IN LOVE...

I THINK I'M IN LOVE WITH MY NEW LAYOUT...NICE HUH? CERIA....

owwhhh actually now tgh take break jap... gile fenin tgk2 nombor pada screen... currently im doing my FINALE experiments for my study... hope everything run smoothly & NO MORE EXPERIMENT please.... mak capek.... also i've already sent my 1st draft to sv and now she's ready tu hunting me!!!! walaupon kelam kabut nk kejar requirement die tapi i'm soooooooo happy that my sv yg cr i!!!! meaning she's ready to really concentrate on my work... so tugak i skrg kene betul2 siapkan segala -mala permintaanyyer... now nk buat ppt slide for my overall study and abstract in order to submit my thesis submission form...

sikit lagi darling yzma... kene berusaha sgt sgt gigih.... semoga Allah permudahkan segala urusan ku, & berikan kesihatan pada diriku, keluarga & SV supaya segala yg kami rancang mendapat keberkatanMu, ya Allah...

till then..mmuuaahhh

p/s: zalifah really glad u read my blog!!!!

Life

at the age 3-series nih life is so unpredictable..in the morning u happy-happy...and petang tetibe u blh moody xtentu pasal... heheh itu lar i skrg nih.. itu blm penyakit-penyakit yg dtg melanda... at age 31 i've already started to eat Lipitor...yeah baby...drug to reduce cholestrol... my cholestrol is damn high... before this Dr just ask me to control food...tp after 6 months check up, die reduce ciput jer..0.05% gitu..heheheh itu pon thanks to Monavie drink supplement yg i amik...

i memang xsuke control mkn..bg i makanan tuh nikmat.. so nape patut control.. but know thinking of my beloved hubby and heroes i start to take note all this matter... tp xdelar control sgt just reduce sket nasi, take more sayur BUT please xboleh tinggalkan KFC..especially the kulit part..hehehe mayb i just control the frequency of eating KFC.. mayb once a month or once in 3 months...

owh ok had to stop now..suddenly no mood to blog..tgk tuh..td berkobar now xde mood.. hheheh very unpredictable...hehehehe

till then...ciow!

1st draft

uish tup tap tup tap dah end of october.. skejap btul rasenyer tahun nie.. and saya pon dah start masuk kerja balik... currently tgh memulun writing... ikut kan nafsu yg jahat ini malas & down nyer rase nk buat writing..tp memikirkan semangat nk habiskan cecepat ..tulis jer lar... hopefully by end of next month can submit 1st draft.. and obviously akan byk gilos correction sebab my sv very particular bab writing nih... apape pon doakan kami yg sedang buat PhD yek...

till then..muah! muah!

Ada Ape Dengan Tutor?

Actually dah lame memendamkan hal ini & kekadang ade meluahkan rase pd hubby, member or laman sosial.. bukan tidak bersyukur dengan rezeki Allah berikan..tetapi kekadang cara layanan di tempat ini menyebabkan timbulnye tidak puas hati ditempat kerja. Kekadang cube juge untuk berfikiran positif namun hati ini meronta ronta untuk menjerit ketidak puas hatian..

Ada ape dengan tutor? ape beza tutor dengan lecturer lain yg juge belum habis belajarnyer... meminta basic facilities untuk diletakkan dalam bilik bagaikan meminta sedekah ditepi jalanan yg belum tentu dapat ke tidak.. itu belum minta advance facility seperti bilik baru. Yeee mmg saya belum habis belajar.. So wats with it?


yang saya ni pon 1...kenape mesti teruskan hidup di dunia yg keep on comparing the 'TUTOR' status.. this world is soooooooo not me... reading, writing, duk diam2 dlm bilik memikirkan masalah yg perlu diselesaikan.. saya seorang yg ceria, semangat untuk membuat kerja, suke berinteraksi dgn org lain, sgt suke mengajar... end up kerja duduk dlm bilik sesorang & syiok sendiri doing research... mmg rase nk menangis.. selalu wondering what if I kerja di tempat lain.. should I be better person than I am now..

adakah saya seorang yg tidak bersyukur?? saya sendiri tidak tahu.. bukan semorang dapat peluang utk dpt cuti belajar dgn bergaji penuh...juge bukan semorang dapat tempat kerja yg stabil..ade yg kerja hanye di office yg kecil shj... tp klu hati senang ape salahnyerkan..drpd kerja di tempat yg stabil tp ssenantiasa hati yeg resah...pon xgune juge... ade master tp rase mcm sgt hina duduk di sini.. terase so in LOW level mcm org xde SPM... ooo awak tutor? tutor xleh dpt printer... ooo awak tutor? tutor boleh dial limited extension shj... awak belum habis belajar? ooo kene duduk blok sini jer sebab blok sane utk org yg ade PHD.... hello habis yg lecturer bertahun2 xhabis belajar boleh lar plak kan duk sane.. WTH..

