My Love Dont Cost A Thing

Heard the song this morning by J LO... teringat semalam hubby ckp die minta maaf if what his gain not enough to pleasure me & the kids.. I was soo touched... seriously i xpenah merungut (okkeilar kekadang ade jugak mintak2 barang..hehehe) dengan segala rezeki yg ade.. I believe in Allah..and i believe wateva we get from Him is the best for all of us.. so far kami xpenah kehabisan makanan..kami tidak merempat ..tempat tinggal kami sempurna..Alhamdulillah rezeki senantiasa ade... kesihatan yg baik utk kami & anak anak...anak anak membesar dgn sempurna.. keluarga & kawan senantiasa menggembirakan kami.. so ape lg yg saye mahu...? this is the happiness i always wanted..U, ME & the KIDS...

So Faizal dearie...

No matter how much u gain it doesnt really matter... u know i will alwiz be there with u.. we shall go thru everything together no matter how hard it is.. I Love U so much dear... and REMEBER: my Love dont Cost a Thing!!!

Till then..muah! muah!

azam 2011

lame sungguh xmenulis sekarang nie....seriously mmg xde mood btul nk tulis blog..xtau nk tulis ape...cite pasal vacation part II pon tak tertulis.. kenape yek?

lately nie perasaan begitu berkecamuk..mungkin di hujung2 belajar nie buatkan kite jd stress terlebih...pastuh bende kecik pon nk create jd besar...adoi..

nway its already December..hanye lg beberapa hari kite akan masuk tahun baru 2011.. so wats my new resolution.?? last year azam saya adalah untuk lebih rajin memasak di rumah..Alhamdulillah saya masih melaksanakan azam itu... so untuk tahun 2011 azam saya untuk lebih rajin belajar & siapkan PhD and submit my thesis at least at the end of 2011...

Juga saya berazam untuk menjadi ibu yg lebih baik dari sebelum ini..cube spent more time with my heroes..Lebih banyakkk bersabar melayan kerenah anak2.. anak2 ini adalah amanah Allah kepada kite..oleh itu kite kenelar jaga amanah Allah ini sebaik baik yg mungkin..

Ya Allah semoga ko permudahkan urusanku dalam mendidik anak2ku & juga urusan pembelajaranku...

Till then..muah! muah!

Rizq Hadif One Year Old

5 November 2010 genap Rizq hadif my second child turn to 1!! Macam xpercaya kejadian bleeding during pregnant Hadif selepas makan Mc Donald & terus dikejarkan di hospital sudah setahun berlalu..Walaupun Hadif dilahirkan pre-term 35th weeks Alhamdulillah saya sgt bersyukur pada Ilahi kerana Hadif membesar dgn sempurna dari segi kesihatan & juga fizikal.. Kini Rizq Hadif sudah berumur setahun.

Buat Rizq Hadif Tersayang....

Mama doakan semoga Hadif membesar menjadi anak yang soleh..

Taat pada Allah, taat pada Rasul, taat pada papa & mama,

Semoga Rizq Hadif membesar dgn sempurna akal fikiran, fizikal & diberikan kesihatan yg sempurna,

Rajin beramal, berilmu, berakhlak mulia & bertanggungjawab...

Papa, mama & abang Rayyan syayang Hadif sangat sangat!!!

Till then..muah! muah!

Rome, Padova & CLEF2010

Banyak bende nk tulis tapi xtau nk start dr mane...hmm sudah agak lame xmenulis... ini disebabkan terlalu banyak bende yg serabut dlm kepale otak ini.. Alhamdulillah everything getting better...Kenape serabut?? disebabkan risau xtentu pasal pasal our Europe trip last September..Alhamdulillah everything went well...best tapi penat...

We start the journey on 16th September at 3am to Rome by Qatar Airline..transit kat Doha airport.. I loike Qatar Airline.. even me bring along both heroes, boleh dikatekan the flight is confortable..of course lar budak2 meragam..tp xseteruk mane..still boleh handle.. the bassinet, the food We reach Rome at 1.30pm local time...It was nice shiny day...then directly go to our Bibi & Romeo Bed & Breakfast... The room is quite small for 5 of us but still ok.. Sampai bilik semuer kepenatan & treus tidur..

Next day baru ler start berjalan ke Vatican City (its just a walk distance from our place)..Then afternoon we went to Rome mosque (used to be a church) for friday pray... our cleaner (Abdul)at b&b was a bangladeshi & muslim..so he guide us to the mosque..sementara tunggu hubby semayang kitorang p melantak nasi kat pasar2 luar masjid tuh..Later we met a chinese muallaf lady (Khadeja) at the mosque who volunteered to be our tourist guide.. Abdul & Khadeja showed us how to go to Trevi Fountain & Spanish Step.. really enjoy it!

The next day we went to designer outlet..unfortunately it was raining that day.. For those yg pernah pergi outlet almaklumlar its just deretan kedai & tiada beratap..so bile hujan tuh terpaksa lar kami berlindung di food court sampai me myself xde mood nk bershopping.. :( manage to buy innerwear & a pair of shoes shj...

