu "It's a Small World".. namun cinta kami xberpanjangan (uish perasannye! hehehe) kerana saya berpindah ke Kajang mase standard 2..tapi yg sebenar2 saya start fall in love kepada seseorg after i finished skool form 5..ermm xnk cite panjang2 bende nih sebab ia sgt byk meninggalkan bad memory kepada saya.. its really hurt when u lost ur 1st love..

8. Pertama Kali ku masuk cinema
Mama saya sgt suke tgk wayang..dolu-dolu kami tgk wayang di Coleseum..(skrg wayang ini hanya menayangkan filem Tamil shj..hehehe) Tapi dulu di Coleseum ini saya menonton cite Ali Setan 1, Ali setan2, Azura, Bujang and etc..so xsilap saya pertama kali ke cinema mase cite Ali Setan..ade sesape tau tahun berape??

9. Pertama Kali ku masuk wad spital
Ketika saya misscarriage...

10. Pertama Kali ku memandu

Adalah selepas saya habis SPM..terus amik drving license.. Kereta pertama saya pandu adalah honda lama mama saya WCU1771..Kemudian papa saya belikan kereta pertama saya iaitu KEMBARA!! saya sgt syayang akan kembara itu walaopon nombor plate saya agak di-anak tiri iaitu WGR771.. saya pakai kereta tu dlm 3-4tahun..kemudian saya telah bertukar kereta ketika saya sudah mula bekerja..Kereta pertama yg saya bayar sendiri hasil dari titik peluh saya bekerja sehingga skrg ...

New chick in town!!

2008-06-18T14:58:00.003+08:00

This entry is specially dedicated to my beloved buddy, Oyis that has safely delivered a very lovely baby gurl yesterday (17th June 2008) at 2.21pm.. Congratulation oyis & saiful!!

cute sgt!!