Marah mmg sangat marah.. juge timbul perasaan benci untuk kerja disini.. tapi yang pasti saya tidak akan putus asa untuk habiskan study saya.. saya da xkesah dah.. lu xnk gua, gua blh cr kerja tempat lain.. tp gua akan habiskan phd gua.. main style double standard dgn insan bergelar 'TUTOR' yek.... dengan year of service xdikire.. gov loan facilities xdpt.. Astaghfirullahalazim..

ya Allah berikan aku kekuatan dalam meneruskan pemblajaran aku ini.. jangan ko jadikan aku seorang hamba yg tidak bersyukur di atas rezeki yg Kau berikan. Ya Allah permudahkan segala urusan ku untuk menyiapkan PHD...sesungguhnyer aku insan yg lemah, yg mudah marah, yg rendah pendiriannyer.. Kau lindungilar aku sekeluarga drpd anasir2 jahat yg boleh menggugat keimananku pada Mu ya Allah...ya Allah jangan Kau biarkan aku berputus asa dalam meneruskan pembelajaran ini...Berilar aku semangat ya Allah...

selamat berpuasa & selamat masuk kerja!!

Alhamdulillah sudah masuk 16 hari kite berpuasa.. skejap je kan... next week Monday saya officially masuk kerja setelah 4thn cuti belajar... debo jugak..buan ape takut xleh nk cope up study dgn kerja... tp insyaAllah dgn pertolongan Allah segala urusan boleh diselesaikan...cepat ke lambat ke mesti disiapkan...

tp dlm debo debo tuh kekobar gaks nk masuk kerja.. siap beli baju baru, handbag baru, seluar baru..maklumlar baju opis yg lelame xmuat..sebab b4 cuti belajar blm ade anak lg..skrg dah 2, so size badan agak berlainan..hhehehe

pasal belajar plak skrg stage final experiment..hope everything goes well..lepas complete experiment ni blhlar concentrate writing plak...

oklar not in a mood tulis pepanjang..ini pon sesambil run experiment..

till then...muah! muah!

Current Stage

Rizq Hadif 2thn...Rayyan 3thn...Phd 4 thn...

WOW cepatnyer mase berlalu.....

Macam macam Rasa

sekarang ni saya mempunyai perlbagai rasa...rasa gembira melihat anak2 membesar dengan seihat...rasa risau mengenangkan kolestrol & sugar level sgt tinggi, rasa sedih & rendah diri mengenangkan nk kene start write thesis tp xterror nk tulis in english walaopun bahasa melayu.. okkei stop kat sini dulu tentang rasa... dr sekolah rendah lg saya memang mempunyai masalah tentang membuat karangan.. ini mmg kelemahan dalam diri.. mmg dr dulu cuba perbaiki kelemahan namun diri masih terasa rendah bile ade nyer bab tulis menulis ini..tidak kire bahasa melayu atau bahasa inggeris saya mmg kurang mahir dalam menulis.. ape yg cube disampaikan dalam penulisan tentunyer tidak sampai akan maksudnya. ingat lg mase sekolah menengah, siap cikgu bagi few of example for beginning of the essay..sebabnyer ayat2 saya mmg xbest & langsung tiada berbunga bunga...

dulu mase master , most of the ayat SV saya btulkan.. kini utk PHD mule untuk menulis..saya sgt sedih & down...tp alang2 menyeluk pekasam...kite kasi habis ini PHD!!!!!! mari menulis!!!

owhh anyway sambung about rasa..skrg nie saya rase nk makan dessert manis2!!!!! saya rasa tidak pedulik dgn kadar gula yg tinggi!!!! NK JUGAK MAKAN MANIS2!!!!

Till then..muah! muah!

Cinta Cholestrol...

Pernah dgr Xanthelasma?
Taken from encik Wikipedia "Xanthelasma is a sharply demarcated yellowish collection of cholestrol underneath the skin usually on or around eyelids".

From other reference " Xanthelasma may occur in connection to hypercholestrolaemia (high cholestrol/serum lipid level). Patient with hypercholestrolaemia are at a higher risk of gettin stroke and heart attack."

And wondering why me sibuk sibuk explain about Xanthelasma???
yesss baby.. I do have Xanthelasma on my right eyelid. :( in fact there is sign to appear another one on my other eyelid.. Punyelar I sibuk2 nak kuruskan badan yet my cholestrol level god damn high.. yesterday went for cholestrol check up. And as expected the cholestrol level is higher then normal value. The optimum value is 5.7 yet mine is 7.6.. And the is also test for LDL (bad cholestrol) and HDL (good cholestrol).. and guest what?? my HDL is lower then it supposed to be BUT the WORST scenario my LDL is far far higher from the optimum value. For normal value the LDL must be <2.6. But mine is 5.8!!!! horror kan...

DR suggest me to change my family planning method. Currently me using depo injection (once in 3 months)..this kind of injection effect hormone where my calcium level become low (the reason I keep on having spasm in my low abdomen) and most probably the cholestrol level become higher due to the same reason. Also need to change my eating behavior (iyer saye sgt suke akan lemak2 daging dan juge telur masin..) and last but not least need more exercise!!

need to loose at least 3 kgs within this 3 months.. boleh ke? hmm terpakse kan... before this i dont really believe in food diet.. buat now have to... have to start new eating lifestyle.. no more oily food, no more seafood.. tsk tsk soooo sedih..

so for today i start with fasting. Ate oat for sahur (sooo xsedap)... I believe with fasting we can control our diet easily BUT dgn syarat jgn berbuke secara melampau...