The next day is our flight to Venice. Then from Venice we take a cab to Padova. Padova ni tempat conference CLEF 2010 yg saya nk pergi... the conference held at Universitas Studii Paduani.. I really love staying at Padova.. The accomodation, surrounding, kedai shopping nyer smuer best2!!! Apartment yg kami rent sgt selesa & byk kemudahan...plus the owner sgt baik hati.. the owner lend me her bike so its easier for me to go to the conference.. it was so joyful riding a bike at very nice place.. saye rase saye the only person in Padova who wear hijab during cycling.. org local pon pelik tgk me bawak bicycle kat area diorg..heheheh it was such a good experience & memory...

About the conference..Alhamdulillah dapat banyak ilmu baru..especially on extraction features..okies..before the conference was held, the organizer had given us sample of dataset...so we download the dataset & apply it using our method and then evaluate based on their criteria... so during the conference there are lots of discussion on which method the best & still how to improve for better performance.. since the dataset is a compilation of images and textual information based on HTML script. Most of the applicant used textual feature for retrieve & classify..ade juga yg combine both textual and visual.. but for those yg use only visual feature result in poor performance... why?? thats the question i need to prove that using visual also can produce better performance using different method & solution.

What I like the most about this conference, they already have guideline in evaluation of every run system submitted.. Therefore its easier for me to compare the result of my run system with others without developing or running their system..Isn't that great?? tp yg xbest kalau result kite poor than them...but thats wat we call research kan!! klu lg teruk mesti cr jalan to improve the result kan!!! owwwhhh i'm so sexcited to complete my run system & compare with them!!!!

hopefully can get better result & submit for CLEF next year.. dgr2 cite nak buat kat Greek plak.. SV disayangi, boleh saya pergi lagi?? hehehehhe

Meanwhile I need to practice present for my proceeding paper conference tomorrow...yer saya sgt gile conference..hehehe Journal satu pon tadak lagi!!! aduih!!!! ini just small conference held in U*M...dibiaya sepenuhnyer oleh diri sendiri.. pergi ni pon nk cr potential examiner.. hopefully dapatlar new knowledge and good networking... Actually I do believe with networking... lg bagus your networking lagi mudah untuk u buat kerja & mengembangkan ilmu anda...chewah!

So oklar..ade mase lain nanti saya sambung lg cerite tentang Europe trip saye yang Paris & London..but seriously, saya sgt jatuh hati pada Italy.. InsyaAllah ade rezeki lebih I will definitely come again..boleh x berangan nk pergi dgn hubby jer mcm honeymoon.. heroes tinggal dgn nenek yek!!! hehehehe

Gambar?? sile refer pada Facebook saya yek..

Till then..muah! muah!

where have i been?

i'm here.. i'm still here.. infact i am staying still without doing nothing.. i mean in my research study.. yeap..no progress..

so hello hello world.... lame jugak dah xupdate.. actually sooo many story to tell tp soooo not in a mood to write.. after i wrote my last entry i had my phd candidature defend..Dengan penuh semangat saya menyiapkan quarter of my research...habiskan running all the features, then analyze the features & come out with features set..Alhamdulillah everything goes well...biaselar ade komen itu sket, sini sket..tp overall everything is ok & yg plg penting the research is accepted for my phd...

so wats next?? i'm supposed to develop my technique to train the features set for each modality..unfortunately till now NON ADO progress.. itular saya.. skejap bole jd student yg sgt berjaya dan esok blh bertukar menjadi student yg pemalas..

PLUS sgt sgt banyak bende terjadi.. owwhh skrg saya official umur 30 thn.. dan bulan ini adalah bulan pertama saya period after 9 months giving birth of Hadif.. last month mmg saya sgt stress.. 1st sebab saya ingat saya pregnant sebab langsung xde tanda2 untuk saya dtg period.. so as usual panic xtentu pasal, so asyik nak marah2 je..so dengan senang hati saya salahkan hormon saya menyebabkan saya menjadi sangat pemalas untuk belajar.. tp dgn tibe2 1st august, brown spot keluar & continously keluar mcm period..Alhamdulillah.. saya lega...

then baru nk start belajar balik both my heroes di attack hand mouth foot disease.. 1st week Hadif kene then Rayyan on the following week.. aduih.. sgt bisa ok virus nih..habis mulut my heroes dipenuhi ulcer.. sian sgt diorg.. so after sebulan malas buat kerja, ditambah lg 2 minggu untuk menjaga heroes yg sakit...

sekarang smangat utk belajar dtg kembali (actually more on rase guilty yg terlalu menebal menyebabkan nk kene belajar balik).. tp xpe..janji xputus asa kan.. bagi saya waktu belajar jgn dipaksa2.. klu terase nk speed up u speed & concentrate btul2..klu u rase malas, layankan aje.. sbb paksa2 diri pon rase merana..apa gunanya... hehehe (sile jgn ikut style saya belajar :p)

tup tap dah Ramadhan..1st day puasa..2nd day puasa tp petang tu klua sket2 brown spot..*sigh 3rd day xpose...then esok 4th day nk pose & hopefully brown spot xkuar lg.. tensionnyer bile period sket2 nie...xberbaloi sungguh rasanya..

dengan ini saya ambil kesempatan untuk memohon maaf bg pihak saya, faizal, rayyan & hadif sekiranya kami sengaja atau tidak sengaja melakukan kesilapan..Semoga ramadhan kali ini kite diberkati Allah dan melakukan amalan ibadah lebih baik drpd tahun yg sebelumnya..

Till then..muah! muah!

Bersenam di 'Kaki Gym'

(Gambar Hiasan)

Last week I really had great time!! mengapa?? kerana saya telah pergi trial aerobic class ... Saya lately nih mmg gian sgt nk beraerobic...xtau nape...mungkin dah terase badan terlalu flabby... what happend to my cycling activity?? I feltlike not really enjoying myself when cycling alone.. so i decide to cycle only with hubby and heroes terchenta... thats mean I only reserved weekend morning for the cycling activity.. so week days i plan to join 'Kaki Gym' fitness centre to fullfill my senaman activity...

So last week I go for Yoga & Belly dance.. mase memule buat Yoga, mak demam urat uols... juz imagine 2 thn xbuat exercise, terus start dengan stretching canggih of yoga..xterkejut urat2 dalaman nih!! siap kat below abdomen ( tmpt c-sect) cramp!!! takut jugak..tp pikir2 balik its been 7 months since my c-sect opt..xkan xbaik lg kot..so i blasah jer teruskan..

next 2 days pergi plak belly dance class... mmg syiok habis..mcm ala2 joget lambak..semuer depa campur..cha-cha, mambo, ramba..ape ntah lg nape depa panggil...tp mmg seronok..terkenang-kenang zaman pegi clubbing dulu..ooppsss...

badan pon feel energetic..happy to have very sporting crowds & mostly yg join pompuan that me confortable to join with...cant wait to signing up this end of the month!! tp nk kene tunggu pay day.. this renovation thingy really make my pocket empty.. :(

oowwwhh saya still terlupa mau amik gmbar rumah saya yg baru cat.. Yesterday Fab28 dtg lepak rumah I..and cakap the dark color paint look very nice yet not really matching with the upper part..aiyok!! hentam saja lar..hehehe

on weekend altho hubby xde (p amik gambar Japan GT at S*IC), me had been accompanied with my in laws family on saturday and my beloved family & Fab28 on SUnday.. Actually me juz plan lepak2 with Fabulous yesterday sambil masak sup tulang & ayam goreng berempah...tetibe my father called nk buat Tenpanyaki kat my house..then me also invite my sister to join us..so tetibe semalam mcm ala2 mini kenduri di rumah i.. we really had nice chit-chating..plus petang tuh singgah pasar malam beli apam balik hijau yg sgt sedappp ittew..sedap ke Fabulous?? :p

pg td me tetibe sgt penat & penyakit malas datang menyerang..so i decide buat lg run coding instead of doing reading..time2 malas nih klu buat reading nih buang masa jer.. hehehe at least klu run data set boleh gak akak tulis blog nih...

Till then..Muah! muah!

membebel

post ini dibuat sementara menunggu dataset tgh run.. so far ade around 2000 medical images dr pelbagai jenis.. kekadang rase mcm confident jer dgn ape yg buat tp kekadang rase mcm ntah ape2 & buang masa jer..hehehe..hentam saja lar labu..klu xbuat experiment cemane nk tau result nyer..yer x?

nway skarang nk cerite pasal ape yg saya rase skrg ini.. skrg yg rase gemuk! terase double chin smakin menebal didagu...makan x control, exercise da lame stop!!! addooii... last friday ade usha fitness centre "Kaki GYM"...near by to my house..boleh naik beskal jer..tp most aerobic class die buat malam plak.. haih.. tanye hubby actually die mcm berat nk kasi join tp disebabkan saye mmg terlalu meminati aerobic sejak anak dara lg so die pon kasi...plus the fee not really expensive.. i pon bkn ler nk g every day.. thinking of joining yoga, introsteps & belly dance,...hmmm tgkler cemane..nk go for trial class dulu..

2ndly sekarang saya rase sedih..ade gud fren saya mcm nk jauhkan diri drpd saye.. ke perasaan saye jer nih? but normally at least once a week kami akan call & gossip. now its been 2 weeks since my last call that she promised me to call back..wat shall i do? i think she had problem but malu to share it with me..but WHY? itu persoalan yang senantiasa berada difikiran saya hingga kini.. oowwhhh i miss gossiping with her.. :(

3rdly saya sgt happy & debo jugak..my opismate nk viva this monday & her external will b my SV.. saya doakan everything goes smoothly and she will pass succesfully.. kemudian saya terpikir, bile lar agaknyer giliran saya..kene buat cepat2 nih..tp actually saya xstart writing lg..bile lar mau start writing nih..semangat! semangat!