Doakan semoga saya sekeluarga sihat sejahtera..

Till then.. muah! muah!

Camwhoring Myself

da lame teringin nk tulis kat blog nih tp ade jer pelbagai alasan yg menghalang... nway kesan drpd ke-fobia-an saya mencecah 3-series nih.. saya byk juga mengubah penampilan... selain drpd ops korset yg masih dilakukan skrg ini..saya mula berjinak2 dgn make up..mostly everyday ke office saya pki make up.. bukan ape just nk bg nampak kulit muke tu sentiase ceria & sekate warna nyer.. :)rase lebih confident if i put on make up. nway pasal corset walaupon saya xcontrol mkn sgt tp saya telah nampak sedikit perubahannyer..sooo happy okkei... the flabby on the side of my tummy sudah tiada!!!skrg the challenge is to get rid the flabby on the lower front of tummy.. agak sukar sekiranyer xdiet kan..mayb can try tp xnk mendadak diet.. i hate diet! i've mention previously that before this i makan de bella lecithin..and it really works in reducing our appetite. langsung xselera mkn okkei..but i'm not going to continue consume the product since its kind of expensive. Therefore skrg ini saya telah terasa akan kesannyer which is selera mkn saya kian bertambah...skejap je da terase lapar..agak takut jugak lar.. tp cube sendiri utk kontrol jgn mkn byk sgt...sekarang pon da start joging with heroes..not every morning lar tp klu kami anak beranak bgn awal blh lar main2 kat dpn padang...talking about heroes mesti wajib letak gambar diorg..



Till then.. muah! muah

1st Update for Year 2011

Alhamdulillah... syukur telah masuk tahun baru dengan hati yang gembira.. Semalam genap Rizq Hadif berumur 1 tahun 2 bulan 22 hari sudah pon pandai berjalan.. *clap clap happy Terima kasih ya Allah di atas nikmatMu.. I am so happy and proud of my baby... Since Hadif is a pre-term baby, I always worried about his development. mcm2 cerita I dgr pasal pre-term baby..tapi Alhamdulillah so far perkembangan Hadif sgt memuaskan.. Even though his not as advance as rayyan but his doing really well... so dah boleh jalan, next mission ajar cakap plak... now every morning me suruh my maid bukak vocabulary cd utk Hadif tgk.. so klu die rajin die akan ngadap..but mostly end up nangis sbb kene tgl sesorang depan tv..heheheh

tapi dalam mendidik anak-anak nih kite kene byk bersabar kan.. rayyan & hadif have kind of different character.. rayyan is more on education activity.. he really love to watch the vocab CD, love to read book & now his new hobby is doing puzzle!! However hadif is more on activity lasak.. Just imagine, hadif sgt berkobar utk berjalan hanya keraana he wants to kick ball!! oowwwhhh akak masih teringat during his pregnancy akak sgt meng-adore ittew malaysia football player yg kembar zaquan & saper ntah name sorang lg... mungkinkah rizq hadif bakal menjadi pemain bola sepak profesional 1 hari nanti??? hadif really likes to kick ball.. he also likes to panjat2.. agak active my 2nd heroes nie compare to his abang.. apperpon me still love both of my heroes and also the bapak hero.. :)

Hadif tunjuk skill main ball

Nway Rayyan da start his playgroup session... it start Nov 2010.. Alhamdulillah rayyan react positively. he follow instruction and kind of having fun in class.. tapi actually i xbrp suke sgt the activity in the class. keep on repeating the same thing.. plus now ade cikgu baru yg replace yg soooo not experience.. but since its near to our house and rayyan actually still small to go to kindy then we decide to stay at this playgroup..mean while i'm still hoping for ALIM kids group for rayyan to join them..currently the class is full...rayyan is in the waiting list..kat Kajang nie mmg xbyk playgroup utk children age 2-4 years,... maybe I should open one centre kan.. tgklar habis study nih boleh gak diconsiderkan.. :)

Rayyan at his playgroup

Ok enough story about my heroes..now I want to gossip bout myself plak... sejak2 masuk 3-series nie kan..saya seakan akan freaking out uols!!!! takut gemuk, takut muke berkedut, takut gigi buruk, takut baju x cun... so dengan itu telah pelbagai perkara saya lakukan.. antaranya ialah mission memakai corset selama 3 bulan!!! yeah ini adalah semangat yg berkobar2!!! saya rase akibat ceaser, semasa pantang xblh pakai bengkung menyebabkan perut saya menjadi buncit dan menggeleber semacam...ditambahkan pula dgn kegemukan yg teramat skrg menyebabkan kebuncitan saya telah melebih paras yg merbahaya hingga org ingat saya sedang pregnant lg!!! sgt stress okkei berkeadaan begini... mula2 saya berkobar nk sit up.. UNFORTUNATELY bile sit up byk2 kali, bhgn scar ceaser saya itu menjadi cramp!!! so takut lar plak nk buat sit up byk2 kali...Hari ini adalah hari ke-3 saya memakai corset..ada 87 hari to go! Doakan semoga saya berjaya pakai everyday for 3 months & nk tgk keberkesanannyer.. U CAN DO IT YZMA!