4thly skrg saya tgh rindu anak2 saya... woohhooo mcm xcaye saya sudah ade anak 2.. Alhamdulillah comel, sihat & sempurna.. ape lar agaknyer diorg tgh buat kat umah nenek die.. rayyan mesti tgh boring sbb arinih aleea xde...mesti die ngamuk2 & jerit ya Allah! ya Allah! ya Allah!! yess itular ungkapan rayyan bile die tgh jerit ngamuk2...sooo cute! Hadif plak mesti tgh cemek nk tdo..owhh anyway pg td maid i baru jer menjahanamkan blender utk bubur hadif...sakit hati saya.. ptg ni kene beli baru ..kang esok xterblend plak bubur anak mama...

5thly saya sgt xsbr rumah saya habis cat...chantek ker rumah i nanti...wait n see yek... warna rumah melambangkan keperibadian owner rumah..tp klu cat rumah warna mcm 'kap lam ya nga'....malu wooo....hopefully sesuwei ler color rumah kami dgn jiwa kami....

6thly belakang saya sgt sakit & lenguh..mayb due to byk sgt minum air sejuk...since beranak hadif i mmg fav minum air sejuk!!! sgt xbagus ok! plus i rase gigi i buruk sgt skrg nie..saya rase nk g scaling skrg jugak!! tp tgklar esok lusa nk p PK kat upm nk scaling

oklar saya rase sampai skrg update utk ape yg saye rase skrg sebab sekarang saya sgt LAPAR!!!! mau pegi makan dulu..

Till Then!! Muah! Muah!

i'm lucky

with no particular reason

i'm happy now..

i have wonderful husband and two little precious that always make me smile..

give me strength when i'm feeling down

i have lovely parents and siblings that always cheer me up..

i have very supportive supervisor that always encourage me to become a good student and researcher...

always inspire me, advise and support me on how to be a successful lecturer in the future.

i have beautiful friends that always support me, always be there when i'm feeling down.

ALHAMDULILLAH

i'm lucky

Lazy Week

Last friday berjaya to meet my SV..Alhamdulillah ape yg dirancangkan berjalan dengan lancar.. My work, my preliminary idea, my idea of using imageClef as dataset, my earlier experiment using shape-based to classify the modality of the image make my SV quite impressed. Die ckp " ermm nampak research u towards ke-PhD-an " Alhamdulillah i'm so happy..yet still LOTS & LOTS & LOTS of work to do..ini baru the beginning yea...

Next step will be testing color-based and texture-based features plak.. look for the accurate features to combine in order to develop the annotation system. tgh pk2 nk gune semantic ke x nih..nk buat relevance feedback method x?? ermm tgk kemampuan dulu..hehehe Actually this is one of the task that request by imageCLEF2010. Differentiate 8 modalities of medical images. Its a big challenge especially when u deal with CT scan, MRI and x-ray images when they all only have subtle different from each other.. so any idea guys?? jgn segan2 share dgn i yek... :D

Sepatutnya this week saya berkobar-kobar untuk buat kerja selepas berjumpa dgn SV. tp xtau nape mood mcm mandom plak this week..Especially bile both of my heroes kurang sihat sket.. kene cough & flu..Hadif plak temperature up & down.. So from saturday till yesteday i juz focus on my kids. Last nite hubby letak turpedo dekat buntut Hadif.. Alhamdulillah pg nie Hadif dah xdemam.. so i anta my kids umah my mum..tetibe rase mcm guilty plak.. Hadif baru baik terus anta sane..salah ke yek?? tapi klu xanta heroes kat uma mama i really cant concentrate on my work.. xpelar siang nie i declaire choti utk i dr research work & jage anak2.. kejap lagi nak qada' tdo yg dah brp mlm xdpt rehat..sesambil bukak2 jurnal yg terbengkalai nih... & jugak nk try coding dlm buku yg sgt berguna tp baru tau yg i ade buku tuh tersimpan chantek jer dlm almari.. (erkk ini mcm nk buat research work jer..hantam sajalar labu...)

tapi mmg serious xde mood.. hopefully this bad/evil mood will go away.. mungkin sbb lately nih krg rehat utk diri sendiri buat i moody utk belajar..(alasan yg best kan...>:-) )

nway nk cerite last tuesday we all (hubby, me, rayyan, hadif & bibik!) went to Aquaria.. saje2 nk ajar Hadif berjalan naik kereta.. All the way i pegang Hadif..die mmg xmau duk carseat.. Merengek2 jugak lar dlm car sbb die nk tdo tp die nk kite bounce2 die..but since we all in the car the area to bounce is so limited.. so marrah lar pakcik hadif nih.. tp bile dah sampai carpark klcc baru lar Hadif cool nak menetek & terus tdo.. Adoi..terpaksa mak keluar dr kereta, dukung hadif yg tgh tdo with my unhook nursing bra okkei..hehehe nasib baik dicover by kepala hadif..kalau x nampak inbalanced plak my boobies..heheheh

anyone notice the inbalanced? xkan?? heheh

inside the Aquaria's tunnel

with my beloved heroes

Rayyan
Rizq Hadif

Alhamdulillah the tour for that day went smoothly..Biaselar Hadif merengek sket2.. 2nd time Hadif tdo dlm gendongan bibik plak..(thats the main reason I bring my bibik along..untuk jadi tmpt tdo hadif..heheh) Rayyan plak so amazed looking @ differnt kinds of fish..tp kejap je lar amazed nyer pastuh die main lari2...

pastuh we went to Kinakuniya klcc to buy books for the kids..I xtau lar yg perasan sesorang ker tp I think my heroes love books! Hadif pon same.. Bile die nampak rak buku tuh die sexcited semacam.. Now klu I ade free time i will read books for them & diorg berdua mulut ngangan tgk mama die tergedik2 berceriter...heheheh

Apape pon I am so happy for my both heroes..Semoga anak2 mama menjadi anak yg soleh, yang berguna di dunia & akhirat.. Ameen..