Next mission is to go for exercise.. memandangkan kelas di *a*i GYM itu mlm shj available, saya terpaksa menamatkan hasrat untuk join.. So saya akan menggantikan dengan join pocho-pocho kelas once a week shj... yang lain tuh saya akan berjogging di luar rumah shj... Semangat utk bgn pg pergi berjogging bukan senang okkei..memerlukan semangat yg kental utk bgn tdo pepagi & bersiap utk jogging..*sigh tp demi menjaga ke-cun-an diri hingga tua akak tetap akan lakukan..chewah!!

utk kecantikan muka pula, saya telah membeli pelbagai serum & moisterizer utk ditempekkan di muka ini... especially the eye part.. takut pula wrinkle2 yg akan mula keluar ittew.. so i decide to put on eye serum dgn harapan to reduce or make th wrinkle keluar slowly... so damn slowly..heheh sebelum nie saya just buat simple step sblm tdo..td skrg tidak lg.. mcm2 cream akan ditempekkan dimuke sblm tdo..

disamping itu juga, pagi2 saya everyday minum fruit juice utk kecantikan kulit & pelawsan sistem badan.. juga saya makan jamu mak dara utk kecergasan..tp actually saya lbh suka kepada ma'jun (ape ntah nama brand die) coz kesan lg mantop & cergas.. plus memaintainkan nafsu batin gittew :p skrg juga saya sdg amalkan product Lecithin from da Bella.. Produk ini telah dibeli oleh mama.. tp produk ni agak mahal & saya just decide nk habiskan 1 cycle ini sajo... & nanti kite lihat kesannya.. TUNGGU... and also saya ade minum produk kesihatan called INTRA.. i think this product is quite good.. plus the price is affordable..pastinye saya akan teruskan peminuman.. :)

owwhh saya sgt berharap dengan usaha saya ini saya akan menjadi lebih positive, well maintain dr segi kesihatan, kecunan & keaktifan diri..

mama with two heroes ..do i look soo 3-series mama?? Yes? No?

Till then..muah! muah!

My Love Dont Cost A Thing

Heard the song this morning by J LO... teringat semalam hubby ckp die minta maaf if what his gain not enough to pleasure me & the kids.. I was soo touched... seriously i xpenah merungut (okkeilar kekadang ade jugak mintak2 barang..hehehe) dengan segala rezeki yg ade.. I believe in Allah..and i believe wateva we get from Him is the best for all of us.. so far kami xpenah kehabisan makanan..kami tidak merempat ..tempat tinggal kami sempurna..Alhamdulillah rezeki senantiasa ade... kesihatan yg baik utk kami & anak anak...anak anak membesar dgn sempurna.. keluarga & kawan senantiasa menggembirakan kami.. so ape lg yg saye mahu...? this is the happiness i always wanted..U, ME & the KIDS...

So Faizal dearie...

No matter how much u gain it doesnt really matter... u know i will alwiz be there with u.. we shall go thru everything together no matter how hard it is.. I Love U so much dear... and REMEBER: my Love dont Cost a Thing!!!

Till then..muah! muah!

azam 2011

lame sungguh xmenulis sekarang nie....seriously mmg xde mood btul nk tulis blog..xtau nk tulis ape...cite pasal vacation part II pon tak tertulis.. kenape yek?

lately nie perasaan begitu berkecamuk..mungkin di hujung2 belajar nie buatkan kite jd stress terlebih...pastuh bende kecik pon nk create jd besar...adoi..

nway its already December..hanye lg beberapa hari kite akan masuk tahun baru 2011.. so wats my new resolution.?? last year azam saya adalah untuk lebih rajin memasak di rumah..Alhamdulillah saya masih melaksanakan azam itu... so untuk tahun 2011 azam saya untuk lebih rajin belajar & siapkan PhD and submit my thesis at least at the end of 2011...

Juga saya berazam untuk menjadi ibu yg lebih baik dari sebelum ini..cube spent more time with my heroes..Lebih banyakkk bersabar melayan kerenah anak2.. anak2 ini adalah amanah Allah kepada kite..oleh itu kite kenelar jaga amanah Allah ini sebaik baik yg mungkin..

Ya Allah semoga ko permudahkan urusanku dalam mendidik anak2ku & juga urusan pembelajaranku...

Till then..muah! muah!

Rizq Hadif One Year Old

5 November 2010 genap Rizq hadif my second child turn to 1!! Macam xpercaya kejadian bleeding during pregnant Hadif selepas makan Mc Donald & terus dikejarkan di hospital sudah setahun berlalu..Walaupun Hadif dilahirkan pre-term 35th weeks Alhamdulillah saya sgt bersyukur pada Ilahi kerana Hadif membesar dgn sempurna dari segi kesihatan & juga fizikal.. Kini Rizq Hadif sudah berumur setahun.

Buat Rizq Hadif Tersayang....

Mama doakan semoga Hadif membesar menjadi anak yang soleh..

Taat pada Allah, taat pada Rasul, taat pada papa & mama,

Semoga Rizq Hadif membesar dgn sempurna akal fikiran, fizikal & diberikan kesihatan yg sempurna,

Rajin beramal, berilmu, berakhlak mulia & bertanggungjawab...

Papa, mama & abang Rayyan syayang Hadif sangat sangat!!!

Till then..muah! muah!

Rome, Padova & CLEF2010

Banyak bende nk tulis tapi xtau nk start dr mane...hmm sudah agak lame xmenulis... ini disebabkan terlalu banyak bende yg serabut dlm kepale otak ini.. Alhamdulillah everything getting better...Kenape serabut?? disebabkan risau xtentu pasal pasal our Europe trip last September..Alhamdulillah everything went well...best tapi penat...

We start the journey on 16th September at 3am to Rome by Qatar Airline..transit kat Doha airport.. I loike Qatar Airline.. even me bring along both heroes, boleh dikatekan the flight is confortable..of course lar budak2 meragam..tp xseteruk mane..still boleh handle.. the bassinet, the food We reach Rome at 1.30pm local time...It was nice shiny day...then directly go to our Bibi & Romeo Bed & Breakfast... The room is quite small for 5 of us but still ok.. Sampai bilik semuer kepenatan & treus tidur..

Next day baru ler start berjalan ke Vatican City (its just a walk distance from our place)..Then afternoon we went to Rome mosque (used to be a church) for friday pray... our cleaner (Abdul)at b&b was a bangladeshi & muslim..so he guide us to the mosque..sementara tunggu hubby semayang kitorang p melantak nasi kat pasar2 luar masjid tuh..Later we met a chinese muallaf lady (Khadeja) at the mosque who volunteered to be our tourist guide.. Abdul & Khadeja showed us how to go to Trevi Fountain & Spanish Step.. really enjoy it!

The next day we went to designer outlet..unfortunately it was raining that day.. For those yg pernah pergi outlet almaklumlar its just deretan kedai & tiada beratap..so bile hujan tuh terpaksa lar kami berlindung di food court sampai me myself xde mood nk bershopping.. :( manage to buy innerwear & a pair of shoes shj...

The next day is our flight to Venice. Then from Venice we take a cab to Padova. Padova ni tempat conference CLEF 2010 yg saya nk pergi... the conference held at Universitas Studii Paduani.. I really love staying at Padova.. The accomodation, surrounding, kedai shopping nyer smuer best2!!! Apartment yg kami rent sgt selesa & byk kemudahan...plus the owner sgt baik hati.. the owner lend me her bike so its easier for me to go to the conference.. it was so joyful riding a bike at very nice place.. saye rase saye the only person in Padova who wear hijab during cycling.. org local pon pelik tgk me bawak bicycle kat area diorg..heheheh it was such a good experience & memory...

About the conference..Alhamdulillah dapat banyak ilmu baru..especially on extraction features..okies..before the conference was held, the organizer had given us sample of dataset...so we download the dataset & apply it using our method and then evaluate based on their criteria... so during the conference there are lots of discussion on which method the best & still how to improve for better performance.. since the dataset is a compilation of images and textual information based on HTML script. Most of the applicant used textual feature for retrieve & classify..ade juga yg combine both textual and visual.. but for those yg use only visual feature result in poor performance... why?? thats the question i need to prove that using visual also can produce better performance using different method & solution.

What I like the most about this conference, they already have guideline in evaluation of every run system submitted.. Therefore its easier for me to compare the result of my run system with others without developing or running their system..Isn't that great?? tp yg xbest kalau result kite poor than them...but thats wat we call research kan!! klu lg teruk mesti cr jalan to improve the result kan!!! owwwhhh i'm so sexcited to complete my run system & compare with them!!!!

hopefully can get better result & submit for CLEF next year.. dgr2 cite nak buat kat Greek plak.. SV disayangi, boleh saya pergi lagi?? hehehehhe

Meanwhile I need to practice present for my proceeding paper conference tomorrow...yer saya sgt gile conference..hehehe Journal satu pon tadak lagi!!! aduih!!!! ini just small conference held in U*M...dibiaya sepenuhnyer oleh diri sendiri.. pergi ni pon nk cr potential examiner.. hopefully dapatlar new knowledge and good networking... Actually I do believe with networking... lg bagus your networking lagi mudah untuk u buat kerja & mengembangkan ilmu anda...chewah!

So oklar..ade mase lain nanti saya sambung lg cerite tentang Europe trip saye yang Paris & London..but seriously, saya sgt jatuh hati pada Italy.. InsyaAllah ade rezeki lebih I will definitely come again..boleh x berangan nk pergi dgn hubby jer mcm honeymoon.. heroes tinggal dgn nenek yek!!! hehehehe

Gambar?? sile refer pada Facebook saya yek..

Till then..muah! muah!

where have i been?

i'm here.. i'm still here.. infact i am staying still without doing nothing.. i mean in my research study.. yeap..no progress..

so hello hello world.... lame jugak dah xupdate.. actually sooo many story to tell tp soooo not in a mood to write.. after i wrote my last entry i had my phd candidature defend..Dengan penuh semangat saya menyiapkan quarter of my research...habiskan running all the features, then analyze the features & come out with features set..Alhamdulillah everything goes well...biaselar ade komen itu sket, sini sket..tp overall everything is ok & yg plg penting the research is accepted for my phd...

so wats next?? i'm supposed to develop my technique to train the features set for each modality..unfortunately till now NON ADO progress.. itular saya.. skejap bole jd student yg sgt berjaya dan esok blh bertukar menjadi student yg pemalas..