Till then.. muah! muah!

p/s: maaf gambar kureng memuaskan..juz amik from fb photo album shj..

Hadif 6 bulan...

Alhamdulillah hari ini genap my 2nd hero 6 bulan...i'm sooo happy Hadif grow up as normal baby (since he is a pre-term baby, i'm quite worried about side effect of it)...segala effect pre-term Hadif, macam mate senantiasa berair, testis besar sket( angin pasang) semua tue dah kembali normal.. Bagi I baby 6 months dah a bit stable..not too worry especially di malam hari..

Hadif pon same mcm Rayyan dulu...jenis nk relax jer..menyiarap ker berguling ke smuer die xmain.. tp yg spesel nye Hadif ni die xmau diletakkan dibawah.. Senantiasa nk didukung.. pastu sgt anti naik keta..adoi..part ni yg letih sket..hehehe so at the mean time kitorg juz pegi tempat dekat2 jer..susah sket nk g jenjalan jauh2...

OK now nk story pasal study life I plak..

Actually me a bit down..Almost 2 months xjumpa SV. Bukan I yg xnk jupe tp die yg duk ngelat nk jupe..Adakah SV sudah xsuke pada saye? Nauzubillah..tp mostly student under her supervised having the same problem..Infact people at the faculty (staff ) also difficult to see her.. Currently she's taking sebatical leave..so she take her own sweet time to come to the office. And guess what? she's normally available @ faculty around 5pm onwards.. For those RA and single & available student bolehlar pegikan..as for me, nk fetch anak, nak masak lagi..soo wrong timing lar to meet her..

Honestly on this 6th sem I baru really really tau nk buat ape for my PhD work..yeahh I know I mmg lembap gile..tp I malas nk pikir2 negative (and yes my twice giving birth of Rayyan & Hadif are the main reason of this kelembapan & I swear I never regret!)..i'm quite happy with my work..feels like i'm in the right track..well juz go on with wat I'm doing now but sadly cannot really discuss this matter directly with my sv..Die suruh email jer everything..cane?? xkan nk email coding kot..*sigh pastuh sibuk suruh tulis jurnal...nk tulis jurnal amende..? result pon baru dpt ciput... student lain yg dah ujung2 tuh boleh lar tulis, me stakat proceeding boleh lar..esok2 bile da compile smuer baru lar best nk buat jurnal..ape pendapat u all?? sesuai ke kite nk tulis jurnal bile kat just on the early stage of our research ( only have pre-liminary result)??

Xpe2 ni I mmg tgh run coding...after I get my result I will really hunt for her.. Ya Allah ko permudahkan lar urusan hambamu ini dgn svku...

but seriously I feel down and sad for this..BUT i'm so happy this coming Monday im going for movie marathon with hubby!! da lame x tgk wayang u all!! so sexcited!!

Till then!! muah! muah!

Hubby at age 30

Actually this is belated birthday entry for hubby..but its not too late for me to wish him Happy Birthday Syayang!!! yang ke..ehem..ehem..30!!!! yeay... dah masuk 3 series dah!!!...phheewww sudah tua kah?? No lar syayang..di mate I u senantiasa mude dan hemsem selalu...hik hik

Nway 1st we celebrate hubby's bday @ lil luqman's house...thanks to khal & nana for the best party venue ever!! so convenience... can bring lil hadif & his buai along..yeay!!!

rayyan can play with luqman,

me can gossiping with nana &

not to forget the Kayu Manis dishes yang SGT SGT sedap!!!

Konon nk surprise hubby with the cake, but it seems like hubby already know about the plan the nite before (and yess thanks to kahl for 'bocoring 'the secret to the other party :p) Altho the crowds not really ramai, me, faizal, kahl, nana & the kiddos we really had fun!! really enjoy the food, cake is sooooooo yummylicious and photo session..

The next day, my FIL plak invite us to Po'Sen restaurant... At first we all quite malas to go coz we already had our dinner plus lil Hadif a bit cranky...then later my BIL call that FIL already bought a cake for hubby...Quite surprisingly since they never celebrate hubby's bday before..sungguh besar yek penangan 30 tahun nih..hehehe

so me, hubby and just rayyan (hadif da selamat tdo mase nih) went to the restaurant.. we had small family gathering, hubby again cutting his 30th birthday celebration cake and had fun chit-chating...

There goes hubby twice birthday celebration at the age of 30... Syayang, I doakan semoga Allah memberikan segala yang terbaik untuk u..kesihatan yg sempurna, kesejahteraan hidup, dimurahkan rezeki, keperibadian yang mulia danmenjadi seorang suami & ayah yang bertanggungjawab & penyayang. I LOVE U SO MUCH SYAYANG!!!!

Till then..muah! muah!

PCM 26031020 - Bicycle Ride

Went for 1st family cycling activity held @ Putrajaya last friday.. Starting point at POJ (palace of justice)..however we missed the convoy & just cycling around kerajaan complex building...
i really had great fun plus we have our neighbours accompany us ride together... rayyan was so excited at the beginning but then after around 45 minutes cycling he started to cry.. I think he had backache plus sleepy since the ride start at 9.30pm....poor rayyan he cried aloud untill he vomit in the middle of Putrajaya road..

Since rayyan already weak, we straight away go back home (of course lar kitorang balik naik car yea..bukan kayuh sampai rumah.. :p)

xpe2 next time boleh buat lg this activity.. xsabar tunggu mr hadif besar so that boleh bwk die jugak!!!

Till then..muah! muah!

Psycho Lady

Last week till the weekend I was so stress... Xtau kenape hormone dlm bdn ni up & down.. It start when I dream of getting pregnant again!! then after that I was like so paranoid & become soo moody & cranky.. bukan I xmau pregnant lg..but not now... wait till my heroes besar sket & i've settle my study then baru I'm ready for the next version...

so bile dah moody I jd mcm psycho...konon I mcm pregnant lg.. asyik nak marah2 jer.. yg jd mangsa sape lg...my beloved hubby lar... sian sgt die.. I mmg sedar I asyik marah die tapi I xblh nk control...pastuh dgn I buat perangai xmau masak, xmau gossip2 dgn die lg...asyik buat hal sendiri jer.. naseb baik hubby sabar dgn kerenah I...mase tuh Tuhan jer tau betape serabut nye kepala I...dgn konon I pikir I preggie lar, dgn heroes yg nk dijaga, dgn pikir study lg...AADDOOIII mmg STRESS gile!!!! ditambah pula on the weekend both of my precious not feeling well...make me so worried & stressful...

Then on Sunday evening, hubby ajak shower together (walaopon me tgh psycho still ade a bit of romantic feeling inside.. :) ) I cried aloud & say how sorry I am for being such a psycho lady... bile dah luahkan semua baru I rase lega sgt sgt dlm hati & kepala..& today I had my 2nd jep to avoid pregnancy & scan Dr kate everything is in normal condition..which is no baby inside yet..again I felt so relieve...So today I had my normal life again...gossip2 dgn hubby, cook dinner for him & also enjoy my study life...

Moral of the story: Dont be mad to your hubby.. Jgn asyik cari salah hubby je nanti perasaan itu akan memakan diri sendiri...luahkan rase yg terbuku dlm hati dgn cara yg lembut..sebab kekadang hubby sendiri xtau & xpaham ape masalah yg kite hadapi... terima si dia sedia ade seperti mana die terime kite... nobody perfect kan!

Syayang if u read this, I want u to know that i'm really proud to have u as my husband & also father to my precious heroes... Love u sooo much!!!

Till then..muah! muah!

Quick One

currently i'm having problem in bf lil hadif.. he refused to have my right br*east... arggghhh tensen makk... so u guys can imagine how the size different for my both br*east... plus i think he more confortable feed in bottle compare to having bf... so there's no more term of "super br*east" as I always used when bf rayyan... different child different character kan...

lil hadif also a bit cranky.. he will never allow us to put him lay down on the bed... bak kate my maid " die mau di gendong ajja..." then how lor?? am i supposed to follow his need or i have to be more creative to teach lil hadif to be independent & juz ignore his high tone pitch of crying...

xpe sabarkan.. these are all challenges in raising childs.. ingat! anak ini adalah amanah Allah kepada kite... so kene didik & jaga mereka dgn sebetul-betulnye...

semoga Allah permudahkan urusan saya & hubby dlm mendidik & menjaga anak2...

Till then..muah! muah!

Buku Amalan Hidup dengan Ayat-Ayat Al Quran & Minyak Zafaron

WoW!! Panjang sungguh tajuk entry kali nih... actually I came across to write this entry due to something weird (for me lar) at this cyber world..

Pagi td I lepaq umah my parents.. pastuh I ternampak buku amalan hidup dengan ayat-ayat al quran ( xsilap lar tajuk die nih..) Buku ni sgt bagus...Terdapat byk tips penggunaan ayat al-quran dalam kehidupan seharian kite.. Dalam point 34, ade juga tertulis untuk menambahkan susu ibu... I pon excited sgt!

yang tertulis dalam buku itu adalah menulis ayat surah Yasin di sepiring pinngan menggunakan minyak zafaron, kemudian cuci pinggan itu dengan secawan air & air itu dilalukan pada gelas & diminum air itu oleh ibu yang sedang menyusukan anak.. InsyaAllah susu ibu akan bertambah..

Tapi apa itu minyak zafaron?? I pon terus surf internet untuk mengetahui apa itu minyak zafaron..so ape lahi..google lar kan...