PLUS sgt sgt banyak bende terjadi.. owwhh skrg saya official umur 30 thn.. dan bulan ini adalah bulan pertama saya period after 9 months giving birth of Hadif.. last month mmg saya sgt stress.. 1st sebab saya ingat saya pregnant sebab langsung xde tanda2 untuk saya dtg period.. so as usual panic xtentu pasal, so asyik nak marah2 je..so dengan senang hati saya salahkan hormon saya menyebabkan saya menjadi sangat pemalas untuk belajar.. tp dgn tibe2 1st august, brown spot keluar & continously keluar mcm period..Alhamdulillah.. saya lega...

then baru nk start belajar balik both my heroes di attack hand mouth foot disease.. 1st week Hadif kene then Rayyan on the following week.. aduih.. sgt bisa ok virus nih..habis mulut my heroes dipenuhi ulcer.. sian sgt diorg.. so after sebulan malas buat kerja, ditambah lg 2 minggu untuk menjaga heroes yg sakit...

sekarang smangat utk belajar dtg kembali (actually more on rase guilty yg terlalu menebal menyebabkan nk kene belajar balik).. tp xpe..janji xputus asa kan.. bagi saya waktu belajar jgn dipaksa2.. klu terase nk speed up u speed & concentrate btul2..klu u rase malas, layankan aje.. sbb paksa2 diri pon rase merana..apa gunanya... hehehe (sile jgn ikut style saya belajar :p)

tup tap dah Ramadhan..1st day puasa..2nd day puasa tp petang tu klua sket2 brown spot..*sigh 3rd day xpose...then esok 4th day nk pose & hopefully brown spot xkuar lg.. tensionnyer bile period sket2 nie...xberbaloi sungguh rasanya..

dengan ini saya ambil kesempatan untuk memohon maaf bg pihak saya, faizal, rayyan & hadif sekiranya kami sengaja atau tidak sengaja melakukan kesilapan..Semoga ramadhan kali ini kite diberkati Allah dan melakukan amalan ibadah lebih baik drpd tahun yg sebelumnya..

Till then..muah! muah!

Bersenam di 'Kaki Gym'

(Gambar Hiasan)

Last week I really had great time!! mengapa?? kerana saya telah pergi trial aerobic class ... Saya lately nih mmg gian sgt nk beraerobic...xtau nape...mungkin dah terase badan terlalu flabby... what happend to my cycling activity?? I feltlike not really enjoying myself when cycling alone.. so i decide to cycle only with hubby and heroes terchenta... thats mean I only reserved weekend morning for the cycling activity.. so week days i plan to join 'Kaki Gym' fitness centre to fullfill my senaman activity...

So last week I go for Yoga & Belly dance.. mase memule buat Yoga, mak demam urat uols... juz imagine 2 thn xbuat exercise, terus start dengan stretching canggih of yoga..xterkejut urat2 dalaman nih!! siap kat below abdomen ( tmpt c-sect) cramp!!! takut jugak..tp pikir2 balik its been 7 months since my c-sect opt..xkan xbaik lg kot..so i blasah jer teruskan..

next 2 days pergi plak belly dance class... mmg syiok habis..mcm ala2 joget lambak..semuer depa campur..cha-cha, mambo, ramba..ape ntah lg nape depa panggil...tp mmg seronok..terkenang-kenang zaman pegi clubbing dulu..ooppsss...

badan pon feel energetic..happy to have very sporting crowds & mostly yg join pompuan that me confortable to join with...cant wait to signing up this end of the month!! tp nk kene tunggu pay day.. this renovation thingy really make my pocket empty.. :(

oowwwhh saya still terlupa mau amik gmbar rumah saya yg baru cat.. Yesterday Fab28 dtg lepak rumah I..and cakap the dark color paint look very nice yet not really matching with the upper part..aiyok!! hentam saja lar..hehehe

on weekend altho hubby xde (p amik gambar Japan GT at S*IC), me had been accompanied with my in laws family on saturday and my beloved family & Fab28 on SUnday.. Actually me juz plan lepak2 with Fabulous yesterday sambil masak sup tulang & ayam goreng berempah...tetibe my father called nk buat Tenpanyaki kat my house..then me also invite my sister to join us..so tetibe semalam mcm ala2 mini kenduri di rumah i.. we really had nice chit-chating..plus petang tuh singgah pasar malam beli apam balik hijau yg sgt sedappp ittew..sedap ke Fabulous?? :p

pg td me tetibe sgt penat & penyakit malas datang menyerang..so i decide buat lg run coding instead of doing reading..time2 malas nih klu buat reading nih buang masa jer.. hehehe at least klu run data set boleh gak akak tulis blog nih...