Tak byk blog yg menceritakan minyak zafaron ini diperbuat drpd ape..cuma yang saya tahu, minyak ini kebanyakan dai Turki & Mesir.. minyak ni SGT mahal ok.. ade yg jual minyak ni sebesar bekas minyak attar tuh RM7k++...gile mahal!! ala2 designer handbag gittew...bile saya duk surf apebende nyer minyak zafaron nie, ade 1 blog nih betul2 mengejutkan saya, ( yang I mention I xpercaya bende ni ade di dunia cyber)...

Blog ini menjual minyak pengasih!!..siap ade kategori yang putih & hitam...agaknyer yg putih yg baik punyer..yang hitam yang jahat punyer kot..Wallahua'lam (Allah Maha Mengetahui)...scary betul bile bace blog nih...u all cari sendiri lar yek kalau nk bace..xmau lar mention di sini.. siap mention blog ini bukan untuk alim ulamak & saintis milenium!!! ape yang dimaksudkan itu?? ya Allah berilar petunjuk kepada penulis blog itu supaya kembali ke jalan yang benar...

nway lately nih my production a bit low.. tuh yang I beriyer cr ape itu minyak zafaron, kot2 blh ikut ape yg ditulis dlm buku tuh..tp bile dah tgh harga minyak zafaron tuh xpelar.. mungkin I juz bace surah yasin & tiupkan pada segelas air & minum air tuh niat kerana Allah.. InsyaAllah Allah akan makbulkan permintaanku untuk perbanyakkan stok ebm saya...

Till then..Muah! muah!

bile abang & adik sleep same-same

(quality gambar yang kureng due to gune hp cikai jer..hik hik)



nway Hadif dah start naik Bumbo!!!

Till then..muah! muah!!

HORMONE JAHAT....

I hate this hormone!! I ingat lagi last time i kene hormone nih mase I kene denggi... mase tuh Rayyan 3 bulan... I thought bcoz of the ubat..but now I know...agaknye bile my baby reach 3 months I kene attact with this hormone jahat!!!

I benci hormone nih..I rase mcm nk lempang2 semorang..rase rimas, rase resah, rase nk marah...semuer ade!!!! mayb stress pasal blaja pon ade kot..baru habis run testing...result agak tidak memberangsangkan!!! stress!!! tp pikir2 balik name pon research!!!! kalau da tau result yg keluar mmg akan power, bukan ler research namanyer!!!! yer tak????

tp apepon I blame this hormone jahat...buat I lembek, restless, demotivate, tired....semuer2 yg xbest lar!!!!!!

BENCILAR!!!!

Dear Hormone Jahat,

PLEASE GO AWAY & DONT COME AGAIN... i'm begging you... :(

Cuti Raya Cina

Whooohooo...4 hari I amik cuti from study..org lain yg beraya kite plak sakan bercuti...hehehe nie semua disebabkan my BIG family buat FAMILY DAY kat kampung last monday (15/2/2010)..

ini lar keburukan kalau buat PhD kat Mesia nih..every kenduri kene attend.. sat g kang depa ckp boikot family plak... hehehe nway I really had a GREAT time!! The event start as early 8am..tp mcm biasa we all sampai lambat coz nk tunggu hero2 i bgn tdo & prepare them... so we all sampai kampung around 9am...( we missed take photo with the whole family..tsk..tsk..)

for those yg wondering..my kampung dekat ajer... 20 minutes from my hse since hiway L*EKAS dah bukak..best kan? ;D

Actually event start the nite before, where all the youngsters will sleep dekat tents yang disediakan...pastuh got Qiamulalil before they had Subuh prayer... (tapi I dgr kul 3 pg depa smuer cabut tdo dlm rumah coz dengar bunyik lembu meng-MOOOOO....hehehe )


us..baru sampai kampung


take photo with small family...aleea & arie tgh main game


aleea tgh sakan berlari..

so di pagi hari adalah event sukaneka... dr toddler sampailar ke pasangan suami isteri...semua ade event nyer!! and as usual me & hubby CHAMPION utk group pasangan suami isteri... every year I mmg target nk menang... hati ini berkobar2 untuk menang walaopun hadiahnyer skadar tong sampah dr I*KEA... Janji Menang!!! heheheh


my Do Re Mi sibling tgh buat show..hehehe


my beloved father exhausted sampi tertdo kat bwh pokok... :p


muke abg Rayyan kepenatan bersama Bobop & Ummie

then later we had our lunch, solat zuhur berjemaah... lepas tuh start lar semuer melepet kepenatan..


pada malam hari adalah acara yang ditunggu2kan... Iaitu acara pakaian beragam for kids & penyampaian hadiah..since Rayyan & Hadif still small so diorg ni di category utk masuk event ni jer... tahun depan mayb Rayyan dah blh masuk sukaneka kot... So as a mother mestilar kite berkobar-kobar nk anak kite comel kan... so i asked my beloved sis to buy animal costume for my heroes... so wat will they be??? TAAADDDDAAAAA


my precious

YESSSS a PENGUIN... my heroes has become two CUTEST little penguins in the world!!! tapi Rayyan a bit moody that nite..since die penat & tak cukup tdo..biaselar kan dah ramai2 kat kampung tuh..mane nyer nk tdo...

so ramai lg by niece & nephew yg masuk... ade yg jd bee, leopard, Batman, Ultraman....James bond pon ada!!!! MMG BEST sangat...


aleea rock star


akeef lil panda


adam de batman


aira lucy liu


qistina tinkerbell


ain snow white


anas de bee


amir leopard


amirul hafiz our youngest participant as James Bond with his "sport car"


dani the platipus...


hopefully next year still ade event nie!!! kene pk ape plak my heroes nk jadi...any idea??

Till then... muah! muah!

my heroes...

Rayyan is now 17months.. Hadif plak 3 months..Wow..mcm xpercaya jer.. in age 30 this year I have 2 little heroes!! not bad huh! so skrg ni I tgh sibuk2 menambahkan vocab untuk encik rayyan kite nih... baru I tau bile kite ade anak age2 mcm rayyan ni baru kite rase fun sgt! tgk gelagat die, pelat die bercakap, bile die memanggil2 nama kite...waduhh...rase mcm nk menangis pon ade kekadang..betapa besar nikmat Allah kasi pada kite..terima kasih ya Allah....

Rayyan pon skrg cepat dapat bile kite ajar..so skrg nie me xblh ckp bad words depan die..sebutan die pon agak clear.. owwhh i am so proud of him...pastuh favourite die bace buku okkei... rayyan mmg suke sgt dgn buku... so from now on we just buy books for him & his so exciting & meronta2 utk kami bacakan buku utk die... harap2 sampai besar lar Rayyan suke bace buku...

Hadif plak dah pandai cakap2 & senyum.. kalau i duk telek2 muke Hadif nih, hemsem jugak die nie...hehehe tapi anak mama sorang nie a bit cemek sket... manja sgt2.. die ade instinct yg SGT kuat when he knows i'm around.. kalau I anta my heroes rumah mama, sharp pukul 5 ptg die mesti start menangis & meragam coz nk nenen...so i have to make sure that i have to reach my mom's sharp 5 o'clock.. pastuh kalau die tdo pon & I just jenguk die dlm buai terus die bukak mate & nangis mintak angkat... terror btul die deria bau die..atau i ker yg achem??? heheheh

owhh nway i just submit my study extension letter... met big boss dulu before hantar.. hopefully lepas lar my 1 year extension nih... doakan yek!!

Till then..muah! muah!

Hadif 2 bulan

Hadif dah 2 bulan & nak masuk 3 bulan... woosshh best nyer!! Actually me xsabar nk tunggu my little hero ni 6 months...baru rase confident sket nk bwk g jenjalan..As for now me & family byk spent time kat rumah jer..or just g rumah sedare mare..itu pon bagai nk rak pujuk lil Hadif ni utk tdo since die nih tdo buai... (Tun if u read this, sponsor lar mak beli cradle mcm Icha! :p)

Tapi Alhamdulillah things getting much more better.. I become more steady, on schedule and trying very hard to become a good wife, mummy & PhD student... Anyway nowadays my schedule a bit tight..as among of my resolutions are to cook everyday, finish up my system & testing data (atleast within this year) so i really need to schedule my time.. pagi bgn siapkan anak2..ready to send them to my mom's..hantar dgn maid skali yer.. tu around 10am lar..then go back open lappy start to do my work...tp biasalar research kejap laju kejap perlahan.. recently i'm kind of stuck tp xpe..pelan2 kayuh kan...then around 5pm, solat asar, pump ebm jap then go pick up my heroes..

pastuh since Rayyan dah quite stable berjalan, me & hubby bwk die pusing2 taman jap..sian plak mamat tu asyik terperuk jer kat rumah kan... syiok jgk layan Rayyan main taman.. ade jer project genius die...cute sgt!! so around 7pm I pon kelam kabut nk start masak..so far Alhamdulillah hubby ckp my skill of cooking improved..meaning sodap lar tuh..heheh then malam I just spend my time with my 3 heroes...

Did i Tell u guys last month we did minor renovation @ our home..so this is it.. i really love it..nampak cantik sket lar bhgn atas rumah I..so since duit dah habis duk chantekkan rumah... so now its time to earn some extra money... how?? now I join MLM business!!! yeh baby..1st time in my life.. its VEMMA....

(it used to be an open balcony)

so its a health product based on mangosteen juice based on USA... SGT sedap & menyihatkan.. and as usual lar..buy product, become a member, try to look for downline to get some bonus.. BUT wats the different between VEMMA with other MLM.. its an autobuilder system...everything is ready... our job is just to promote the website to others...once other people have register at the website, the Vemma system will automatically sent emails to them to encourage those people to join the club..Just as simple as that... no seeing client, no wasting time to look for client, wat u need is just an internet connection to promote the site...

lg pon i buat ni as my part time jer since I mmg interested to consume their product for my own benefit.. so ala2 menyelam sambil minum air lar nie.. I Get Healthy yet Earn Extra Money... okay lar tuh!.. :D feel free to visit my promoting page http://iezmavemma.weebly.com/

Till then..muah! muah!