Till then..Muah! muah!

membebel

post ini dibuat sementara menunggu dataset tgh run.. so far ade around 2000 medical images dr pelbagai jenis.. kekadang rase mcm confident jer dgn ape yg buat tp kekadang rase mcm ntah ape2 & buang masa jer..hehehe..hentam saja lar labu..klu xbuat experiment cemane nk tau result nyer..yer x?

nway skarang nk cerite pasal ape yg saya rase skrg ini.. skrg yg rase gemuk! terase double chin smakin menebal didagu...makan x control, exercise da lame stop!!! addooii... last friday ade usha fitness centre "Kaki GYM"...near by to my house..boleh naik beskal jer..tp most aerobic class die buat malam plak.. haih.. tanye hubby actually die mcm berat nk kasi join tp disebabkan saye mmg terlalu meminati aerobic sejak anak dara lg so die pon kasi...plus the fee not really expensive.. i pon bkn ler nk g every day.. thinking of joining yoga, introsteps & belly dance,...hmmm tgkler cemane..nk go for trial class dulu..

2ndly sekarang saya rase sedih..ade gud fren saya mcm nk jauhkan diri drpd saye.. ke perasaan saye jer nih? but normally at least once a week kami akan call & gossip. now its been 2 weeks since my last call that she promised me to call back..wat shall i do? i think she had problem but malu to share it with me..but WHY? itu persoalan yang senantiasa berada difikiran saya hingga kini.. oowwhhh i miss gossiping with her.. :(

3rdly saya sgt happy & debo jugak..my opismate nk viva this monday & her external will b my SV.. saya doakan everything goes smoothly and she will pass succesfully.. kemudian saya terpikir, bile lar agaknyer giliran saya..kene buat cepat2 nih..tp actually saya xstart writing lg..bile lar mau start writing nih..semangat! semangat!

4thly skrg saya tgh rindu anak2 saya... woohhooo mcm xcaye saya sudah ade anak 2.. Alhamdulillah comel, sihat & sempurna.. ape lar agaknyer diorg tgh buat kat umah nenek die.. rayyan mesti tgh boring sbb arinih aleea xde...mesti die ngamuk2 & jerit ya Allah! ya Allah! ya Allah!! yess itular ungkapan rayyan bile die tgh jerit ngamuk2...sooo cute! Hadif plak mesti tgh cemek nk tdo..owhh anyway pg td maid i baru jer menjahanamkan blender utk bubur hadif...sakit hati saya.. ptg ni kene beli baru ..kang esok xterblend plak bubur anak mama...

5thly saya sgt xsbr rumah saya habis cat...chantek ker rumah i nanti...wait n see yek... warna rumah melambangkan keperibadian owner rumah..tp klu cat rumah warna mcm 'kap lam ya nga'....malu wooo....hopefully sesuwei ler color rumah kami dgn jiwa kami....

6thly belakang saya sgt sakit & lenguh..mayb due to byk sgt minum air sejuk...since beranak hadif i mmg fav minum air sejuk!!! sgt xbagus ok! plus i rase gigi i buruk sgt skrg nie..saya rase nk g scaling skrg jugak!! tp tgklar esok lusa nk p PK kat upm nk scaling

oklar saya rase sampai skrg update utk ape yg saye rase skrg sebab sekarang saya sgt LAPAR!!!! mau pegi makan dulu..

Till Then!! Muah! Muah!

i'm lucky

with no particular reason

i'm happy now..

i have wonderful husband and two little precious that always make me smile..

give me strength when i'm feeling down

i have lovely parents and siblings that always cheer me up..

i have very supportive supervisor that always encourage me to become a good student and researcher...

always inspire me, advise and support me on how to be a successful lecturer in the future.

i have beautiful friends that always support me, always be there when i'm feeling down.

ALHAMDULILLAH

i'm lucky

Lazy Week

Last friday berjaya to meet my SV..Alhamdulillah ape yg dirancangkan berjalan dengan lancar.. My work, my preliminary idea, my idea of using imageClef as dataset, my earlier experiment using shape-based to classify the modality of the image make my SV quite impressed. Die ckp " ermm nampak research u towards ke-PhD-an " Alhamdulillah i'm so happy..yet still LOTS & LOTS & LOTS of work to do..ini baru the beginning yea...

Next step will be testing color-based and texture-based features plak.. look for the accurate features to combine in order to develop the annotation system. tgh pk2 nk gune semantic ke x nih..nk buat relevance feedback method x?? ermm tgk kemampuan dulu..hehehe Actually this is one of the task that request by imageCLEF2010. Differentiate 8 modalities of medical images. Its a big challenge especially when u deal with CT scan, MRI and x-ray images when they all only have subtle different from each other.. so any idea guys?? jgn segan2 share dgn i yek... :D

Sepatutnya this week saya berkobar-kobar untuk buat kerja selepas berjumpa dgn SV. tp xtau nape mood mcm mandom plak this week..Especially bile both of my heroes kurang sihat sket.. kene cough & flu..Hadif plak temperature up & down.. So from saturday till yesteday i juz focus on my kids. Last nite hubby letak turpedo dekat buntut Hadif.. Alhamdulillah pg nie Hadif dah xdemam.. so i anta my kids umah my mum..tetibe rase mcm guilty plak.. Hadif baru baik terus anta sane..salah ke yek?? tapi klu xanta heroes kat uma mama i really cant concentrate on my work.. xpelar siang nie i declaire choti utk i dr research work & jage anak2.. kejap lagi nak qada' tdo yg dah brp mlm xdpt rehat..sesambil bukak2 jurnal yg terbengkalai nih... & jugak nk try coding dlm buku yg sgt berguna tp baru tau yg i ade buku tuh tersimpan chantek jer dlm almari.. (erkk ini mcm nk buat research work jer..hantam sajalar labu...)

tapi mmg serious xde mood.. hopefully this bad/evil mood will go away.. mungkin sbb lately nih krg rehat utk diri sendiri buat i moody utk belajar..(alasan yg best kan...>:-) )

nway nk cerite last tuesday we all (hubby, me, rayyan, hadif & bibik!) went to Aquaria.. saje2 nk ajar Hadif berjalan naik kereta.. All the way i pegang Hadif..die mmg xmau duk carseat.. Merengek2 jugak lar dlm car sbb die nk tdo tp die nk kite bounce2 die..but since we all in the car the area to bounce is so limited.. so marrah lar pakcik hadif nih.. tp bile dah sampai carpark klcc baru lar Hadif cool nak menetek & terus tdo.. Adoi..terpaksa mak keluar dr kereta, dukung hadif yg tgh tdo with my unhook nursing bra okkei..hehehe nasib baik dicover by kepala hadif..kalau x nampak inbalanced plak my boobies..heheheh

anyone notice the inbalanced? xkan?? heheh

inside the Aquaria's tunnel

with my beloved heroes

Rayyan
Rizq Hadif

Alhamdulillah the tour for that day went smoothly..Biaselar Hadif merengek sket2.. 2nd time Hadif tdo dlm gendongan bibik plak..(thats the main reason I bring my bibik along..untuk jadi tmpt tdo hadif..heheh) Rayyan plak so amazed looking @ differnt kinds of fish..tp kejap je lar amazed nyer pastuh die main lari2...

pastuh we went to Kinakuniya klcc to buy books for the kids..I xtau lar yg perasan sesorang ker tp I think my heroes love books! Hadif pon same.. Bile die nampak rak buku tuh die sexcited semacam.. Now klu I ade free time i will read books for them & diorg berdua mulut ngangan tgk mama die tergedik2 berceriter...heheheh

Apape pon I am so happy for my both heroes..Semoga anak2 mama menjadi anak yg soleh, yang berguna di dunia & akhirat.. Ameen..

Till then.. muah! muah!

p/s: maaf gambar kureng memuaskan..juz amik from fb photo album shj..

Hadif 6 bulan...

Alhamdulillah hari ini genap my 2nd hero 6 bulan...i'm sooo happy Hadif grow up as normal baby (since he is a pre-term baby, i'm quite worried about side effect of it)...segala effect pre-term Hadif, macam mate senantiasa berair, testis besar sket( angin pasang) semua tue dah kembali normal.. Bagi I baby 6 months dah a bit stable..not too worry especially di malam hari..

Hadif pon same mcm Rayyan dulu...jenis nk relax jer..menyiarap ker berguling ke smuer die xmain.. tp yg spesel nye Hadif ni die xmau diletakkan dibawah.. Senantiasa nk didukung.. pastu sgt anti naik keta..adoi..part ni yg letih sket..hehehe so at the mean time kitorg juz pegi tempat dekat2 jer..susah sket nk g jenjalan jauh2...

OK now nk story pasal study life I plak..

Actually me a bit down..Almost 2 months xjumpa SV. Bukan I yg xnk jupe tp die yg duk ngelat nk jupe..Adakah SV sudah xsuke pada saye? Nauzubillah..tp mostly student under her supervised having the same problem..Infact people at the faculty (staff ) also difficult to see her.. Currently she's taking sebatical leave..so she take her own sweet time to come to the office. And guess what? she's normally available @ faculty around 5pm onwards.. For those RA and single & available student bolehlar pegikan..as for me, nk fetch anak, nak masak lagi..soo wrong timing lar to meet her..

Honestly on this 6th sem I baru really really tau nk buat ape for my PhD work..yeahh I know I mmg lembap gile..tp I malas nk pikir2 negative (and yes my twice giving birth of Rayyan & Hadif are the main reason of this kelembapan & I swear I never regret!)..i'm quite happy with my work..feels like i'm in the right track..well juz go on with wat I'm doing now but sadly cannot really discuss this matter directly with my sv..Die suruh email jer everything..cane?? xkan nk email coding kot..*sigh pastuh sibuk suruh tulis jurnal...nk tulis jurnal amende..? result pon baru dpt ciput... student lain yg dah ujung2 tuh boleh lar tulis, me stakat proceeding boleh lar..esok2 bile da compile smuer baru lar best nk buat jurnal..ape pendapat u all?? sesuai ke kite nk tulis jurnal bile kat just on the early stage of our research ( only have pre-liminary result)??

Xpe2 ni I mmg tgh run coding...after I get my result I will really hunt for her.. Ya Allah ko permudahkan lar urusan hambamu ini dgn svku...

but seriously I feel down and sad for this..BUT i'm so happy this coming Monday im going for movie marathon with hubby!! da lame x tgk wayang u all!! so sexcited!!

Till then!! muah! muah!